Your stalker...

You may or may never, ever know how I feel when I weep,
For months I've not seen or not heard enough from you,
You may never know how I fell for you so true...
You may never know that I still watch your pictures everyday...

Every movement of your eyes, lips, the straight manliness of your nose,
Or the swing of your hair, your skin in cream confection...
Your height so alluring, your hands and beautiful fingers...
Your toes on each foot and how they separate one by one...

You may never know how your voice melts all anger from My heart...
You may never know that I can't help but see God in your face...
You may never know how I hold on to time, and moment when I believed you were mine...

Touching your lips,holding your hands,
At times I would feel best I died in your arms...
I draw and paint your face with tears if there be ...
But I let you go, for it mattered only for you to be happy...

You may never know what your leaving has done to me,
I longed to just see, smell your hair and your skin ...
Or how you shake your feet when you sit to play your guitar...
You may never know how I wonder if I can ever love again...

And I know such a gem would never rest on my left hand finger....
Or the thoughts of you wanting me to have your children...
And I'm still in a box, because my knight deserves more in this life...than I...
I try but it's so hard to not miss or need you...crave you...

You may never know how I dream that this nightmare didn't occur,
I wish to get up with your love for me unchanged...
You may never know what it took to nicely let you go,
Though inside I was cracking into billions of pieces...

And I see you when I close my eyes, your image is my fantasy...
Everything is you, and I want your kisses and your hugs...
You have no idea how bitterly lonely I really am...
And my soul was always captivated by you...

Why oh why did you lift and sweep me off my feet...
To fall, on this hard concrete...Head first with massive headaches...
I look at old videos of your music inspired by some distant lover...
And I dream and believe it's me...That you really wanted me forever...

You may or may never know how dumb I feel ,
And lost and expressionless now as I walk alone through Savannah...
You may never or maybe one day, you would figure,
But I know I still could never make you love me....