Eating My Cum, A Husband's Journeybydoinkit1©
There are many heterosexual guys that fantasize about eating their own cum. This post is not about whether this is right or wrong, sensual or gross. This post is to share my experience and help other guys who have this fantasy.
I had been married several years before I started having these cum fantasies. Mine began when my wife was enacting a little sexual revenge. I month before this "trigger" episode, I was dominant with my wife and made her eat my cum. That was dumb. It was not her fantasy to do so and we definitely did not discuss it before had. To this day she will not purposefully eat cum because it reminds her of that experience (one of many mistakes to take note of). So a month later, she did not have the nerve to make me eat cum, but she did tie me up and tease me about it. She also made me eat my pre-cum...this was a first for me.
After that event, I found myself fantasizing about eating my own cum. I did not dare share my desire with my wife. Every once in a great while, she would give me a hand job during which she fed me some pre-cum. I would get extremely turned on and she could tell, but it never led to feeding me after I had an orgasm. Because I hid my desire, I began scouring the internet to see if I was a freak or if this was normal, or somewhere in between. This search and my wife's periodical pre-cum feeding drove me to femdom and bdsm stories. It turned out that there was enough guys like me that entire websites were created and movies made for this fantasy. It may not be mainstream, but I am not a freak.
I would read these stories when my wife was out of town or when I was away on business by myself. I felt safest then. I tried to eat my cum several times, but I always failed. Once I would have an orgasm, I would totally lose the ability to stomach such a thought as eating cum. (If you read many real stories and accounts you will find that this is fairly universal for heterosexual men.) I tried the 'store-it-in-a-cup-for-later' trick, the freezing method and the penis over the mouth while masturbating position but all failed. I finally decided that if I were going to really act this fantasy out, my wife needed to be involved.
One night, after a year of fantasizing about all of this, I rushed home before my wife, booted up the computer and opened up three of the stories to which I had masturbated many times. I shut the monitor off, but left everything up so that I could direct her attention to it when I thought it was appropriate. After dinner, I let my wife know that I wanted her to look at the computer. I told her that turn on the monitor and read the sexual stories. I told her, before she read the stories, that this was a fantasy of mine that I would like to do.
Thirty minutes went by and I could stand it no longer, I went back to the bedroom to find my wife in bed crying. Talk about a blow to my aspirations. What I later found out is that she was not mortified at the stories, she was upset because she thought that I was telling her that she was not sexually satisfying (yet another mistake you will not want to make). After about three days, we began to talk about the fantasy. It was not glorious and fulfilling. It was embarrassing and awkward. HOWEVER, we continued to talk about it.
I let the fantasy rest for a while. I had made a big mistake; I did not let my wife know how great she was before I tried to introduce my fantasy into our sex life. So for the next few months, we proceeded as normal and I praised her every chance I could. I was not going to let her ever feel like she was not good enough again. One night, when her confidence was up, she approached me and asked if I still wanted to try to eat my cum. I had an instant erection and she saw it, but I still answered her in the affirmative.
You would think I would have eaten it that night...nope. I came and she waited a few seconds and then asked if I was sure I wanted to do it. I said nope.
After another couple of months I approached her and asked if we could try again. She agreed and I chickened out again. This happened about five times. Finally one Saturday afternoon, we were taking a "nap." She asked me what it was going to take to make this fantasy work (the flip side was that if I chickened out again, she wasn't going to try any more). So we came up with a plan. I don't know about all males, but I do not cum all at once. I usually have 3-5 spurts of semen in a 5-10 second span for each orgasm. The first one is always a decent amount and, for me, the second spurt is the largest. Our plan was that my wife would give me one final chance to stop before I had an orgasm. Once I said yes, she was not going to ask any more. Instead, she would "catch" my first spurt on her finger and put it in my mouth. Then she would continue her hand job as she would normally for the remainder of the orgasm.
This worked. I can tell you that I was nervous as hell when she tasked me the final time I could get out of tasting my own cum. But I came within seconds answering her question.
I want to dispel most fantasies stories and tell you that I do not eat every drop of my cum. About once a month, sometimes twice a month if I have taken care of my wife's emotional needs, we play out this fantasy. We have done this for a few years now. Now, I typically eat my entire orgasm when we do this. The fears of throwing up or not going through with it are all but gone.
This story is not necessarily meant to arouse you, and if it does, great. This is to help those that might want to stop fantasizing and make eating their own cum a reality. So below are a few tips I have from my own experience. All these are not to say that this is the only way, but I can just tell you what I have learned from my perspective.
1 – Communicate: in order for you to have a healthy fantasy realization, your need to let your partner know what you are thinking. They are not a mind reader.
2 – Compromise: your fantasy may be beyond your partner's abilities or desires. Be willing to be flexible with the realization.
3 – Time: give your partner time to process. This will likely be very new to her so you need to build her understanding, not expect her to understand just because you said it.
4 – Build up your spouse's confidence. If she does a great job at other sexual activities, let her know. When you realize part of your fantasy, let her know how much you appreciate and enjoyed it. Understand that sometimes sex is just work for her and compliment her willingness and desire to please you.
5 – Start Slow: most likely you are not going to drink a gallon of your own semen the first time you try it. Start with your pre-cum and enjoy her feeding it to you, then work toward a solution that works for you and her and involves quickly eating a small amount of your cum after you orgasm.