Caroline Ch. 10.04

As he stood I could see his penis sticking up like a flagpole, long and thin and ready to inject me deep inside with another portion of his hot juice. I watched him walk round behind me then I felt his erection at my anus and it wasn't Guy, it was Mike again. "Slowly Mike, slowly," I said, in some sort of a dream world, not realising what I said, "take me there slowly, oh how I love you." He pushed forward slowly and kept on going until he was halfway inside me, then out, then in a little more. ""Oh yes, yes. Please go on, I love you dearest. It's wonderful." On and on, deeper and deeper until I felt his thighs against the back of mine.

Now he started to move in my bottom hard, no gentleness now, he had lost all control I think buried deep inside me. I loved it. His penis was hitting my insides and this thighs banging into mine. His hands gripped my hips to pull me on to him. I forgot completely that it was Guy doing this. By now Mike was inside me, deep inside. I suppose that Guy's thinner erection was sliding more easily in my rectum assisted by his first load of cum and the KY but I didn't think of that, just of Mike inside me.

Guy lasted longer this time but, after a while of this intense sodomy, he yelled out loud, what I don't know, and started to spurt inside me. This brought on my orgasm and I squeezed my anus and rectum to milk him. There wasn't so much this time, I was wearing him down, but it was enough. He pulled out with a silent plop and fell back on the bed taking me with him.

"Oh god Lena, I'm so sorry. I got carried away. I didn't hurt you did I? I'm so sorry."

"No," I said softly, "you didn't hurt me." I'm afraid I was in trouble now! As soon as we finished I was overwhelmed by this feeling of guilt. Guilt that I'd enjoyed it so much, let Guy take me like this, with so much enthusiasm. But I had to control it, I didn't want Guy to think he'd done something wrong. It's strange isn't it, I didn't find out until later that he was having similar feelings but then us humans don't communicate these sorts of things very well do we?

Anyhow, I cuddled up to him and said, "I need to tidy up. Give me a minute then we can shower together. It's a tight fit but we can manage." Afterwards Guy was strangely quiet, as if something was worrying him. I didn't pry, I was tied up in my own feelings then.

So I cleaned up, we showered then went to sleep together without saying too much. It was a sad end to a lovely sexual experience but we were both upset. I didn't sleep very well and all thought of him making love to me properly disappeared in my guilt at enjoying him so much. So when I woke in the morning I had a muddled head and I didn't feel very happy. I desperately wanted to speak to Mike so when I heard the other bedroom door close I quickly hopped out of bed and peeked out. It was Jo.

"Jo," I whispered.

She smiled at me lovingly, "Hello Lena, how did it go?"

"Oh Jo, Jo, I'm so upset, I think Guy is as well," I said sniffling.

She looked concerned as we stood outside the bedrooms. I quietly closed the door. "It was great, he was wonderful but Jo, oh dear Jo, I enjoyed it so much and now I feel terrible. So guilty, ashamed almost. I need to see Mike, is he okay?"

She drew me to her, "He's fine. We had a good night." The she was concerned, "What about Guy?"

"Well he was wonderful all the time but afterwards he went very quiet. I know he enjoyed having me but he seemed bothered by something afterwards."

"I'll go and see him. You go to Mike. Don't worry everything will be all right."

I opened the door to the main bedroom and crept inside. "Hello precious," Mike said, he knew it was me. How did he know that?

I climbed into bed with him, hugged him tight and started to cry.

He held me tightly to and stroked my hair, "What is it darling, what's the matter?"

"Oh Mike I feel so bad, ashamed," I sobbed. I was completely sunk in my guilt at having given Guy so much of myself.

"Ssshhh, sweetheart. Tell me what it is." I think he knew really but I had to tell him didn't I? To try and deal with it.

Sniffling I said, "I enjoyed it so much, him in my bottom. I even thought it was you, oh not now, but a younger you. He's so much like you. Oh I feel terrible, so guilty. I feel as if I've betrayed you."

He sat up and took me with him then he held my shoulders firmly and gazed into my eyes. "You have done nothing wrong, you don't have to feel ashamed, guilty or anything else. I'm glad you enjoyed yourself, giving yourself to him. I love you Caroline, more than anything, tu sei il mio speranza, il mio core e il mio vito. Darling one I just want you to be happy. Of course I don't want you to go off with any man but with Guy, that's okay. He's my son and I love him, I suspect you do a little bit don't you?"

I began to feel a little bit better, after all he did tell me I was his hope, his heart and his life. That's bound to make a woman feel better isn't it? But I still had that nagging doubt, that feeling that I had betrayed him well, perhaps not betrayed him but let him down.

I had managed to control my tears by now but I was still sniffling, "Thank you," I said, "I do love you despite being with Guy last night. It's just that it felt so wonderful when he was doing it to me." I hugged Mike so hard I must have hurt him. "I even called him Mike while he was inside me. Oh it's so difficult to explain. I'm sorry but it's like being with a young version of you." I began to cry again fearing that I'd hurt him by saying that. "I'm sorry, so sorry. I shouldn't talk like that, it's not fair and it hurts you."

Again he gazed deeply into my eyes. "No, it doesn't hurt me. Not when you say it like that. Don't you see, the only reason you feel like that about Guy is because he's so like me! That means you love me doesn't it, not Guy. He's sort of a substitute me." He smiled, "Anyway you're here now, surely you see that that proves you love me."

As usual he managed to calm me down and see things properly. "You see," I said, "I lost myself with him. Oh Mike, it almost went too far, crossed over that line. It felt so marvellous when he was doing it but I felt so rotten afterwards."

"Well you don't have to, everything is all right. We're moving pretty fast you know. Lots of new emotions, new feelings are being generated and some may be pretty difficult to deal with. And don't forget the pills you're taking. I think that's what's happened last night. Sweetheart, you felt something for him didn't you?"

"Yes I did, love I suppose. This is difficult. But it wasn't him I loved, not Guy. It was you, you when you were young. But then it was Guy and I did feel something for him as Guy. Oh this is so difficult." I began to cry again.

"Ssshhh darling. You have so much love to give and now you've got confused about where to give it," he said smiling gently at me. "I know you love me, you're here now and you know I love you, more than anything. Just let things be. Don't feel guilty just revel in the joyful feelings you had last night with Guy."

He was right wasn't he, these feelings were difficult and I needed time but just at this moment I needed Mike. I needed to prove I loved him in the only way I could.

"Can you make love to me, please I need you, need you to love me?" I knew he would have cum with Jo and he may not be able to manage now but he surprised me.

He took me in his arms and whispered in my ear, "To make love to you is always something I want," and he kissed me. Then he laughed, his wonderful laugh that banished all my troubles, "But you might have to work a bit to harden something up."

I caught his mood and it banished my woes. I smiled back, "Looks like my mouth is going to be full then doesn't it," and I licked my lips sexily and poked my tongue out at him. He took me close in his arms and kissed me tenderly. He was going to make love to me, I knew that and it was just what I needed. He started to kiss my face, my eyes, my nose, my cheeks, then to my ears; gently nibbling the lobes and blowing softly inside. I decided to return the favour. He really likes his earlobes nibbled, sometimes bitten quite hard so I pushed him gently away and said, "My turn."

I kissed his face as he'd done mine and moved to his ears. I nibbled his lobes and then bit them harder. He took a deep breath, "That's good Lena, good." I licked his ears all round then moved to his neck. I wanted to make love to him, to make him want me. I suppose I needed to reaffirm his love for me after my feeling that I had betrayed him. I was sure that he didn't feel like that but you know how I am.

I moved down to his chest and began to pull the hair gently with my teeth. He likes that and I enjoy doing it. I used my tongue to circle around his nipples and took them between my teeth to tenderly catch them. He liked this as well but he wasn't about to let me do all the work. He stroked my hair then moved my head level with his, "I want to examine those boobs of yours," he said smiling, "it's a least a week since I've sucked those gorgeous nipples."

"Oh yes please, they're still too small though!"

He smiled, "They are gorgeous, just like the rest of you." So he moved his mouth down to my boobs and began to suck and gently bite my nipples. I don't know how he knew but he did it like Guy did; funny, he'd never done it like that before.

"Mmm, that's nice, keep doing that and I might cum." So he did, for what seemed like ages. Another strange thing, his hand went to my pussy and his fingers opened the lips of my sex, probing inside and beginning to gently stroke me. This was enough and I had a lovely orgasm, moaning softly, "Yes, yes, yes," as he brought me off.

Then he was moving down again until his mouth found my pussy and he began to suck the juices from me, using his tongue to push tenderly inside and anoint the inner lips. It was heavenly. "Bite my clit, please, make me cum again before I suck you hard, please." He did of course but not before he'd licked all round the inside of my sex, drinking the essence of me. Now he concentrated on my clit, sucking, nibbling and finally biting. Not too hard but hard enough to bring another climax. This one soft and gentle, just like him.

"I need that hard now," I said, "thank you, that was lovely. Now I want to suck that lovely penis of yours. Will it get hard enough?"

He rolled onto his back and said laughing, "I don't know, what do you think?"

I looked down and could see him almost hard. I smiled sexily at him, "Oh, I think I can suck that hard enough," and I licked my lips suggestively.

It was good to feel him in my mouth again, fatter and somehow stronger than Guy's. I loved the circumcised head, so clean looking and so tender. I poked my tongue into his pee hole and was rewarded with pre-cum which I swirled around my mouth to taste. Tangier and saltier than Guy's, and nicer too! I suppose that was because I loved him! He was getting really hard now and, for some reason, seemed to be leaking more pre-cum than usual. It was lovely, I was able to suck it out of his penis. This caused Mike to begin thrusting upwards into my mouth and I knew he was nearly ready now.

As I continued to masturbate him with my hand I said to him, "Do you want me now?" He nodded, "How?" I asked and although I wasn't prepared, "front or back. You can have me any way you want."

"I want to make love to you, baby making practice with the woman I love," he said.

I started to cry softly, he could do that to me just by saying things like that. He moved down level with me and held me tight before I lay back ready for him. Parting my legs he knelt in between just taking a few moments to savour the sight of my pussy, wet and ready for him. Then he leant forward and, as usual, took his weight on one arm using his other hand to guide his rampant penis into me. I wanted it all at once this time so I fixed his eyes with mine and said, "All in one go please, I need it all at once."

He stared into my eyes and thrust forward burying all of his beautiful weapon inside me. Breath rushed from my body as he filled me and I almost began to cry at the intensity of the feeling. Then he was moving, in and out, in and out stroking the inside of my vagina with his lovely maleness. Now he was speeding up and I could tell he was closing on his own orgasm. I reached up and pulled him down on me, I wanted to feel the weight of him on top of me as well as his erection inside me.

He sighed deeply as he began to loose his cream inside me, "Oh Caroline, I love you," he said, "so much," and his mouth covered mine in a deep and passionate kiss. I could feel him pulsing inside me and my legs came up to trap him there, never to let him go. I wanted him inside me for ever as I started to climax as well. It was different, this climax, this orgasm, this release. I felt better, as if I'd somehow banished the feelings of betrayal, of letting him down.

"I love you," I whispered in his ear when he removed his mouth from mine, "more than anything. I'm sorry," and I started to cry softly.

He took his now softening penis from inside my body and looked down at me, "You never have to be sorry, you know that. Come on, I expect you to feel better now you've been injected with the magic white medicine." He smiled which caused me to smile back.


"Mmm, I like that medicine more than any other," I said, then I pouted. "Trouble is it only comes in small doses doesn't it."

He laughed, "Yes, I'm afraid it does but then again, taking it is quite pleasant isn't it?"

"Very pleasant," I laughed, happy now that those bad feelings had dissipated. I cuddled up to him and we both dozed off for a while before getting up. I was just a bit concerned about Guy and Jo because he did seem upset but I assumed she would sort him out.

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