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Learning Cock Control

bymike5105k©

This is just my story. Good, bad or indifferent it's my life. I wrote this to get some clarity on how I got where I am today.



I never thought of myself as a sub. It's true I've always been a nice guy but hardly submissive. I'm in charge of a division of 54 employees. I have a reputation at work that is you do sloppy work, are not a team player or are disruptive I will see to it that you will be gone.

That being said, it all started innocently enough. Well, maybe not all that innocent but still. I was bored, lonely, and horny when I logged onto an adult chat site. I had visited such sites on and off for several months and this night started out like all of the others. A lot of stupid small talk and a bit of flirting then finding someone to cyber sex with.

But that night would be different. After cybering with LadySage she asked me "Did you really touch yourself while we chatted?" I was taken back a bit and hesitated for a moment then decided not to lie and told her that I hadn't. There was a long pause. I remember feeling a bit of a knot in my stomach waiting to read a reply. As I was about to log out, she responded. "That won't do my pet. Now take off your cloths...all of them."

It was odd to me. She was ordering me to strip. Not asking but telling. I guess that wasn't really the odd part the odd part was that I felt compelled to follow her orders. Before I knew it, I was naked in front of the computer screen. "I'm naked" I wrote back.

"That's a good boy" was her reply. "Now stroke your cock the way I tell you."

LadySage proceeded to have me slowly tease then quickly stroke then slowly tease again with the only instruction besides stroking by her command was to tell her when I was close to climaxing.

Every time I told her I was close she would have me stop stroking and she would chat about cock control. How a good man has complete control of his cock. He can make it hard or soft at a moments notice. He can cum on command or hold it.

I remember only partially comprehending what she was saying because I was so desperate to cum. I don't remember exactly how many times I was brought to the brink of an orgasm that night, it must have been 5 or 6. I was so desperate to orgasm and it would have been easy but LadySage was so compelling with how so few men had cock control and I wanted to have that. Mostly to be a better me but in a strange way for this woman I didn't know. I was strangely compelled not to disappoint her.

After each "cooling down" chat, LadySage would ask me if I wanted to cum. I of course wanted then needed to orgasm. I found myself begging her to let me cum. I didn't realize it at the time but it was at that moment I had taken my first step towards allowing her to top me.

The whole next day I could hardly concentrate. I spent the whole day remembering the night before, my cock was buzzing. At the time it had been the most intense orgasm of my life. I race straight home from work and logged in to the same chat room and there she was. My heart leap like a stupid school boy. LadySage private messaged me immediately, "Hello my sweet boy, I was hoping you would be here tonight."

I thought it odd she called me her sweet boy since I was 5 years her senior. I had barely replied my hello when she typed "Get naked for me. I like you naked."

I don't know why I didn't question or hesitate but I immediately stripped. I think it was all the thrill of the night before that made me so eager to comply. I hadn't even gotten my cloths off when she sent her next message "Make sure your cock is nice and hard."

That wasn't a problem, my cock had been this side of rock hard all day. I told her that I had complied and how I couldn't stop thinking about the night before. With that came her net message, "Do you have any baby oil?"

Trying to be witty, I replied, "I'm a guy, so no, I don't have baby oil."

"Vasolen?" she typed back.

Still thinking I'm witty I typed "I'm a straight guy to so no."

"Go get some butter." Was the answer to my witty response.

Funny, I remember thinking, butter, how kinky. God, how naive I was. When I returned from the kitchen with the butter there was a message on the screen. "Use the butter to lubricate your cock. Wait here, stay hard I'll be back." As the hours passed by I began to question everything. Wondering why I felt the way I did? Did it mean anything to LadySage? Was she making a fool of me? Was last night a single moment in time never to return? Was I crazy?

I do not know what compelled me to stay on-line for 3 hours waiting keeping my cock hard but then it happened, LadySage logged back on. "You are a good boy, are you still naked, is your cock still hard?"

I replied in the affirmative, "Not only naked and hard but aching to cum."

"Stop stroking now" Was the next message.

I was incredibly disappointed yet still excited wondering what this special exciting woman had in mind for me. I didn't have to wait long before the next message came "I like that you did as I asked. It made me enjoy my dinner even more knowing you were there, stroking your cock for me. "

So many emotions flowed threw me with that message: Anger, that she left me stroking my cock while she went off to dinner; humiliated, that I stayed there for 3 hours when no one was there; Foolish, that I thought she cared.

I was in the middle of typing a hateful response back when her next message appeared. "I am so proud of you. There are so few men that have you cock control and patients. You could be the man I've been looking for. A man that all woman want sexually and all men envy. Would you like to be that man?"

I stopped typing my hate text I looked down and my hard buttered cock, thought about my anger and humiliation and what she had just written.

"If you want to learn total cock control and be that man just say yes and we will begin." Popped on the screen.

I thought for a moment not really fully understanding what she meant or what was in store for me as I typed "yes."

The only reply to my yes was a smiley emoticon. Then "We will begin. Go get a bowl of ice water and a wash cloth."

That night we moved to instant messenger and practiced hard, soft. It's a novice exercise but at the time I remember struggling with it. It involves trying to get my cock hard as fast as I can by stroking it. Teasing my cock until I am about to cum. Then wrapping my cock in washcloth that was soaking in the ice water until it gets soft. I don't remember how many time I did that over the next several hours but I remember how proud LadySage was with how well my cock was being trained. It was taking less time each time to get hard or soft and how the intervals between needing to cum were stretching. I remember almost beaming with pride at my new found ability.

After a while, what at the time seemed like forever, it was time to cum. I remember that so well because at the time I felt like I was cumming forever. It was probably 3 to 7 big wads that would cum. That night it was wad after wad after wad. I wasn't sure it was going to stop, it left me exhausted and exhilarated at the same time.

As we ended the night, I don't think there are words to describe my self-satisfaction with my actions. I also can not explain the warm feeling I got when she called me a good boy. I didn't realize how hooked I was but I was hooked like a heroin fiend. I was left with I needed to orgasm one more time that night and 3 time tomorrow before meeting LadySage on-line tomorrow afternoon. I took her words to heart when she said "There is nothing worse than a man who is one and done. A woman wants a man that can and will satisfy her WHENEVER she wants."

I wanted to be that man. Not just for LadySage but more for myself.

The next few weeks where much the same. I ended up buying vasolen in the warehouse club size to keep from chaffing. I was cumming at least 4-5times a day and was learning to be multi-orgasmic by orgasming then continuing to stroking until I cam again. In the beginning that really hurt. My balls would pull up inside me and my cock would feel like I was doing the dry heaves. Not only did we practiced cock control but we would talk about everything. She would explain to me how special I was and how we could continue the training and more as long as I followed 4 simple rules, rules I had printed out and taped to the window in front of my desk :

1.Never lie to her.

2.My word in my bond if I say I will do something, then I will do it.

3.No excuses.

4.Always think things over an try fully. It was alright to say no or not now but I had to think about it completely first an d discuss my objections.

It was at this time were I was told to go to a local adult store, Pleasant Pastimes, and pick up a package. I guess I should explain that I knew little more than her age and she lived in Tampa. We had not exchanged pictures, addresses or phone number at this time. I really appreciated the comfort that gave me.

The next evening I went to Pleasant Pastimes. I was a little nervous at first but very self confidence with my new found cock control talents. Still I was glad the store was empty. I walked up to the woman I assumed to be the owner. I say that because, I had seen billboards around town advertising Pleasant Pastimes with this hot bodies middle age woman with a less than attractive face and here she was in the store.

As I walked towards her she said "Hi, my name is Bonnie, can I help you find anything?"

I replied, "Yes, I'm here to pick up a packaged for LadySage."

"Oh yes, a sub starter kit." She exclaimed.

I was shocked. I stood there dumbfounded, what had she called it. "A sub starter kit." I'm not a sub I thought.

"Are you alright sweety?" Bonnie asked the words barely penetrating the fog of confusion I was currently under.

Stuttering, I explained, "I - I'm not a sub, she is just teaching me cock control."

"Cock control?" Bonnie asked, "What do you mean?"

It might have been her less than attractive face, the sympathetic curious tone in her voice or my my need not to admit I was a submissive but I tried explaining. It was almost surreal in that it was like a normal conversation you would have with anyone on the street. I explained what we had been doing, the exercises and how I had progressed.

At the end, Bonnie smiled, and said "Oh, sweety, if you are not a sub, you are well on your way." Then she said the most profound thing. "Are you enjoying it so far? Do you still feel like a better man? Don't let the label end your adventure. See were this takes you."

"Ok then", she said as I nodded. "Let's go get that kit."

I thought we would go to the register but we went around the store. She explained each item on the list and had me choose them. The chastity cage, (the plastic not metal), the cock ring, (The one with the quick release leather strap), the butt plug, (small), a fuck buddy pussy, (multiple speeds and settings) and the pair of panties with the word slut written on the butt (white).

As Bonnie checked me out, I noticed a bag behind the register with a paper sticking out the top the read LadySage. I pointed to the bag behind her as she handed me mine.

"Oh, sweety, it was better this way." she said. "I hope to see you again."

I went straight home and logged on the computer and sure enough, LadySage was on-line. I immediately typed "Are you training me to be your sub? The sales lady from Pleasant Pastimes called the package a sub starter kit. "

The answer was immediate. "Not yet." Followed by a short pause. "Although I can see a potential, I'm not sure you would make a good sub. The training is similar. Don't you think that a good sub would have excellent cock control?"

We chatted for a but more before LadySage had me go over the items in the bag explaining to her what I thought and felt about each one in detail. The more we talked about the items the more I was eager to try them. Then she asked me which one I wanted to train with first. I picked the fuck buddy. I really wanted to cum and was a bit tired of stroking my own cock.

This was the shortly after this when I learned the control LadySage already had on me. Somehow she knew and was toying with me. She had me unwrap the fuck buddy, go through all of the setting and speeds feeling each one with my finger. I so couldn't wait to feel that on my cock. Then right before I was to slide my cock inside she asked. "Did you orgasm 3 times today before getting on-line?"

I was in such a hurry to confront LadySage about the sub starter kit that I had not orgasmed and stripped before logging on. Part of me wanted to lie but decided not to. "I did not" I typed slowly with the feeling of a child being caught with their hand in the cookie jar.

"I'm proud that you did not lie to me but you did break your promise of training. " she typed.

There was a incredibly long pause. I was going to explain but then saw rule 3, No excuses.

"Nothing to say for yourself?" she wrote.

I immediately responded with "No excuses."

"Very good" she wrote back. "But you have to learn there are consequences for not living up to your word. You have disappointed me. Get out all of your new toys. Display them nicely, look them over and decided if you want to continue. I will not talk to you again for 2 days."

And she was gone. There was a sickness in my stomach from those words. "You have disappointed me." Those words cut through me like a knife. It wasn't until the next day when I logged on and LadySage wasn't there that I felt the loneliness and whole that was left by her absence. I was pissed that she could do this so easily. Upset with myself for missing her so much. The next day was even worse. But still I wanted to chat with her. I missed her, the training didn't matter in fact I wasn't sure if I even wanted to do that anymore.

On the third day, I raced home, stripped, orgasmed and quickly logged on and waited. I don't think I waited long before reading.

"I missed you. But bad behavior cannot be rewarded. It must be dealt with."

LadySage then proceeded to explain the stair step approach where each time the "corrections" (I so remember that word) would become more severe.

Then before I could ask a question or acknowledge that I understood she continued writing.

"Get out the fuck buddy. You are not to use your hands to orgasm again. Do you understand? Cock control does not mean just being able to get hard or soft at will, nor is it just the ability to cum or to not cum but you need to have stamina. You must be able to thrust and fuck for hours if need be."

It was that night I learned how out of shape I was. I held the fuck buddy on the desk and proceeded to fuck it. Thrusting hard and fast. My previous exercises made it easy to hold back the orgasm but after 8 minutes of hard fast thrusting, my stomach, back and legs started to hurt and I was winded. With her encouragement, I pushed passed the pain but was seriously slowly down my thrust. Three more minutes and I was able to rest for 15.

After the 4th set it was more about keeping my cock hard that keeping it from cumming. I was exhausted and I ached so much. That's when I got to learn about how great a cock ring is. LadySage guided me on placing the cock ring on tight at the base with the release strap secure but easily removed. Then sitting down I slide the fuck buddy onto my cock and turned it on. I went through all of the speeds and all of the variable pulses and rotations. The box said fuck buddy pussy but it felt better than the most talented and varied blow job ever.

I thought it was intense to hold off an orgasm for as long as possible but the cock ring allows to hold the orgasm back even longer. It makes the balls so much fuller, the need to orgasm so much greater. And when LadySage told me to release the strap. I thought the fuck buddy was going to explode from the power of orgasm. I also learned how tough they were to clean. It was condoms from then on and ky-gel.

It was also a new set of tasks. I was to continue cumming 3 times a day before chatting at night but now, No touching and no using the fuck buddy or any of the toys without permission from LadySage.

The next morning, my abs hurt so much. I tried rolling over and fucking the bed but I could barely move. I ended up just rocking, grinding and bouncing my cock against the shower wall in order to cum. I ended up going home for lunch to repeat the shower orgasm as well as that night. As a bonus I found I liked the feel of my cum on my stomach and chest.

It took a couple of weeks but this became a normal routine. Cumming by not touching and fucking hard and fast for 30 minutes straight. We had advanced to video chatting and calling on the phone. Also, my stamina was building and I could hold off an orgasm even with the fucking buddy on for the full 30 minutes. Granted I needed the cock ring but that was getting better too. I also tried the butt plug.

To this day I do not get the appeal of that uncomfortable piece of plastic. LadySage had me go back to Pleasant Pastimes to get a vibrating butt plug. Where I chatted with Bonnie she seemed happy to see me and invited me into the back for coffee and chat about my progress. It is good to have someone I can talk to who is not judgmental. The vibrating butt plug was something I had to learn to try and enjoy the stimulation on my prostate.

Every time I got comfortable and thought I had cock control LadySage came up with a new twist. Next I had to be able to cum with zero touching. Not the wall, not the bed nothing just my imagination, concentration and will. And to make sure, I didn't have a wet dream or any outside stimulus and defeat the exercise. I was introduced to the chastity cage.

By now I was pretty good with cock control and being able to will my cock hard or soft but the cage ads a strange twist to this talent in that. There is no self choice. The cock is soft no matter what. It's locked in a cage and cannot grow hard.

I would uncage my cock for hour in the morning, 30 minutes to try and cum and the next for bathing and what not. Then 30 minutes at lunch. After work, I uncaged my cock for an hour after work before skyping with LadySage and finally for an hour after we finished talking that night. It's amazing after cumming 4-7 times every day how badly I needed to cum after the first day, how much my balls and cock hurt and how desperate I was for some stimuli on my cock. I was sure that just a slight touch would be all it would take but none was cumming.

By the third day, I did it. I was laying in bed naked after work concentrating on all sorts of depravity when I finally was able to bring my cock to a full orgasm. I would like to say it was an intense orgasm but, it really was deeply unsatisfying. Still I was so proud of myself and could wait to share with LadySage like a kid getting their first gold star.

To celebrate, LadySage had a present for me at Pleasant Pastimes. I couldn't wait to see what toy was next in my training. It also allowed me the opportunity to talk with Bonnie again. She seemed happy to see me and couldn't wait to hear about my training.

We talked between customers then she showed me my gift. Rubber underwear. I didn't get why that present at the time but like everything else LadySage had her reasons.

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