Hate Me

Nikita just looked away and remained silent.

"Will you at least tell me what you want now?" Alex asked.

More silence in then Nikita said, "I already told you."

"Say it again." Alex demanded softly.

Nikita turned her head to look at Alex again, the two spies staring at each other for a long moment before Nikita repeated, "Fuck me you whore."

More silence, and then Alex roughly pushed two fingers into Nikita's cunt and started thrusting them in and out. Like when the roles were reversed her fingers were dry so it hurt a little going in but Nikita's pussy was plenty wet so not only did those fingers slide in easily but the cry the older woman let out was more or less of pure pleasure. Again that was similar to when the roles were reversed, and from the tone of Nikita's cry Alex wondered if her mentor also enjoyed a little pain with her pleasure. Well, Alex knew Nikita could dish it out, but could she take it.

Taking a risk Alex decided to find out, her first couple of thrusts swiftly moving from a steady pace to a hard fucking before slowing things right down. As a result Nikita cried out loudly in mostly pleasure, and while there was an undertone of pain Alex was almost 100% sure the older woman liked it. Either way Nikita took it without any real complaint, not that that was really a surprise. After all Nikita was the toughest person Alex had ever met. Not that it didn't make it fun to push her limits, even if the look in Nikita's eyes told Alex she would pay for it later. Hoping to make it much later Alex curled her fingers inside the other woman, forcing a moan from Nikita, which was like sweet music to the Russian girl's ears.

As Alex smirked down at her Nikita frowned. This was new for her and she wasn't sure she liked it. Not being finger fucked, all but a couple of drunk one night stands had at some point done that, however there were few she had allowed to fuck her like this. Like they were in a position of power. Power over her. Nikita had certainly never allowed Alex anything like this. No, the younger girl was always between her thighs and lapping away at her clit whenever she had fingered her before, not hovering above Nikita with a infuriating smirk on her face. Then again at least it wasn't the infuriating puppy dog eyes.

Just as Nikita thought that she caught a glimpse of those eyes, Alex's expression changing into what she was sure was a deliberately wicked smirk before the younger girl leaned in to whisper into her ear, "Do you remember our first time? You took me just like this right over there, on the floor, your fingers slamming in and out of me as you stared into my soul. Did you see it then Niki? When you were staring into my eyes could you tell that I loved you? You've always been able to see right through me, so I'm guessing you did. That you knew I loved you before I started whimpering it, and then screaming it as I came all over your fingers. I bet you even knew before you took me and made me your little fuck toy. Didn't you моя любовь?"

Nikita didn't answer. She didn't need too as they'd already pretty much had this conversation after the first time. Back then Alex had been constantly trying to seduce her without a hint of subtlety, Nikita telling the girl she was confusing feelings of gratitude for something stronger, that the teen didn't really want the older woman, that she had to stop using her body to get what she wanted/reward people who showed her kindness. Truthfully Nikita hadn't truly believed those excuses, not when she saw the increasing devotion in Alex's eyes. Then one day during a training session Nikita had her protégé pinned to the floor and Alex had kissed her again while rubbing her sweaty, barely covered young body against her and Nikita just hadn't been able to resist. She had slammed her fingers inside of Alex and fucked her right there on the floor, then up against the wall, then on the bed before finally shoving the girl's head between her legs.

It had been intense, passionate and wonderful, Nikita barely trying to convince Alex afterwards that she hadn't meant what she said. She certainly hadn't been convincing that they could never do this again, especially as they had sex again more or less straight after the conversation.

"Now I am the one topping you. Now I'm the one with my fingers inside you... pumping in and out of you... fucking you... making you mine." Alex whispered, awaking Nikita from her thoughts before the younger girl moved so she was looking her in the eye again, "And you are mine Nikita. You can try and deny it all you want, but I remember our first time. I remember looking at you and trembling. You looked like a lioness about to devour her helpless prey and it scared me almost as much as it made me cream all over your fingers. But as dominating and powerful as you looked, as much as your eyes told me you loved having your way with me they also betrayed you because I saw love in them. It was tiny but it was there, and it's there now and it scares you. Even more than how you're loving this. Loving me topping you. The mighty Nikita on the bottom, being the bottom for a change. I can see it in your eyes, and I can feel it in the way your pussy grips onto me and soaks my fingers. It tells me how badly you want to cum. How badly you want to cum for me. Do it моя любовь. Cum for me. Cum for me my love."

Nikita wanted to deny it. She wanted to deny she was in love with Alex, again tell the girl she didn't feel that way and the Russian was just seeing what she wanted to see. But she couldn't. She was too busy doing what she was told and cumming hard on Alex's fingers, Nikita feeling herself squeezing down on those digits and covering them with her cream. The pleasure was wonderful, mind-numbing even, but Nikita found herself unable to break her gaze from Alex's which meant she had to see the love the younger girl had for her. Luckily it didn't last, Alex stealing a move out of Nikita's playbook and suddenly moving down her body to replace her thumb on the older woman's clit with her tongue.

The change in stimulation had Nikita quickly cumming again on Alex's fingers, and then for a third time in Alex's mouth, the Russian girl replacing her fingers from Nikita's cunt with her tongue and wrapping her upstairs lips around the other woman's downstairs lips. Like that Alex made Nikita cum a couple more times, the younger girl greedily gulping down as much of the precious liquid as she could while some escaped to cover her face.

Alex was going to make Nikita cum even more, but then she felt her mentor's hand on top of her head and began gently stroking her. Normally these small signs of affection were like water to a man in the middle of the desert for Alex, but this was one which usually led to Nikita shoving her face deeper into her cunt or the older woman grinding into her face. This was something of course Alex loved almost as much as the stroking of her hair, however that would be giving up her control and Alex wasn't quite ready for that.

So reluctantly Alex pulled away, having a feeling that she only succeeded because Nikita wasn't expecting it. A single look from Nikita seem to confirm this but she didn't complain, nor did she say anything, the two spies becoming lost in another staring match for a little while. Then Alex very slowly walked over to the chest by the bed filled with Nikita's most essential items and retrieved perhaps the most essential of them all, her boss's strap-on dildo.

Nikita gave a raised eyebrow as she returned, Alex having a pretty good idea what she was thinking. The thought had certainly crossed Alex's mind more than once and she definitely wanted to try strapping on a dildo one day but Alex knew if she suggested it under the current tense atmosphere Nikita would shoot that idea down and she would definitely lose control over the situation. So instead Alex positioned the harness at Nikita's feet, the older assassin lifting first her legs then her ass so the Division agent could get the device into the correct place and then strap it onto her. It was something Alex had done many times now and she finished attaching the strap-on quickly and efficiently.

Once the harness was securely around Nikita's waist Alex grabbed the dildo by the base, brought her lips within millimetres of the toy and then looked up at her mentor and softly but firmly said, "Keep your hands to yourself."

Nikita had never liked taking orders but to be given one by her student, a girl about 10 years her junior, was infuriating. However Nikita quickly forgot her anger when Alex closed her eyes and took the head of the dildo into her mouth.

Ever since she'd first strapped on a cock Nikita had enjoyed receiving a blow job. It was something she could have never imagined herself enjoying, and Amanda had given her one hell of a lecture on how phallic objects made her feel, but Nikita tried not to dwell on that. It was easier not to when there was a pretty girl with her lips wrapped around her 'cock', and regardless of how very wrong this was Nikita couldn't deny that Alex was a very, very pretty girl. A very, very pretty girl who looked indecently good sucking Nikita's strap-on dick, Alex bobbing her head on over half the dildo soon after the blow job began.

Despite herself Nikita couldn't help let out a little moan at watching that sexy little sight. The fact that the base of the toy was bashing her clit also had something to do with it but regardless of the reason it triggered Alex to look up at her with those big blue eyes of hers. At first it was fairly enjoyable, the two women staring at each other while one sucked the other's strap-on. Then Alex made the mistake of smiling around the cock, Nikita interpreting that as some kind of sign of triumph. It infuriated Nikita and reminded her of the fact that she should be trying to make Alex hate her.

With that in mind Nikita softly murmured, "You always did look good with a cock in your mouth."

Nikita pause to let that sink in before she said anything more hurtful, but before she could Alex removed her mouth and said, "As long as it's your cock."

Then Alex quickly swallowed the fake cock, this time slowly lowering her mouth down the full length of the shaft, stuffing the upper part of it down her throat with practised ease. The whole time she did this Alex kept her eyes locked with Nikita's, daring the deadly assassin to say anything. Nikita still wanted too but she couldn't find the words, Nikita just watching as her protégé deep throated the entire length of the cock, Alex pausing for a few seconds once she had her lips wrapped around the base, the younger girl fully coating it in saliva.

After all that was the practical reason for all this, and while Alex enjoyed sucking Nikita's cock there was currently somewhere else she wanted that long, hard poll. So Alex held back on the urge to gag for as long as she could then came up gasping and coughing, nightmares of her past briefly returning to her before she concentrated on her lover lying before her. More specifically Alex concentrated on what she wanted to do with her lover, the younger girl quickly getting on top of Nikita, grabbing the dildo and lined it up with the entrance to her pussy.

The initial penetration had Alex crying out in pleasure. Sure, particularly the head of the cock was wide and stretched Alex's downstairs lips kind of painfully every time, but the uncomfortable stretching was barely noticeable next to the pleasure she felt. It was the same for taking the rest of the strap-on, Alex slowly but steadily lowering herself down until she was sitting on Nikita's lap with every inch of her mentor's cock inside her, Alex moaning softly the entire way down and letting out an extra loud joyful moan when she had completed the journey.

Closing her eyes Alex took a moment to savour having every inch of Nikita's cock inside her. Of having Nikita inside her. It didn't matter to Alex that the cock wasn't made of flesh in her mind once it was strapped around Nikita's waist it became part of her mentor. It was part of Nikita. It was Nikita. Nikita was deep inside of her, touching places inside her no one but this goddess had touched her before, her teacher filling Alex up with a big wonderful dick which would never go soft.

Then with her eyes still closed Alex slowly lifted herself up a few inches and then lowered herself down, repeating the process over and over again, the young Russian beginning to ride Nikita's strap-on with a slow but steady rhythm. The pleasure was intense, partly because keeping her eyes closed focused her senses on what she was doing and partly because for once Alex was in control. Sure Alex had been in this position countless times, and regardless of the position taking Nikita's cock inside her was always pleasurably intense, but all those other times Nikita had been in control and this, this was different. Not necessarily better, just... different.

Nikita wasn't so sure she liked different. It had rarely been a good thing in the past and now... now she wasn't sure what to think. She absolutely hated the not being in control part, and she hated herself being so compliant which was doing nothing to convince Alex that she didn't love her. But... Nikita had to admit, there was something relaxing about laying back and letting the other person do all the work, something she couldn't ever remember doing with anyone before, at least not for this lifetime. Most of all Alex looked breath-taking like this, Nikita unable to take her eyes off the younger girl riding her cock.

Of course Nikita had fucked Alex in every position she could think of, the older spy even finding some new ones as she threw the younger woman around like a rag doll and ravaged her body. Except whenever they had been in this position before Nikita had been sitting up and mostly yelling abuse at Alex. And using her mouth to roughly kiss the other girl, and to attack her soft breasts, and even biting into Alex's flesh either gently enough not to leave a lasting mark or placing it somewhere it would not be easily seen. Nikita also caressed every inch of Alex's body whenever her hands weren't on her breasts, or her butt, or roughly grabbing Alex's waist so she could jackhammer the other spy up and down on her dildo.

All the above Nikita was missing terribly, and itching to do right now, the ex-Division agent knowing how easy it would be for her to just sit up and have her way with Alex. Or better yet flip the girl over onto her back and pound her with all her strength, or place her on all fours and fuck her like the bitch Nikita had treated her as for well over a year now. And Nikita wanted too. She wanted too so badly it almost hurt. But she also wanted to just lie back and watch, the latter desire winning out for now as Nikita tried to enjoy this unfamiliar fuck.

The thing Nikita mostly concentrated on was how beautiful Alex looked. How her young perky little tits bounced with every thrust, how her body looked glistening with the light sheen of sweat, and how that cute little pussy took Nikita's big cock inside of it. Most of all Nikita watched the look of blissful pleasure on Alex's face. How happy she looked. How content. And she couldn't find it within herself to change these things.

Then Alex opened her eyes and looked at Nikita, the two women staring at each other for a brief moment before the younger one asked, "Do you really think you can say anything that could make me hate you? Anything you could do which could change the way I feel? You can hate yourself or you want Nikita, but I could never hate you. No matter what you do, no matter what you say I will always love you. You can piss me off, make me cry and scream at you, but it won't change the fact that I'm in love with you."

"It should. You should hate me Alex." Nikita said softly.

"But I don't. I can't. Not really." Alex said, her eyes getting teary again, "And maybe that's fucked up, but we're fucked up Niki! We're both broken, and lost, and alone. That's why we're perfect for each other. Why we belonged together. Because with you I'm not broken anymore. I'm complete. I'm safe. And mountains of baggage doesn't seem to matter anymore, or at least it doesn't feel as heavy. And I think it's the same for you моя любовь. Why else would you prepare a candlelit dinner? Why else would you hold me after we have sex? Why would you jeopardise yourself and your precious mission just to save me time and time again? Why else would you take on the Russian mob all by yourself just to save a fuck toy? And do you really think I'm the only one around here with puppy dog eyes? Niki, you've been looking at me like that since before I finished getting clean. Whenever you think I'm not looking, and sometimes even when you know I am, you give me this look like I'm the one that could save your soul, if only one of us could think of the right thing to say-"

Fuming with rage Nikita easily sat up and pushed Alex down, the older spy then grabbing the younger spy's legs and placing them onto her shoulders so that when she leant forward she was bending the other girl in half. It was one of Nikita's favourite positions, maybe her favourite, because it was such a position of dominance and she could stare into her lover's eyes while they revelled in the submissive pleasure she was giving them.

Right now she didn't enjoy it as much because Alex looked like a frightened rabbit caught in a trap staring at a farmer about to put a bullet in it's head. The sight was enough to make Nikita's heart break but the experienced assassin reminded herself she had to remain strong. She just had too. Because Alex's words were getting to her and she just couldn't let that happen. She couldn't let this girl think there could be anything between them but sex, and even that had been a mistake. Not that Nikita could possibly stop right now, not when she craved this girl so much, but she just had to make Alex understand that she couldn't love her. She had to make Alex hate her.

So Nikita angrily growled, "I don't love you. I don't even like you. You're just a fuck hole to me. Nothing more, nothing less. I saved you the first time because I didn't want to kill an innocent little kid and I was sick of following Divisions orders. After that I was manipulating you into being my own personal lackey, but it turns out the only thing you're really good for is being a fucking whore!"

Alex opened her mouth to say something but Nikita just started hammering the strap-on in and out of her. As Alex had been slowly bouncing on the dildo for quite a while, even during her little speech about how much they belonged together, the Russian girl's pussy was plenty relaxed and ready for a hard fucking so Alex cried out in pure pleasure as result of this assault. This angered the part of Nikita that wanted Alex to hate her, but at the same time she was mostly glad she wasn't hurting her. No matter what Nikita didn't want to hurt Alex, at least not any more than she had too.

Unfortunately Nikita's words had failed again as through her cries of pleasure Alex whimpered, "I love you."

This made Nikita fuck Alex harder, the older woman screaming, "HATE ME DAMN YOU!"

Nikita screamed other things. Hurtful things. Everything she could think of just spewing out of her mouth, angry and violent, Nikita doing everything she could to make Alex hate her while fucking her to orgasm. It was worse than it had ever been before because in her determination to win Nikita lost track of everything she was saying. And even though she was trying to do this for Alex's own good Nikita could tell she was hurting this girl so much, and she wasn't even succeeding as through it all Alex just looked at her with those infuriating puppy dog eyes.

Finally Nikita realised what should have been obvious, that Alex had been telling the truth, that there was nothing she could do or say which would change the way the Russian girl felt about her and it just destroyed her.