Lexi and I

I continued to undress, removing the denim skirt she had loaned me and then my socks. I sat before her and slowly removed my bra revealing my breasts to her. I felt the warm evening breeze on my skin, my nipples stiffening immediately. Her eyes roamed over my body as mine did on hers

I turned and zipped up the flap on the tent so it was closed, wrapping us in our cocoon and shutting out the rest of the world. This was our private sanctuary where our bodies would make the rules based solely on our emotions, leaving any rational thought outside.

I motioned for Lexi to lay down on her sleeping bag beside me. We faced each other, so close but still not yet touching as if there was an invisible barrier between us.

"You're beautiful, Lexi," I said in hushed tones. I watched her smile widen. "Are you okay?"

"Yes," she whispered. "Bit nervous."

"Honestly, me too," I said.

"Feels weird," she said. "I'm alone when I'm naked, even at the gym it's just a routine but here it feels…I don't know…"

"Erotic?" I asked and saw her nod.

"Very," she replied. "I'm so turned on Haley, you wouldn't believe."

"I am too, Lexi," I told her.

"Can I touch you?" she asked.

I nod. Lexi hesitated for a moment then lifted her right arm and moves it above me. So gently her fingertips touch my ribs, then her hand presses down and she slides it down toward my hip and back up again to my arm. I snuggle closer to her placing my arm around her.

My hair is spread out and I notice Lexi's golden streaks, splashed across her pillow like a beautiful woosh of paint on canvass. I feel her leg slide between mine, nestling for position.

Lexi's hand moved up along my arm to my neck and my hair. She ran her fingers through my hair and looked deep into my eyes. I move forward slowly, closing the small gap between our faces, I feel her soft supple lips touch mine. I felt a shiver run through me as Lexi pushed her lips back against mine. Even though we both sensed the urgency we held back, enjoying a perfect moment, soft and sensuous. Beautiful. I toyed with her hair, feeling it's thick luxurious texture between my fingers. She squirmed in my embrace and moaned, the vibrations passing from her mouth to mine.

I felt her tongue pass between my lips, hot and moist, I reached out with my own, toying with her, flicking my tongue over hers in a playful yet slow and gentle almost massaging manner. The hum of her voice excited me as she sighed. Our legs moved, sliding back and forth as our skin began to tingle.

Our hands smoothed up and down each others bodies, caressing each others skin. Lexi moved her hand up to my face, cupping it, as if holding it for fear of it melting away. She shifted away, letting it roam down my arm, along the side of my breast and over my waist where it smoothed back and forth on my thigh.

I followed, her skin so soft and tender. My finger tips lingered on the swell of her breast for a moment before travelling lower. Outside the rain started to pour harder just as our kissing became more passionate. I leaned back a little showing my breasts to Lexi. Her fingers touched them one at a time, exploring and dragging them around my nipples, teasing them with a quick squeeze making me moan softly.

Lexi tilted her shoulders away from me, opening her breasts up to me. I stared at her tan lines, the whiteness of her breasts compared the tanned skin. I cupped them with my hand, feeling their soft weight, making her shiver and groan. I pinched and circled my fingers around her nipples.

I turned my head to kiss her again, her tongue clashing with mine. We parted and she held her breasts for me. I leant down, my tongue eased across her skin, circling her nipple before sucking it between my lips, feeling its hardness with my tongue. Lexi gasped and shivered from my touch.

"Haley…oh…yes…" she sighed. "…feels so good…"

I suckled on her nipples, moving from one to the other, making her moan and push up against me. She pushed me back and leaned over reciprocating, her hands on my small breasts, her tongue licking tentatively at first then taking my nipple between her lips. The hot sensation of her moist tongue flicking across my nipple, back and forth in her mouth, made me moan.

Our excitement is grew steadily. Our breathing became deeper and more passionate. I could feel a growing wetness between my legs. My fanny was damp and Lexi could feel it on her thigh as it ground back and forth. She moved her hand away from my nipple down to my stomach until it found my knickers. It hovered over them for a moment before rubbing me slowly through the fabric.

Her palm pressed against my fanny, then put slight pressure on my sensitive clit. I bowed my head, taking her nipples in my mouth once again as her fingers explored below. A minute later Lexi dipped under the waistband of my knickers and headed inside. Your fingers ran through my pubic hair. I took a deep breath as if trying to control the uncontrollable emotions welling inside me.

Lexi eased a finger between my soft wet fanny lips.

I shuddered at the touch. "Oh…yes…Lexi…"

"Is that okay?" she asked.

I murmur my agreement. "Mmmm…yesss."

She pushed a finger inside me, so slow and careful. Moving in and out, my fanny clenching her finger drawing it deep inside me. I moved my hand down her body pausing at the top of her knickers before pushing under to move through her pubic hair and along her lips, finally inserting a finger between her wet slit, moving up and down the length.

I pressed up, letting my finger glide inside Lexi as she heaves her body against mine, shivering and shuddering a little as the new sensations thrill her. We fingered each other for a minute then realised we need to remove the last of our clothes. We tugged down each others knickers, becoming completely nude to each other for the first time.

We began to masturbate each other, building up a steady rhythm, pushing our fingers inside each other.

"Haley…deeper Haley…faster…" Lexi groaned.

Inside her I push a second finger, filling her up. Her fingers find my clit, rubbing it gently, slipping over its wet hard nub.

"Oh…yes Lexi…just there…" I cried out. "…yes…faster Lexi…"

I speed up my thrusts inside her, using my thumb to rub against her clit. Her juices were soaking my hand and her body writhed against mine. I wasn't going to last very long, the passion was too much.

It doesn't take much longer for Lexi to reach her climax. She starts to shudder against me, crying and moaning.

"I'm close Haley…so close…please do me deeper…" she breathed in ragged gasps. "…make me cum…I want you…need you to make me cum…oh…"

I felt her fanny twitch and she strained against me. My fingers still moving inside her as she climaxed. All at once my own orgasm exploded.

"God! Urgh…yes Lexi…I'm cuming too…love your fingers…oh yes…inside me…please…finger me now! Hard! Oh yessss…"

We shook and ground our bodies against each other as we both came together. Long moments we trembled, lost in each other, lost in our own pleasurable sensations. Finally after what felt like a life time we collapsed and our breathing slowly climbed down from what seemed like a marathon sprint to a gentle stroll.

Lexi sought out my lips, kissing me tenderly, my fingers were still inside her, I twitched them making her jump then removed my hand and hugged her. I felt a trickle of sweat roll between our hot soaked bodies and we looked into each others eyes. I don't know how long we lay there for in the silence with the rain beating down on the tent, but it felt like hours.

It was as if neither of us wanted to speak for fear of puncturing our bubble of ecstasy. Eventually I watched her eyes close and I felt mine lowering. I sighed and snuggled up against her, realising her hand was still between my legs cupping my fanny.

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Muted sunlight filtered through the tent when I opened my eyes. I blinked glanced around, we hadn't moved at all during the night, we lay next to each other, naked. My arm around her waist, her hand still between my thighs. Iooked at Lexi's sleeping face. It was innocent, pure and I could have watched it all day but she opened her eyes a few minutes later. She jumped a little when she saw where she was, then smiled.

"Hi there," I said softly. "Sleep okay?"

Lexi nodded. She trembled and I realised there was a chill in the air. I glanced down then dragged the sleeping bag over us.

"Are you hungry?" I asked her.

"Starving!" she replied and yawned.

"I'm going to pop out and get some provisions," I told her. "You okay to stay here for a little while?"

"Sure," she said. She frowned. I felt her fingers twitch between my thighs. "Oh…sorry…I must have…um…"

I parted my thighs and she removed her hand. "It's okay," I said. "Felt kinda nice actually."

Lexi smiled uncomfortably. She rolled onto her back and stared at the tent above her. "It has stopped raining then," she said after a moment of silence.

"Sometime in the night," I said with a shrug.

I sat up and climbed to my knees because that's the best you could do inside a tent so small. I turned to face Lexi then stretch my arms up. I wasn't as stiff as I thought I might be having laid on the ground all night.

I enjoyed the feeling of showing Lexi my body, it gave me a thrill knowing she was looking at it even though we had been more than intimate only several hours ago. Lexi stared at me for a moment, her own body covered up snug beneath the sleeping bag.

I pulled on my t-shirt and now dry tracksuit bottoms. "I won't be long, okay."

Lexi nodded again and rolled onto her side. I grimaced, unexpectedly feeling as if something wasn't quite right with the situation. I picked up my purse and opened up the tent. It was marvellous morning, clear blue skies and the smell of wet grass invaded my nose. I could hear ducks quack on the river not more that 10 feet away.

I crawled out of the tent and zipped it back up. I headed for the nearest supermarket. As I walked along the path toward Magdalene Bridge I re-ran last nights events in my head. I was amazed at her passionate Lexi had been. I'm not sure I was that way when I was first with Karen, sure I was excited and turned on but nothing like Lexi had been.

She had seemed nervous but that was okay. I hadn't pushed her. I allowed her time and space to be comfortable with her feelings and the situation. I hoped I hadn't rushed her or made her feel awkward. Something about her behaviour in the tent bugged me. Was it regret? Embarrassment?

Oh no. Was she doing what I had done the first time? Was she ashamed of her actions? I so hoped she wasn't. Besides it wasn't as if she had much to be ashamed of, it was cool these days to experiment. So what if she had had sexual contact with another girl? It wasn't a big deal anymore.

In the supermarket I grabbed a large bottle of water, toothpaste and brushes, diet coke and a few others bits. Subway was empty when I ordered two bagels. As I strolled back down the path I was worried about Lexi. If she was indeed feeling bad about what she had done I wasn't sure what to do. How would I handle it? Oh dead, maybe we had made a big mistake.

I unzipped the flap on the tent and dropped the bag on the floor. The tent was empty. I stared. Lexi was gone. I felt my stomach knot up tightly. It was worse than I had thought, she must have been more than just upset over last nights events.

"Shit," I said to myself. "She's gone."

Hang on one second. I had jumped to an unsupported conclusion. I noticed her bag was still inside, some of her clothes on the floor. I sighed and frowned, so where could she have gone? It was then that I noticed I small note taped to the MoonLite hanging from the ceiling.

I opened it up.

Haley, Sorry. I'm confused. I need some time. Please don't be upset, I couldn't bear that. I just need some space for a while to figure things out. Sorry about earlier, I wasn't feeling very talkative. I hope you will understand.

Lexi.

I dropped it on the floor and slumped inside the tent, stunned. A melancholy feeling swept over me. I should have expected something like this to happen. I had been her first time with another girl, the first time she had explored the body of another female. I shouldn't be upset with her but pleased that she was at least thinking about her feelings and coming to terms with what we had done together.

I rummaged in my bag and pulled out the leaf of papers I had printed off before leaving the house the day before. They were copies of some of the emails Lexi had sent me. I don't know why I had printed them out, reassurance maybe.

I glanced through them, smiling at some of her words and expressions. She was full of life, her words seemed to spring off the paper in an excited rush as if they all needed to be read at once. I placed them on the floor of the tent then stood and zipped up the flap.

Heading toward tent city I hoped to spot Lexi and see if she was ready to talk 9.30am and it was already warm and it appeared that the day was going to be long and hot.

I watched people crawling out of their tents, looking around, knocking back headache pills to combat hangovers. After a stroll to the main stage and back I felt at ease with my thoughts about Lexi. I wasn't upset at all. If she told me she had made a mistake I would support her, understand her wishes and if she wanted I would discuss anything with her.

The tent was open when I arrived. No sign of Lexi. I slowed down, wary of someone uninvited may be inside. I stepped quietly around a tree and looked inside. It was empty. That didn't make any sense. Her bag was still there but had anything else been moved? I felt a sinking feeling in my stomach. She had her money and passport in her bag didn't she?

"Fuck it!" I cursed loud.

I kicked a log aside. Some bastard had stolen her stuff. What sort of cheap ignorant moron would do something so low? I was disgusted. Then I noticed that the leaf of papers I had left were now gone. A thief wouldn't bother to stop and examine such a thing would they?

It was then that I heard a sniff. I grabbed the log I had kicked and raised it in the air. If the thief was still there he or she was going to have a very sore head soon. I crept silently around the tent toward the river. The grass was tall and I was wary of anyone leaping out at me. I tried to calm myself down, stop my overactive imagination from making things look worse than they were.

I took a deep breath and slinked through the tall grass. I could hear the splash and gurgle of the river close by and had started to think I had imagined the noise that sounded so much like someone sniffing. I relaxed, lowered my makeshift weapon and figured it could just as easily been a small animal scuttling through the undergrowth.

I swung the log in the air and released it. I watched as it spun up and over and into the river with a large splash. Then I heard a yelp and mentally kicked myself for losing my weapon so fast.

A head and face appeared above the tall grass. At first it didn't make any sense, then I realised it was Lexi. I peeped over at her where she was sat by the river and sighed deeply with relief.

"Hi," I said. "Sorry. I thought you were a thief. I'll just…" I backed away.

"Haley," called Lexi. "Will you sit with me?"

I took a deep breath. "Sure," I replied.

I climbed through the grass and sat next to her on the river bank. She was holding the leaf of papers in her hand, the emails I had printed out.

"Why did you bring these?" she asked me.

"I don't know," I told her as I stared out across the water. "I printed them off yesterday. I was going to read them while I waited for you. I guess I wanted to feel close to you before you arrived."

Lexi nodded thoughtfully, her eyes fixed on the words on the paper. I picked a blade of grass and toyed with it absently, waiting for her to speak. I wasn't going to rush her. After a few minutes she sniffed and looked at me, I saw tears in her eyes and I felt a wave of emotion rush through me. She looked scared and upset, it was contagious.

"I'm sorry," she said quietly. "This is all so new to me…I am…I was so confused I didn't know what to do."

"It's okay to feel like that," I said. "Last night was…"

"My first time," Lexi finished. She sniffed again. "But this morning I felt so…Haley I can't find the words, sorry."

"Awkward?" I suggested. "Ashamed?"

"No!" she said, her voice hard. "I wasn't ashamed. I would never feel ashamed about being with you."

"How did you feel then?" I asked softly.

She shook her head. "It's silly," she told me.

I touched her arm. "No it isn't. Tell me."

Lexi took a deep breath. "In my emails to you I always expressed a desire to sleep with another girl. I wanted to…"

She started to cry, beads of tears dripped over her cheeks. I put my arm around her, pulled her to me, hugging her gently.

"You don't have to explain yourself," I said.

"I want to," she said, her voice croaking through a sob. She breathed deep again. "It was something I wanted to experience, being with another girl. But you know I never found the right time or girl. And when I was coming to England I realised you were my answer. I hoped, dreamed last night would happen, that I would fulfil my desire."

She paused. I stroked her arm reassuringly.

"If I'm honest, deep down I thought I'd never get to do it," she continued. "That it was just a desire I would never act out. I didn't think of the after, what my feelings would be, I just imagined the moment, the experience itself."

"Do you have regrets?" I asked her.

"It was wonderful, Haley," she said avoiding the question. "You made me feel special, you gave me so much pleasure and…the sensation of your hand on my body was…" she threw her hands up. "…words, I can't get the right words! I loved it, your hands on my body…mine on yours. It was almost spiritual and I know that sounds silly."

"Not to me," I told her.

"I didn't imagine it would be like that at all," she whispered. "I never felt that level of emotion before or those sensations. I was nervous, didn't know if I was doing it right and…and…"

"You were," I said.

She sniffed and wiped away her tears. "I'm making much sense am i?"

"It's okay, really," I said. "You've done it. You fulfilled a desire. You've found out about yourself. People try things to see if they like them, if they don't it's nothing to worry about. At least they tried something new."

Lexi sobbed again. "I knew it," she said. "I wasn't making any sense."

I was puzzled. She turned to face me, her eyes red, tears on her cheeks. I wanted to hold her, make her feel like everything was okay.

"Making love with you was wonderful," she stated. "Because I hadn't thought of how I would feel after. I wasn't prepared for it. I figured I wouldn't get to fulfil my desire and even if I did it would mean that I had tried it and leave it at that but…but it didn't go as I imagined."

She saw my confused look. "I don't regret it, Haley. And I found something I never expected. I don't want it to be the end. I want more."

I was open mouthed. I had got the situation backwards. I was so sure she regretted last night and realised that sexual contact with another girl wasn't for her. That she wasn't built that way.

"Am I a lesbian?" she asked me, fresh tears rolling down her face.

"I can't answer that," I said, feeling my own tears of compassion welling up. "And you shouldn't either. You can't place a label on yourself. Even I won't do that…it's not healthy."

"Are you upset with me?" she asked.

I shook my head. "Never. I was concerned for you. I was worried you were upset and I didn't want you to be hurt."

"I'm sorry," she said. Her head hung low, staring at the ground. "I didn't mean to upset you. I was just…shocked at my feelings…and I…feel so stupid…I read my emails I sent you. I was so full of it."