Life Lost and Love Gained Ch. 05

The sensations and emotions that ran through her body made Sara believe she was going to die; the fire of ecstasy that Shawn was building burned hotter and hotter; she had no idea how she had not magically combusted. "Shawn!" Sara gasped, clutching at his back. Her nails dug into his shoulders as the speed and frequency of his thrusts became faster, harder and closer together. All restraint he had tried to hold on to flew out the window as he began pounding into her. Sara gasped at the change of pace and of the harshness of it but she adjusted quickly and met him thrust for thrust. Their bodies were covered with sweat and they were both gasping for air but neither one wanted to stop, they both needed the knowledge that they shared love for one another.

Shawn could feel the pressure mounting within him and he knew that he was almost there; he could also tell from the gasps coming from Sara that she was close. "Let go," he whispered in her ear as he gently pinched the nipple his thumb had been brushing over. Sara's eyes widened and her breath caught in her throat before a shaky scream poured out of her, her nails dug deeper into Shawn's shoulder as his seed pulsed from his body and into hers. Carefully, Shawn rolled them so they were on their sides, facing each other. He tucked a strand of hair behind Sara's ear and gave a small smile. "You okay?" Shawn asked softly. Unable to form any actual words, Sara merely nodded as she fought to catch a breath. After a moment, Sara opened her mouth to speak but a yawn was all that escaped her lips; Shawn chuckled and pressed a tender kiss to her forehead. "Sleep," he murmured. Shawn watched Sara's face until her eyes fluttered closed, waited another minute more and carefully slipped out of her and off the bed.

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-2 weeks later-

Shawn took a quick shower as he pondered the events he knew were coming. He had heard the way other students talked about Sara, the words they used. He knew she had heard them too; he was just as unsure as she was about the baby. He need advice; Shawn thought about calling Sam, but he knew that Sam was busy taking care of Kelsey. He thought about calling Joyce but he knew that the stress of her pending divorce was making her cranky, besides, she'd been married to the man she loved during her pregnancies. Not knowing who else to call, Shawn dialed a number he knew from heart ... his mother's.

"Thanks mom for coming," Shawn said as he let his mother into the apartment.

"Is Sara okay?" Tabitha asked, looking around.

"So far so good. I just need to talk to someone that isn't having a rough time of things," Shawn answered. Tabitha nodded and gave her son a look of sympathy.

"What's going on?" Tabitha asked as Shawn slid a mug of tea across the table.

"I don't know if I can do this," Shawn admitted.

"Do what? Be a father?" Tabitha murmured. Shawn nodded and sighed.

"I care about Sara, and I want the baby, but I don't know if I can be what a child will need. I'm only nineteen and I can't even drink yet!" Shawn explained before he dropped his head into his hands.

"Shawn, those are feelings all soon to be parents feel, no matter their age. I know you're scared and it's okay to be. This is your first child, everything is so much more new to you and to Sara as it would be to people expecting a second or third child. Don't worry about being scared and don't let your fears stop you from being the best parent that you can be. If that means that you and Sara put the baby up for adoption and go your separate ways, then that's what it means. I won't hold it against you, and I don't think Sara would either," Tabitha said gently. Shawn nodded and took a long dag of his tea.

"Hi Tabitha, I didn't know you were here," Sara said from the doorway.

"I haven't been here long, how are you feeling?" Tabitha asked with a kind smile.

"Not so great. I think something's wrong," Sara answered. Shawn was at her side in a flash.

"What's wrong?" Tabitha wanted to know. Her question was answered as Sara's whole body tightened; Sara let out a low moan, her eyes wide and full of fear. "It's okay Sara, just relax." Tabitha turned to her son. "Help Sara to the car, we're going to the hospital," Tabitha said softly. Shawn swallowed and hurried to comply.

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"Are Sara and the baby going to be okay?" Shawn asked as the doctor checked Sara over.

"They'll be just fine, exhausted, but fine," the doctor answered. "I suspect that you'll be holding your son or daughter by ten thirty," he added. Shawn glanced at the clock.

"But Doctor Raymond, that's in less than six hours! Sara isn't even due for another six weeks!" Shawn protested.

"Sara's water broke while you were on your way here, so like it or not, the baby is coming today," Doctor Raymond told Shawn. Shawn didn't need the verbal reminder of her water breaking, his jeans were still damp from being next to her when it happened. Shawn half listened to the things the doctor was telling Sara and looked surprised when the doctor walked out of the labor and delivery suite.

"How are you?" Sara asked Shawn softly.

"I should be asking you that," Shawn joked.

"I'm fine thanks to the epidural," Sara said with a small smile. Shawn gave an awkward smile as Tabitha walked into the room with a change of pants for him; he took the pants and ducked into the private bathroom to change.

-Hours later-

"You're doing great Sara, just another push or two and you'll have yourself a baby," Doctor Raymond announced. Shawn and Sara glanced at each other; Shawn could see the exhaustion and pain in her eyes and he silently vowed right there and then not to even consider having sex ever again. Shawn dazed out as he tried to keep from wincing at the force Sara's hand exerted as her fingers dug into his hand. "It's a girl!" the doctor announced.