Thanks to my dear friend blackrandl1958 for once again giving me the basis for this story, her advice, input and, of course, her editing. She is truly my sweet inspiration. Thanks to Crkcppr for beta reading.
Carrie Benton looked at herself in the mirror. She had really never been totally satisfied with her body. Getting out of the shower and noticing herself in the mirror wasn't something she did often. Her big Cane Corso, Gabe, looked up at her with a jaundiced eye. A long drool clung to his floppy jowls as he lifted his head. Carrie sighed and got the rag to clean his jowls. She had drool rags in every room of the house.
"You love me, don't you, baby?" she cooed to him. "That's right; you're Mama's big boy. You think Mama's pretty."
She turned back to the mirror. She wished she had bigger boobs. Even a bigger ass would be nice. It wasn't that hers wasn't cute; she was still firm and bouncy, she just realized she would always be little. At five three and less than a hundred pounds, she was still as cute as she had been at twenty. Fifty-five was her next birthday and she was proud that she could still wear any of her clothes that hadn't worn out since she was in high school. She could even still fit into her wedding dress. She'd tried it on last year when she thought she might marry Jeff. She knew she loved him. She had thought that he loved her. After Eric died, she hadn't dated for five years. Oh, she'd gone on the occasional date, but she hadn't wanted a relationship. Eric had been her first and last love, she had thought, then Jeff dropped out of the blue. He was the new insurance agent at the company where she kept hers, and when she came in to talk to Randall about her new car, he had been drinking a cup of coffee in Randall's office. Randall introduced them and as she signed her new policy, she had noticed him checking her out. She was a little embarrassed and hurried away.
He had called her the next week and invited her to dinner. Carrie was doubtful; she still felt deeply in love with her late husband, and was comfortable in her solitude.
"Thank you, Jeff," she said, "I appreciate the offer, but I really don't think I'd be very good company."
"Okay, I understand," said Jeff, "Maybe some other time?"
"Maybe," she said, not really thinking that she would change her mind.
Her high school friend, James Clark, stopped by for a visit, and Carrie told him about Jeff's invitation.
"Why didn't you say yes, Carrie?" James asked. "It's been five years since Eric died, he wouldn't want you to be lonely."
"But I'm not lonely," Carrie said, "Just because I'm alone doesn't mean I'm lonely."
"Okay, okay," James laughed, "I understand, but just give it some thought, if not Jeff maybe someone else. If I wasn't happily married to Emily, I'd be knocking on your door!"
Carrie laughed, "All right, James, you win, I'll think about it, but I'm not making any promises."
True to her word, Carrie did think about it, and the next time Jeff asked her out she said yes.
Jeff picked her up in a nice mid-level Toyota sedan and took her to Jimbo's, a family-style restaurant with a varied menu.
"I was asking Randall how such an attractive young woman was unattached," Jeff said, "and was surprised to hear that you were fifty-five; I was sure that you were much younger. Then he told me about you losing your husband, and I understood your reluctance to date. Do you want to talk about it?"
"There's not really much to tell," Carrie said, "We were your typical high school sweethearts. From the day we met at the start of our sophomore year, we knew we were meant to be together, and we never dated anyone else. Even when we had the silly spats that everyone has, it never got to the point of either of us dating anyone else.
"After we graduated from college, we got married and had all these big plans for our future, including many children, and five years later, we were thrilled to find that I was pregnant. We had a beautiful baby boy, David, but complications left me incapable of having any more children.
"We were disappointed, but we pulled together and came out stronger than ever, determined to be the best parents we could be.
"For the next twenty plus years we just loved on each other. David grew into a fine young man. He's married with children of his own, living in California. We weren't much for traveling, so we bought some land. We grew some wheat, and Eric let me raise sheep since I had loved them from the time I was a little girl.
"Around eight years ago, fate dealt us another losing hand: cancer. We fought it with everything we had, but I lost Eric five years ago, and have been on my own ever since."
Neither spoke for a moment, then Carrie gave a wry smile.
"Well, now that I've put a total damper on things," she said, "Why don't you tell me your story?"
"No," Jeff said, "Don't feel like that, I wanted to know about you, and frankly, that just makes me admire you all the more. Those are things that would destroy most people, but they seem to have only made you stronger."
"Thank you, Jeff, but you still owe me your tale."
"Well, it has nothing to compare with your drama," he said. "Lilly and I also married young, maybe too young. I'm ashamed to admit that we were both unfaithful, and were divorced before our tenth anniversary. I don't know if it's a good thing, but we had no children, and the divorce was about as amicable as possible under the circumstances.
"Since then, I've been pretty much a free agent. I've had several short to medium term relationships, the shortest about a year, none longer than five years.
"I've reached a point in my life where if I don't find the right woman soon, then I'm probably fated to be a lonely old man."
Surprisingly, unburdening themselves enabled them to have a relaxing and pleasant dinner, and they made plans to go out again.
As she sat on her couch patting Gabe on the head, Carrie thought about some of the things that she and Jeff had talked about that night.
'Yes,' she thought, 'I am comfortable in my solitude,' but did she want to become, in Jeff's words, "a lonely old woman?" She really didn't feel that she would ever be lonely, but new possibilities had opened up in her mind.
After their third date, Carrie invited Jeff in for coffee. She was a little dismayed that Gabe didn't quite seem to take to Jeff, but he wasn't showing any signs of being in "protection mode," either.
Jeff was a perfect gentleman and made sure not to push Carrie beyond her comfort zone. That first night they were sitting close together on the couch, listening to soft music and sipping coffee, when Jeff put his arm around her and kissed her gently on the lips. She wasn't sure if the kiss was really so wonderful or if it was just how long since she had a romantic kiss, but she felt a tingle run up and down her spine and her nipples hardened.
She kissed him back and soon their tongues were dancing together. As her hands stroked his back, she remembered how good it was to hold a man in her arms. His right hand moved from her back, began stroking her left arm, and she felt the warmth grow deep inside her. When his hand moved from her arm to her breast, she stiffened slightly, but then gave herself over to the feelings. When he started to slip his hand under her top, she gently pushed him away.
"I'm sorry, Jeff," she said, "This all feels wonderful, but I'm just not quite ready."
"I understand, Carrie," Jeff said, "You're a very special woman, and I can wait until you're ready."
They returned to their kissing, but soon had to call it a night before things went too far.
They continued dating, and their post-date activities were getting hotter and hotter, though Carrie did notice that Gabe just never really warmed up to Jeff, and always watched warily from his blanket in the corner. Jeff had progressed to getting Carrie's top and bra off, and was massaging her breasts and playing with her nipples. As he sucked and nibbled on her hardening nipples Carrie felt that she was losing her control a bit, so she slid down to the floor and got between Jeff's legs. She reached up, undid Jeff's belt and pants and pulled down his zipper.
Reaching into his boxers, she pulled out his semi-erect penis and began stroking it to full hardness. She rubbed first one cheek and then the other against his cock as it got even harder, smiling up at Jeff all the while. As Jeff moaned in pleasure, she kissed it all over before slowly, sensually, licking around the head, sticking her tongue out as far as she could. Jeff's moans got louder and more desperate as she rose up a bit to start taking his cock into her mouth. She slowly moved up and down, taking more in with each stroke until she had her nose buried in his pubic hair. Though she hadn't had a cock in her mouth for over five years, it all came back to her in a flash and she easily maintained her breath control as she brought Jeff ever closer to his orgasm.
When she could tell that he was close, she pulled her mouth off and finished him with her hand as he came on her breasts. As Jeff leaned back in post-orgasmic bliss, his eyes shot wide open as Carrie smiled at him while she rubbed his cum all over her breasts. Carrie stood up, gave Jeff a kiss on his forehead and went to the bathroom to do a quick clean-up of her breasts. When she came back, she had a warm damp cloth and towel to clean Jeff's penis.
Carrie shrugged back into her top, not bothering with her bra. When Jeff reached for her waistband, Carrie backed off.
"What's the matter, Carrie?" Jeff asked, "I just want to return the favor."
"It's okay, Jeff," she said, just barely keeping herself under control, "I just wanted to do something for you, to thank you for being so patient with me."
"Well, I guess I had better be going," he said, "As much as you turn me on, if I stay here much longer I don't know if my will power will be able to restrain my lust!" He gave Carrie a gentle kiss on her lips and made his way quietly out the door as Carrie leaned against it, wiping the sweat from her brow.
"Whew," she said to Gabe, "Where did that come from?"
Gabe just tilted his head and looked at her quizzically.
'God,' she thought, 'why didn't I just let him fuck me? God knows I need it!'
Carrie went to her bedroom, shedding her remaining clothes as she went, and pulled her vibrator and KY out of her nightstand drawer. She had only used it about two or three times a year, on her and/or Eric's birthdays and sometimes Valentine's Day, but tonight's session with Jeff had her so hot that she needed some release.
She had come down a little bit, so she began by running the tip of the vibrator around her nipples, quickly re-building her lust. With her other hand, she began rubbing her pussy, feeling her lips begin to part. Putting down the vibrator for the moment, she squeezed some lube onto her fingers and began to rub them up and down her slit. As her pussy lips parted some more she re-applied the lube and began to probe her vagina slowly, then gently massaged her clit as it shyly peeked out from under the hood.
Carrie then picked up the vibrator and applied a generous coating of lube to it. After turning it on low, she began to stroke her labia gently, but she really didn't have the patience and quickly began rubbing it on and around her clit, quickly coming to a shuddering climax.
After a brief respite, she was still wound up, so she re-applied the KY, turned the vibrator on high and quickly plunged it up her pussy. 'Yes,' she thought, 'Pussy. It had been a long time since I thought of my vagina that way, but tonight that's just what it was.'
She plunged the vibrator more vigorously in and out until she came explosively and fell asleep with it still inside her, barely remembering to turn it off.
She woke up, still not sure exactly what had gotten into her; besides the vibrator, of course. She removed the vibrator, setting it aside for cleaning later, and went to take a nice hot shower. As she washed her breasts, they were still sensitive and sent chills throughout her body. Her pussy was even worse. She managed to get through her shower without turning it into another masturbation session, and wrapped herself in a big, fluffy robe. She retrieved the vibrator, washed it off and returned it and the lube to the nightstand. She saw her message light flashing. She checked and it was from Jeff, asking her to call him. She decided that it could wait until she had her breakfast, and put the coffee on.
After a nice breakfast of bacon and eggs, she called Jeff back.
"Hi, Carrie," he said, "I was wondering if you would like to go out to dinner tonight?"
Carrie thought that he might be rushing things, and put him off to Friday night.
Jeff picked her up at 7:00 and took her to Excalibur, one of the finer restaurants in town. Carrie had a feeling that something was up.
The dinner was exquisite, as was to be expected, but the conversation was a bit forced, and Jeff seemed to have something on his mind. It could really only be one of two things, and the venue made one much more likely than the other.
Jeff was unusually quiet during coffee, as he seemed to be trying to make his mind up about something. When the check arrived, he seemed to have come to a decision, and rather than wait for a credit card to be processed, simply left cash with the check, took Carrie's hand and left the restaurant.
Carrie had her antennae up when Jeff drove to a nearby park rather than either of their homes. Sitting together on a bench, Jeff put his arm around Carrie and pulled her close.
"Carrie, honey, you must know that I have developed very strong feelings for you. You are a very special woman and you are very special to me."
"Yes, Jeff," she said, "You're very special to me, too."
Jeff then got down on one knee as he took a small blue velvet box out of his pocket. Setting the box aside, he took her hands in his and said, "Carrie Benton, you are one of the most beautiful, most wonderful people I know. Would you do me the honor of being my wife?"
With only the slightest hesitation, Carrie nodded happily, and with a big smile said, "Yes, Jeff, I will marry you."
Jeff picked up the ring, placed it on her ring finger and they stood up, fell into each other's arms and kissed passionately.
When Jeff took Carrie home he wanted to come in and consummate their relationship, but Carrie put him off with two objections.
"Jeff, the last man I made love to in this house was my late husband Eric. I realize that is likely to change, but I have another reason as well."
"What would that be, Carrie?"
"When Eric and I were courting, we were very much in love, probably even more than you and I."
Jeff made a small frown.
"But more importantly, as young and in love as we were, and as passionate as we were, we were still able to save ourselves for our wedding night. I feel that I owe it to Eric's memory to show the same restraint with you. I'm sorry; I hope that that you can understand."
"Well, I can't say that I'm not disappointed, Carrie," Jeff said, "but you are a treasure worth waiting for, and so I will."
Carrie threw herself back into Jeff's arms, kissing him all over his face.
"Thank you, Jeff, thank you! I promise you, you won't regret it!"
With a rueful smile, Jeff said good night and made his way back to his car.
It had all been going so well, until Randall called her and told her he had fired Jeff. He had been taking kickbacks from a roofing contractor to fix hail-damaged roofs from the last storm, even though other contractors would have done the job cheaper, and got caught with his hand in the till.
She immediately broke off the engagement, but he had the nerve to call her a few times. He wouldn't take no for an answer until she got James to pay him a visit. James had played football in college and become a professional wrestler for fifteen years. He was huge and intimidating, but he was a big teddy bear to the people he liked. He had a temper and Carrie told James she didn't want to know what happened.
One night Jeff was walking from a bar to his car in a dark parking lot when he was shoved up against his car and his arm was bent painfully up behind his back.
A muffled voice said, "If you don't stop bothering Carrie Benton I'll be back, and I won't be so nice next time. Nod if you understand." Jeff winced from the pain, nodded quickly, and his arm was released. When he turned around, nobody was there. If it wasn't for the pain he still felt in his arm, he would have thought he had imagined it. Imagination or not, Jeff never bothered her again.
Carrie was pissed off and pawned the engagement ring he had given her. She felt pretty good about that, and put him out of her mind.
She knew she couldn't stand there gazing at her own navel all day, so she shook off her reverie and got dressed. She went outside and lowered the tailgate of her truck. Gabe jumped in with a grunt and she drove out to her west forty acres. She owned a section of land. There were two quarter section wheat fields and the rest was in pasture where she kept her sheep. She loved sheep and Eric had loved her, so he let her raise them. Two of them were missing the last time she counted. She drove around the fence and spotted them grazing on the young wheat. There was a hole in the fence and she parked to drive them back in. Ralf, one of her Great Pyrenees that stayed with the sheep came up and when Gabe jumped down, they sniffed butts in greeting.
"Stop that," she chided them. "Nasty dogs!"
They looked suitably chastened, so she took Ralf and Polly, her other Great Pyrenees and rounded up the two strays. They helped her herd them back through the hole and she got out her tools and fixed the fence. She saw one of the Rawlinses leaning on their corral watching her. She didn't like them. They had been embroiled in a property dispute for a few years, and she was sure that they were responsible for the hole in her fence. They always had some immature comment to make when she ran into them and she hated the way they looked at her. There was an older father and two adult boys and the older man was the worst of the lot. She felt sorry for his poor wife. They were very afraid of Gabe and they usually never bothered her when he was around. Mostly she ran into them in town and they annoyed her. She wasn't afraid of them. She had a concealed carry permit and the nice little 9 mm in her purse or in a thigh holster if she was wearing a dress made her confident and calm. Gabe was very suspicious of people unless she reassured him, and that was why she loved him.
She put away her tools and drove back to the house. She was going to the grocery store and she got a bottle of water, changed her jeans for a flowered sundress, picked up her grocery list and let Gabe get out for a drink. He rode in the back of her truck with her nearly everywhere she went, and he wouldn't get out unless she told him he could. He wouldn't bother anyone and kids often came up and petted him. He kept an eye on people who were close to her, but he was otherwise friendly and he loved children. She stopped at the gas station to fill her tank. She was filling up her truck when she saw a silver and black sports car pull up behind her at the pump. She liked it and wondered what kind of a car it was. A very large man got out and swiped his card.
"Hey, Carrie," a voice called her. Damn, it was Carver Hawk. Aside from the Rawlinses, this was the only guy in town she didn't like. He was the football coach at the high school. Her son, David, had played for him and hated him. He'd hit on her several times, even when Eric was alive and she despised him.
"You look good today," he said. He was coming out of the store with a soda and his shaven head glistened in the sun. He had sunglasses on and he always walked with his arms sticking out ridiculously to show how strong he was. He had been quite the hero in high school, but had flamed out in college. David said he always talked about how he could have gone to the NFL if he hadn't been injured.