An Urge To Suck

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My life as a closet cocksucker.
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ClosetCS
ClosetCS
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This is my first submission. This is also the first non fiction story I've ever wrote.

I was brought up in a reasonably normal home. Raised by reasonably normal Parents.

Except for a couple of close calls which I may write about later, my teen sexual experiences remain hetero. However I began having dreams that were homoerotic in nature. I never shared these dreams with anyone. I suppressed them and they became less frequent after a serious relationship or two.

Three years after high school I bought a house, settled down. I still enjoyed Adults mags and movies, even collected them. On the outside it all looked completely normal...and above all straight. When I watched these movies, I masturbated while imagining I was the one with the hard cock in mouth. I was the one being forced to deepthroat. I would close my eyes and look up at this face-less man while he pushed his dick deep in my mouth.

My unknown Master would fill my mouth with his cum as the women in the movies received their rewards and my orgasm would explode out of me.

Exposure to the Internet, as you might expect, changed things dramatically. It took me a couple years of online chatting to get up the courage to post a personal ad. I don't remember the site anymore as it was several years ago. The ad was simple: WM, 30, Disease free, looking to explore oral sex with same. I got many many responses.

I picked one fairly local guy who included a pic. We chatted for a couple weeks before I agreed to meet. Finally, the opportunity presented itself and we set up a place to meet.

He was a business owner and he suggested that we meet at his store after hours. I agreed.

Needless to say, I was tremendously nervous. He was a little older than me, which looking back was good for a first timer. I remember he sat down and he patted the couch in an invitation. I declined and sat down in another chair a few feet away. Damn I was nervous! I confessed to being a bit scared and he said, "I know". Could he see me shaking? He started rubbing his cock through his pants. It was hard already and looked pretty impressive in length. Then he unzipped and pulled it out and started jacking it. I was totally mesmerized. It was thinner than I expected but a good two inches longer than mine. After what seemed like forever, he spoke and it startled me. "You know you want to touch it", he said in a soft encouraging voice. So, I sat next to him and put my hand around his, by now, very hard cock. A few moments of stroking went by and once again he spoke. "Come on, you know you want to suck it, don't you?" I realized I was nodding without even looking at him. So, here I am, at the moment of truth. The moment I have dreamed of many times over. I leaned over and put his cock right at my mouth and I got a bit spooked. He must've seen my fear because he Ssshhhhed me quietly and pushed my head down. I promise, I expected it to be good but I never in a million years would've been prepared for how wonderful a cock in my mouth felt. He "made" me such his balls. He said it made the cum boil in him. I had never heard anyone say that before. Inch by inch, he pushed his dick deeper until I gagged. This seemed to excite him as his cock only got harder. Then he grabbed the back of my neck and tensed up. I did not need to be told what was happening. He gave a rough grunt and I felt his cum squirt on my tongue. I didn't feel comfortable swallowing so I just kept sucking and he kept cumming. I ended up with a big mouthful of cum. He asked if I wanted to spit and I nodded yes once again.

I have not been the same since that day. I tried a few other cocks out before finding a safe trustworthy person to regularly service. I'll write of those events if there is any interest. Currently, I've been happily married for many years. I live life as a hetero male. However, every once in a while I get this familiar undeniable, insatiable urge to...aww you know.

Email me if you want.

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AnonymousAnonymousover 1 year ago

i know the feeling oh to well. My first time was almost the same only he held my mouth until i swollowed his cum. Then we went out for a beer, i could smell the cum on my breath. I so remember the after taste for what seemed like hours. I sucked him a second time before he went home.

Sounding22Sounding22over 2 years ago

Such a nice story and don’t feel guilty about wanting to suck cock and eat pussy.

It goes to show you "You can have your cake and eat it too"

AnonymousAnonymousalmost 4 years ago
You know

Oh yes we do know. Once you suck and especially once you swallow you are addicted. it doesn’t matter if you are young or mature, married or single you need to suck cock. The desire never subsides.

jackbirdjackbirdalmost 4 years ago
The urge never goes away

Back in 1972 I was a young teen and sucked my best buddy off. I swallowed his load to and it was a big one. After I was done he left and I felt so guilty and embarrassed and ashamed. I was a virgin when I sucked him. That night I got horny as hell thinking about what happen and jerked-off, the next day to. I avoided him for 3 days then bumped into him he said that was so hot the other day want to do it again?? Seeing him gave me a flashback my cock betrayed me and got hard. I said ok and we went to his room parents were out and he pulled it out and I went to my knees. I loved the way his cock felt on my tongue the salty tasting warn meat in my mouth and on my tongue. Then hearing him moan with pleasure is very exciting my heart racing him trying to jam it down my throat. Then exploding in my mouth was thrilling with him crying out in pleasure. I was now hooked and he knew it. After about 6 years of sucking him I stopped for a number of years putting my urges aside so I thought. Year latter started sucking again. Every now and then the urge to suck becomes a craving. Yes once a cock sucker alwas one

Rwa4768Rwa4768almost 5 years ago
Loved your story

I have also sucked several cocks in private, but still live as a straight man. I don't consider myself gay I just like sucking cock occasionally.

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