Asian Abuse Ch. 01

"You said you had to take another piss?"

"Yes. I'm just a few minutes from the office, though. I can make it."

"Can I be your toilet again, Sir? I don't want you to be uncomfortable."

The smile he gave me, secret and satisfied and just between him and me, was like the sun rising in the morning as he gently put his left hand on my shoulder, as I sank to my knees in gratitude, as he unzipped his fly with his right hand and pulled out his blood-filled but soft organ again, and as I sank my mouth onto his cock for the last time today, but hopefully not the last time in my life.

His second piss was much less bitter, but just as much in terms of volume (was he drinking water during our date? I was too pre-occupied to watch him closely). The coffee taste was all gone. It had a nice, clean, fresh aroma (How sick am I) that I felt I could probably learn to crave, just as I craved his verbal degradation.

"Such a good little girl," he crooned, purposely, approvingly, calculatingly...I knew...as he gave me praise and cemented me as his plaything.

This was an emotionally cruel, manipulative and sadistic man, but he was MY KIND of emotionally cruel, manipulative and sadistic man.

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I've agonized all afternoon about this letter, I'm worried it's too long, but I feel a pressing need to send something before too much time goes by. I hope it earns me another date...I have to go sleep, I'm totally exhausted. ======================================
Dear Sir,

Thank you, thank you, thank, thank you, thank you for a perfect date! I don't even know how to begin to thank you enough for using me like the "worthless rice nigger" that you called me.

I'm glad you took so long to come, that I had to work long and hard to please you with my mouth. I felt like I could have worshipped it all day with my mouth and with my whole body. I liked hearing your chuckles of satisfaction at times as you used and degraded me.

I thought it so sexy that you never even took off your clothes. I was so happy that I was able to back onto your cock and ride it with both my pussy and my ass. Your cock felt absolutely luscious in both holes (both are very sore, but sore in a good way) and I couldn't help gushing all over your monster. I'm so glad you let me clean up the awful mess I made on your cock. I was so ashamed, but I couldn't help myself. It was especially humiliating to go ass-to-mouth, but I deserved it. Please know that this is no problem -- I will never refuse to do anything you say. You can even punch me or kick me. I don't care. I just want to be able to serve you.

I loved it when you told me that I'm "such a good girl". It makes me feel incredibly good. You used a similar tone when I drank your piss. Thank you for not ending the date then and thank you for letting me be your toilet so that we could continue. I would have been devastated if I couldn't do that for you. I promise you will never have to use those toilets at the motel or anywhere else you want to use me. I would be honored to always drink your piss whenever we're together. It's more than I deserve. I'm actually daydreaming about it now. Being your toilet is something new for me and it is filling all my thoughts now. Please see me again so that I can prove myself to you again and again in this way.

When you slap my face and call me names it has a tranquilizing effect on me...very soothing. I may cringe in anticipation but I love it immensely when you make contact. That, when combined with the way you so expertly degrade me makes me feel very cared for, like you are caressing my face and caressing me and giving me what I need and not judging me. I don't know why, that's just the way it is. I'm glad I found you. Thank you for understanding what I need and being kind enough to give it to me. You're a very good person, more than I deserve.

I hope I pleased you and that you will decide to use me again someday. I'm afraid today won't be real unless I see you again and you humiliate, degrade and punish me.

I need to also tell you that I deserve to be punished very harshly for being a stupid and untrained "gook" and "chink" and I hope you won't hold it against me that I am what I am. In fact, I am desperate for you to punish me. I hope you don't hold my race against me, Sir. I will gladly take more punishment if you think I deserve it -- or even if I don't deserve it. Please be as harsh in my training as you want. I need it and want it. You can punish me and train me and turn me into whatever you want me to be. As we both know (and I agree with you) I'm just a worthless "slope-headed" piece of trash and I will be grateful for anything you do to me and for any attention you give me.

I'm so thankful for the time you gave me today. I cannot thank you enough for treating me like you did. PLEASE let me service your cock again in the future. I am just a stupid piece of trash that needs desperately to be trained and degraded and punished by a superior man like you.

...Your total gook and slant-eye and rice-nigger and zipperhead, worthless cunt and humiliation-slut at your beck and call.

PS: I heard you refer to me as a good girl once in particular and possibly another time. Thank you very much for that. I didn't want you to think I didn't hear you. Your dick was filling my mouth but I sighed in relief to feel that you were pleased with my efforts at that moment. Every slight thing you do and say to me, like those things, results in deep feelings of worth and deep feelings of happiness for me. Please let me experience that again, Sir!

PPS: I just want to make sure you know that I totally understand my place and fully understand that it's about you and only you. If you feel like hitting me when you call me names, so much the better. I trust that you won't damage me or hurt me more than I can handle. But even if you do, I deserve it. I TOTALLY trust you. I am just a receptacle for your superior White cum and piss. I want everything you want, as much as you can give. Please! Please! Please!!!!

PPPS: Thank you again Sir...it is really hard to stop thanking you for everything, but I don't want to make you angry at my unworthiness so I will stop now and go to bed. I'm completely exhausted. Thank You!

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Author Postscript: If you made it this far, then THANKS for giving my totally unrealistic and juvenile fantasy a chance to take a few minutes of your day (or night)! Feedback is always great to get, whether it's positive or negative.