Life after the Lottery Ch. 55

"Was that why you invited me to your house?"

"Yes. I knew I had to get to know you. I didn't know who you were, or anything about you until you introduced yourself. Linda, as our relationship has grown, I understand more about why we met. I also find you a very fascinating and exciting woman. I have never met anyone as confident as you are except Dawn. I knew I had to help you learn to love again."

"But still, I am having trouble handling and understanding my feelings for you, James."

"Linda, you can never have me as your lover on a level like you want. I am afraid you still think of love on a singular level."

"What does that mean?"

"I have to tell you something about yourself first. When you and me and Dawn first got together on a sexual level, you had a deep trust in us. You found the sex enjoyable and incredible, something you had never experienced. You wanted more; you wanted to experiment, you wanted love. Dawn and I had many talks about you. She felt the same way about you that I did. The two of us immediately began to work with you on an emotional level before things went too far. You did very well and seemed to understand. But, you asked and wanted me to go on the trip with you so you could have me to yourself. Dawn had to let me go with you to see what happened."

"If she knew that, why did she agree?"

"Dawn had to find out if I was falling in love with you. Not like I love you now, but like I love a wife. That was what you wanted wasn't it?"

"Yes. I'm sorry. But, I knew after our trips that I could never have you all to myself," Linda said.

"Linda, that is singular love."

"But society does not allow...a man to love more than one woman when he is married. They consider it wrong and abnormal. I'm not sure that it can happen either and be equitable for the women either."

"Society doesn't agree with things that it can't understand. Linda, I have told you like I have told Amy and Samantha, I can love you like a wife should be loved, but Dawn always comes first. This is not like a man loving many different women and marrying all of them like it happens so he can have a harem of women he can fuck when he wants. Our society doesn't allow and doesn't understand polyamory. It never will. But, Dawn and I believe there are not many people that could actually love others on that level."

"But you two do?"

"Do you believe in soul mates, Linda?"

"I guess."

"The definition of a soul mate is a person that is ideally suited for another. I am talking about real soul mates. Two people that meet and have a connection like no other two people. Not just ideally suited for each other, but two people that live in a time and space that is just for them. Two people that connect on a physical, mental, emotional level, and some other level of unseen power. You have probably never met someone that you felt like you knew each other intimately before you ever spoke to each other."

"Can't say I have. Is that what you and Dawn are?" Linda asked.

"Yes. It is an unbelievable feeling between us."

"What about the girls and me?"

"Let's be careful. Amy and Samantha connect with us on a similar level. You could say the four of us are like soul mates as I described. It is nothing like Dawn and me, but they are where they belong."

"And me?"

"You and I have something. Dawn has great feelings for you because I love you. I think we are soul mates, but for some other reason. I don't know why." I told her.

"But, Dawn does not feel that way about me?"

"Linda, please be careful. Dawn and I are connected to Amy and Samantha on some level like Dawn and I. It is like we have always known each other. Dawn connects with you because she loves you and wants to be a part of you. She greatly enjoys being with you."

"But, she doesn't feel that special connection like you do?"

"I don't think so. Honestly, we are still working through it. She understands that cosmic connection, if that is what you want to call it, the girls and we have. She doesn't have that with you."

"Then why has she allowed me to get this close to you, James?"

"Linda, that has nothing to do with it. You are just one of those persons that both of us feel very drawn too. Never doubt that she loves you as much as I do."

"Then what is between us, James? What is it that draws us together with so much intensity?"

"Linda, I honestly don't know. Sometimes, I feel like I have known you before."

"I have that same feeling. Sometimes I think you are a lover I missed someplace in my life, and now we have met again. James, I am struggling with this. I hear you saying you love me, and I know you do on some level..."

"What is it, Linda?"

"You tell me I am a beautiful woman, and I believe I am. However, I am also a very rich and powerful woman. If you didn't have the money you do, I would be very suspicious of you. I was taught by my parents and grandparent to trust very few people. All of this has happened so fast. After coming out from my divorce, I am not sure I trust myself. I don't want to get hurt again."

"I understand."

"You do?"

"Yes. You doubt my love for you and our love for you. It is understandable. I need to ask you some things, and you must answer me honestly Linda. No matter what your doubts may be, you have to answer me absolutely honestly."

I reached and took both of her hands in mine.

"If you don't I will know you are lying to me."

"James, I have always tried to answer you honestly."

I gripped her hands tighter.

"I have to know a few things from you now. I am glad you are being so honest with me while you sit here naked with me."

I got a smile from Linda, breaking the tension.

"I need to ask you some things, and you must tell me the truth without hesitation."

"I will."

I held Linda's hands for a minute as I looked into her eyes. Once I could feel her energy, I relaxed.

"Linda, do you trust me 100%. Would you trust me with your life?"

Linda looked at me.

"Yes," she said.

"Do you think I would ever intentionally hurt you in any way?"

"No."

"Do you love me in a deeply romantic way?"

I felt her hesitation to answer.

"Yes."

"Do you want me to leave my wife to be with you?"

"No!"

"One last question? Do you think I love you in a romantic, emotional way?"

Linda looked at me for a minute.

"I don't know."

I released her hands.

"Why were you holding my hands, James?"

"To see if you were telling me the truth."

"Seriously?"

"Yes. You were. Linda, I am sorry that you have doubts about how much I love you. I guess I will have to show you."

"How can you do that?"

"You said you trusted me."

"I do."

I leaned over to Linda and took her and laid her down on the bed. I laid on her and kissed her for a few minutes, making sure I was letting her feel my love for her.

"Linda, what do you feel?"

"I'm not sure. But, James, I know you love me right now."

I kissed my way slowly down her body until I was licking her pussy again. Linda moaned as she got wetter and wetter. I lifted her legs up and moved between them. I grabbed my cock and started it into her pussy.

"Emmmm, finally."

I held her legs up and slowly slid inside of her.

"Ahhhhhhhh..."

I hooked my arms under her knees and leaned forward pushing her legs back and apart as I leaned into her sliding all the way in.

"Emmm, take me, James."

"I am."

We looked into each other's eyes as I started slowly working my cock in and out of her. Linda smiled at me with a look of love and pleasure as I slowly made love to her. We took our time and enjoyed each other for a long time.

"Make me come, James."

"I will, but not like that."

I kept working my cock in and out of her slowly.

"Remember what I told you about feeling everything. Feel the texture of my skin sliding in and out of you. Feel my love for you."

Linda closed her eyes. It never failed when I told her or any other woman to do that; their pussy would tighten around my cock.

"That's it. Now feel it and relax and just let it come to you."

I sped up just a little as Linda concentrated. I could feel her changing.

"Perfect."

I closed my eyes as I kept going and just let her feelings wash over me. I could feel the warmth of her insides and her changing energy.

"Ohhh...god..." Linda moaned.

She was there.

"Emmm. Emmm. Emmm."

I could feel her slowly building. I wanted to drive her to the top, but I didn't. Slowly I pushed in all the way then slid back out.

"James..."

"Relax."

Her breathing was speeding up. I sped up just a little more.

"Yes...James...love me."

She was almost there. I kept going for a few more minutes.

"Ohh. Ohhh. Ohhhh."

I felt Linda tense up hard.

"Jeeeeezzzz!"

Linda started slamming her head into the pillow.

"Yes!!" She screamed and started coming hard. "Ahhhhhh!! Fuck!!"

Linda screamed, and a huge orgasm ran through her, so hard her pussy was crushing my cock.

"I'm coming!!"

I pushed my cock in deep and held it. Linda was frantic as her body took over. She gushed onto my cock several times.

"Oh, god!! I'm coming again!!"

She tensed up and then shook hard again.

"Fuck!!"

Linda gushed all over my cock several more times before she collapsed into the bed. I let her legs down and gently laid on her.

"Ohhhhh...damn..."

She opened her eyes and grabbed my head and pulled my lips to hers for a minute.

"Linda, what did you feel?"

"I felt you make passionate love to me."

"I think you like it nice and slow sometimes," I said.

"I like it like that. I was still horny from earlier. That was incredible, but you didn't fill me with your cum."

"I'm not finished with you yet," I told her. She smiled at me.

"What's next?"

"I want you on top so I can watch you and so I can play with your breasts."

"Okay!"

I slid my cock out and rolled next to her. She got up and straddled my hips.

"My turn!" Linda said.

She lifted herself and grabbed my cock and slid it back into her pussy. She quickly slid all the way down.

"How are you doing so far?" I asked.

"Fantastic!"

Linda wiggled and settled completely down on my cock.

"Are you ready?" She asked.

"Are you?"

Linda looked at me.

"What does that mean, James?"

"You remember I told you that you would scream with more pleasure than you have ever experience?"

"I have."

"Not yet." I said.

"What are you going to do?"

"Make sure you enjoy this."

"I can't wait," Linda said.

"Linda, make love to me," I told her.

"I will."

I watched Linda's long body as she worked her pussy on my cock. She was learning how to sit and wiggle her hips and body in a very sexy way like she had seen Dawn do. I could feel that she was still quite turned on. While she worked, I reached up and played with her huge tits. She kept smiling at me while she worked for a while to get us off.

"Emmmmm! Oh, I love doing this," she said.

"I love watching you." She smiled at me as she wiggled more.

Linda kept going until she was moaning. I could feel her love for me as she took her time.

"Ohh...I am going to come!"

She sped up as I watched her. She was deep into arousal; I was making sure of that.

"Oh! Oh! Ahhhhh!"

Linda started working my cock in her faster.

"Ahhhhh! I'm coming!"

I watched Linda's face as she had a nice orgasm. When it was over, she stopped and looked at me.

"Ohh, god! That was perfect," Linda said.

"You were perfect," I told Linda.

"I didn't scream like you said I would?" She said smiling.

"Linda, when Dawn and I make love, sometimes it is just like that, other times it is intense and loud."

Linda sat on me with my hard cock still inside of her. She looked at me for a few minutes.

"James...I want you to make me come."

"I plan on it."

"I mean, I want you to really make me come. Use your energy to do it."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. I want to experience a mind-blowing orgasm if you can do that. Can you?"

"I can. But, remember what I told you about how you may feel about regular orgasms after it?"

"Yes. I'm not worried; I have you, James."

I pushed myself up so I could hold Linda for a minute. She felt so happy and open. I moved her legs, so they were wrapped around me and pulled her closer. I wanted her to feel our love.

"Are you going to do it like you and Dawn do?"

"I need to feel you and be as close to you as I can. I find this is the best way. You can hold me, and I can hold you, but we are going to do it like we do it."

Linda kissed me for a minute. I pulled my legs in so she was sitting on my lap.

"Linda, you will need to relax. I will talk you through it. I will be whispering to you the entire time."

"You are not going to hypnotize me again, are you? Because I want to remember everything."

"No. I just need you very relaxed. You are going to find this very different." I told her.

"Oh?"

"You have to trust me completely, Linda."

"I do."

"I need to tell you something first since we have talked about it. This will be more intimate than anything you have experienced with me. The most important thing you need to do is just let yourself go and let anything you feel just flow through your body and your mind. Don't try and force anything. Most of all, I want you to think about the love you feel for me. While we are doing this, you will come to understand how much I love you and how much you mean to me."

Linda kissed me again for a minute.

"How?"

"You just will," I told her. "You can hold me anywhere you like. I will be holding you closely. Please listen to what I say to you because it is important you let me control everything."

"I will."

I looked deep into her eyes and moved my hands so I could hold her where I needed. I kissed her gently, and hoped this worked.

"Close your eyes for me," I told her.

She closed her eyes. I used my hand to pull her head down next to mine.

"Breathe and relax, honey."

We held each other for a long time. I was working to find all of her feelings. After that, I needed Linda to know how much I loved her. I slowly began to let my love flow into her where we touched. After a few minutes, she moaned softly. I had my hands on several places I had discovered on her back. She had responded well to me there. I had to be very careful and only let her feel the love I had for her, and not let her feel the love energy I had for Dawn because it was different. It would be too much for her if I slipped. I started feeling for the feedback from her. I felt her calming and feeling loved.

"Are you okay?" I whispered in her ear.

"Yes," she whispered.

I held her a long time until I knew she was filled with the love I had for her and knew she was accepting it. I could now feel the energy in her for the love she had for me, strong and familiar.

"I love you," I whispered.

"I love you too."

I was surprised at how well she was doing. She felt so natural to me, like a past lover. I was surprised at how the feelings between us grew and felt.

"I need you to breathe and relax. I know you feel my love, and I feel yours. Just let it flow through you completely and fill every muscle and nerve."

I felt her relax more in my arms. I moved my hand and brought it between us and placed it over her heart like I did Dawn. I pushed more into her. I could tell she was feeling it, but not like I needed her to feel it. I hesitated then slid my hand up to the back of her neck where I had found a very special place. What I felt surprised me. This spot was her locus like Dawn's was in the small of her back.

"You will understand my love for you," I whispered.

I went into a deep concentration and began pushing my love for her into her mind and body slowly. I could feel her change. Her energy just opened up to mine. I felt feelings like I originally felt from Amy. Linda needed love, but she had held back like Amy had in expressing it and opening up to me.

"Emmm," came from Linda.

"Let go and let me in," I whispered.

I took a deep breath and opened up and pushed my feelings for her in deep. I felt Linda change dramatically and suddenly. As I pushed, I suddenly felt her like she was giving back to me. I held her tighter and let her have all I had for her for a long time. She was accepting it, and it was all flowing back into me. I took her love for a few minutes then mixed it with mine and gave it back to her.

"Oh, god," she whispered. "That is amazing..."

I was deeply connected to her as I felt her energy and mine. I concentrated even deeper and let her feel everything, all I had. It shocked me how she changed. She could feel it. Linda now understood. I was overcome with deep feelings for her, much different than I had for Sam and Amy, more like with Dawn.

"James...I love you too," Linda whispered.

After I could do no more, I slowly came back to awareness. Linda was deep into the feelings. I removed my hand from her heart and then slid my hand away from the place on her neck and waited for her to come back to me.

"Linda."

I felt her stir; then I suddenly felt her hug me very tightly. She did this for several minutes.

"Linda, are you okay?"

She slowly raised her head and looked into my eyes. I could see that tears had been running down her face. She kissed me and kept hugging me.

"I am going to make love to you now," I whispered. She placed her head back on my shoulder.

I held her close and felt. I was surprised that she still had all the love energy flowing through her. I placed my hands on her ass and pulled her to me.

"Emmmm..."

I was going to take her ass and pull her on and off of my cock, but I paused. I could feel her gentle arousal already; much like Dawn was when we connected this way.

"Linda, I want you to concentrate on every place we are touching, even where I am inside you."

I didn't know what was happening, but we were deeply connected, but in a different way than Dawn and I. I wanted to make love to her without it being physical sex. Dawn was the only person I could do this with, but, Linda just felt right. The feelings kept making me feel like she was a past lover.

"You feel it?" I asked.

"Yes. What is it?"

I went ahead a placed one hand at the base of her spine and moved the other to the back of her neck again. I began to push my loving sexual energy into her to start arousing her. I felt Linda breathing on my shoulder in long deep breaths.

"Just let it flow where you want it," I whispered.

I kept gently pushing. After a few minutes, I was amazed; I could feel her arousal moving in her body as well as our love mixed together. When I could feel her energy of love and arousal come into my hand on her neck, it shocked me. I could more than feel her energy in my hand; I could feel her energy flowing into me. I was taking it; it was flowing into me like Dawn's did. We stayed connected like this for a very long time. After some time, I was very aroused from her energy, and she was feeling the arousal throughout her body. It was like Dawn's so much I wasn't sure what to do next.

"I love you," Linda whispered.

I focused my energy in my cock to see if she felt it.

"Ahhhhh...yes..."

When I felt her energy move to her insides around my cock, I just let it flow. Before I knew it, we were both approaching the edges of an orgasm. Linda felt incredible, and so did I. I felt the peace I only felt from Dawn. I gave her what she needed, and she gave me what I needed.

"Oh, god, James...yes..."

She felt so strong and full of energy, and so did I. Nothing was being a drain on either of us. I pulled her tighter to me. I could feel all of the places the tissue in her vagina touched me, and I could feel she felt all of me. I knew immediately that this was not going to be a physical orgasm like I pushed Amy and Sam too. This was going to be like the mind orgasms Dawn called it.