Love Without Limits Ch. 03

"And I always will," I said holding her tight.

We sat back down on the sofa, Amber continued crying into my chest. Her pain, her sorrow, was too much for anyone to withstand.

"Thank you for telling me guys," she said, barely audible.

"That's what friends are for," Tim said.

She sat up for a moment, "I need a drink."

"I thought you might need one after Roz told me everything that had happened. So I picked you up some of your favorite champagne. I'll go pour you a glass," Tim said.

She looked at me, "Is he always this thoughtful?"

"Why do you think I keep him around?"

That got her to smile a little, even if it was at Tim's expense. She drank several glasses of champagne, finally starting to calm down.

"I need to go home and confront her," Amber said.

"Not tonight you're not!" I said, "You're too upset and had too much to drink. You can stay here tonight."

"Okay, but what am I going to do tomorrow? I can't stay there, not anymore. All my stuff is there and I have no where to go now that mom and dad moved out of state."

"We will help you get your stuff and you can stay here as long as you need until you figure things out," Tim said.

"I can't do that, I wouldn't want to impose or be a burden on you guys. This is my problem and I'll deal with it."

"You're staying here, end of discussion!" I said, "You've never been a burden. I doubt you will start now. Yes, this is your problem, but you don't have to go through it alone."

Amber smiled, "Thank you. Both of you. I don't know what to say."

I held her some more. All I wanted was to comfort her. I would do anything to make things better for her.

"So, do I get to kick her ass before or after we move you out?"

She looked up at me, "Promise me you won't start a fight."

I reluctantly agreed.

She had eventually cried herself to sleep in my lap. Tim grabbed a blanket and a pillow, I slowly slid out from under her without waking her. She needed to rest, tomorrow would be a busy day.

The next day, the three of us went to Amber's apartment.

"Are you sure you're ready for this?" I asked.

"Ready as I'll ever be, I guess," Amber said. She looked rough but she held it together like a champ.

"I'll go in with you, if you need me to step out just say so."

"Alright," she said, nodding.

"Need me to go in and protect her?" Tim asked.

"No, I can protect Amberly just fine on my own."

"I was talking about protecting Ashley. I don't want to have to bail you out of jail."

I rolled my eyes. "Just stay here!" I scolded.

Amber and I walked up to her apartment. She unlocked the door and we went inside. Ashley came running to the door the moment it opened.

"Oh my god! I've been worried sick all night! Where have you been?" Ashely said.

"How could you?" Amber shouted.

Ashley stopped in her tracks, seeing how upset Amber was. "Amber? What's the matter?"

"I know about you fucking someone else while you're at work! How long has this been going on?" Amber screamed across the room.

"What are you talking about? I would never do something like that!"

I knew this was Amber's battle to fight, but just like that fateful day in high school, I was in no mood for bullshit.

"You are a fucking lier! I caught you fucking some guy in a minivan last night. It is all right here on this camera."

"You spied on me?" Ashley said, flabbergasted, "I'm sure whatever is on that camera isn't what it looks like Amber. Don't you see? She's just trying to pry us apart! I've seen the way she looks at you, she wants you for herself. I'm the one who loves you, not her!"

I hit play on the camera, holding it up from across the room. She may not have been able to see what was on the screen, but she definitely heard the moaning and the yelling of her name. Her jaw dropped, knowing she was caught red handed. There was nothing she could say or do that would get her out of this.

"I'm taking my stuff and leaving," Amber said.

"Wait Amber! Can we talk about this?" Ashley pleaded.

"There's nothing to talk about, now get out of my way!"

Amber went into their bedroom, gathering some of her things. I stood at the front door, Ashley was across the room.

"Are you happy now? Are you happy you ruined our relationship?" Ashley said, condescendingly.

"You did that all on your own," I said, keeping my temper in check. I wanted to beat the shit out of this whore. The only thing that saved her life was my promise to Amber.

"It might be over between me and Amber but it is not over between me and you bitch!"

Ashley charged at me. Amber made me promise not to start a fight, she said nothing about if Ashley started one first. I sidestepped Ashley, her momentum carried her into the wall. I twisted her arm behind her back, grabbed ahold of her ratty head and bashed it hard against the wall.

"Rozzy! Stop!" Amber shouted from across the room.

"You listen here you cheating skank," I said, pinning her face to the wall, "nothing would please me more right now than to snap your fucking arm off like a twig. Fortunately for you, I promised Amber I wouldn't start a fight with you and I keep my promises, unlike you. So sit your nasty ass down in a chair and don't move until we're done here."

I released her. Having a newfound sense of survival, Ashley sat down as I demanded. I called Tim to help load things into the car. Ashley sat in the chair crying, not saying a word. The knot above her eye must of hurt like hell, it gave me a cheap thrill. Amber finished gathering the last of her stuff and we headed for the door.

"Hope the dick was worth it. Good-bye Ashley," Amber said, slamming the door behind her.

A few days passed after Amber moved in. We had an office that we turned into her own room. She took things pretty hard. The loss of Ashley was the hardest breakup she has ever been through, even worse than ours. I figured all she needed was time before she was back to her bubbly self.

I awoke one morning to the sound of her shouting. Startled, I ran down the stairs to find Amber and Tim playing their online game together. This was the first time she was out of her room to do more than eat, go to the bathroom, or go to work.

"Die mother fuckers! You ain't shit!" she shouted at the screen, laughing maniacally.

"You scared the hell out of me!" I yelled.

"Oh sorry Rozzy, I guess I got a little bit carried away. Just blowing off some steam."

"Carried away? You're slaughtering people today! Carry away all you want," Tim said, excited that her anger seemed to have positive effects on their team's win-loss ratio.

"Glad to see you up and moving Amberly, even if you do have Tourette's."

Still focused on her game, "I don't have... you son of a bitch! I do not have Tourette's! I just decided that when I got up today I was done with people trampling all over me."

"Good to hear. Listen, maybe we could all go out and do something today? It would help get your mind off things."

"Go out? Now? We're kicking so much ass right now though!" Tim complained.

"I'm sure she doesn't want to carry your ass through every match all day."

"Ouch! Nice burn Rozzy!" Amber said, giving me a high five.

"Whatever, I can hold my own," he grumbled.

"I am kind of getting tired of playing. I'm with Rozzy."

"Alright. Fine," Tim said, clearly disappointed.

We went out and had a lot of fun that day. We played miniature golf, which I kicked both of their asses at. They are such sore losers! We walked around the park, went to a movie and had dinner at a restaurant. Amber seemed to be having a blast and I admit I was too.

It became a regular thing for the three of us to go out on the weekend. During the week Amber made us dinner, she was a damn fine cook. She said it was the least she could do for letting her stay with us. Tim liked having a gaming buddy around the house and I enjoyed Amber's company when I went shopping.

The only downside was that I had to be a little more tame when it came to sex with Tim. We still had sex every night, but I had to keep it down so Amber couldn't hear us.

One day while we were all sitting at the table enjoying some breakfast, Amber seemed excited about something.

"I have an announcement to make," she said, "I've saved up enough money for my own place! I found a place on the other side of town and plan to move in about a month. I can't thank you both for all of your help through all this. I don't know what I would have done without you."

I was surprised by her sudden interest to move out. I thought she liked it here, or did she need space?

"Um that's great but are you sure you're ready? It's still a little soon after what happened don't you think?" I said.

"Yea I'm ready. I can't live here forever. I have to get on with my life."

"We will help you in any way we can," Tim assured her.

I wished she could live here forever. I liked her being here, Tim liked her being here, why couldn't she live here forever? This was a recurring thought that plagued my mind for the next few weeks.

I was laying in bed trying to sleep one night when Tim leaned over.

"Hey, not sleeping again?"

"No," I replied.

"It's because Amber is leaving isn't it?"

"No!"

"Come on Roz, you never sleep when you have something on your mind. You can't tell me you won't miss her."

"Well of course I'll miss her. Won't you?"

"Yea, it's nice having her around. If you don't want her to leave, why don't you ask her to stay?"

"She obviously wants to go, I can't keep her here."

"I guess you're right, she has to move on sometime. Try to get some sleep though babe."

He turned back over, falling fast asleep. I wanted Amber to do what was right for her and to be happy. Why did I feel so unhappy then?

It was the day before Amber was set to move out. We decided to go out like we usually do as a farewell to her. I couldn't enjoy myself this time however. All I could think of was she was going to be gone the next day.

We sat in the living room after we got home. Tim and Amber were doing most of the talking, I couldn't bring myself to be sociable.

"Rozzy what's wrong?" Amber asked, sensing something was amiss.

"Nothing is wrong," I replied.

"Rozzy, I know when something is wrong."

"I'm fine! Okay?" I shouted.

Amber jumped when I raised my voice, cowering into the sofa.

"Don't mind Roz, she's just going to miss you and she doesn't know how to deal with it yet," Tim said, seeing that I had startled her.

Amber smiled and looked at me, "Rozzy it's not like I'm moving far away, we still will get to hang out like we always do."

Something came over me. A tidal wave of emotions came crashing through the mental wall I had put up. Everything came pouring out all at once.

"You don't get it do you? This is just like when we were kids. You come into my life, I get comfortable being with you, then you leave. I don't want you to leave me again! I said I would love you forever and I still do!"

Tearing up, "But I also love you too Tim! I can't choose between either of you, I love you both so much. Why does that have to be a bad thing? Why can't we just be together? Why can't I love you both?"

My emotions had gotten the best of me. I ran up the stairs into the bedroom and locked the door. I was clueless about what was going to happen next. I had confessed to being in love with Amber in front of Tim, I was certain he'd be upset. It had to break his heart. Would he divorce me because of this? I felt so stupid, heartbroken, and ashamed.

An hour or so passed before I heard a knock on the bedroom door, "Roz? Can I come in?"

I went to the door and unlocked it, there they both stood.

"Can I come in too?" Amber asked.

I nodded, letting them in.

"Roz, while you were up here, Amber told me about what happened between you two."

"I guess there was no point in hiding it anymore," I said, still sobbing.

"Roz, I already knew."

I looked up at him, totally surprised.

"I didn't know the details, but ever since that day with Vanessa I knew you and Amber had a love history. I'm not as oblivious as you make me out to be."

"I'm sorry. I didn't want you to feel like she was a threat to our marriage. I don't want to lose you like I did her all those years ago."

"Roz, you've always been faithful to me. When we got together you saved me from myself. I was heading down a very dark path before you came along. If you hadn't, I probably wouldn't be standing here right now. I never had confidence in myself, that's why I didn't talk to you when we first met. I figured I had no chance in hell with someone as beautiful as you. You never gave up though, giving me the confidence I desperately needed. Roz, I will always love you, no matter what."

"Thank you." I said, grabbing ahold of Tim and kissing him.

Amber gingerly wiped the tears from my cheek, "I'm not going anywhere either."

"But I thought you wanted to move out?"

"I don't. I just didn't want to be the third wheel on your marriage forever. I had no idea you still have the same feelings for me that I have for you. The truth is, I didn't flunk out of culinary school because I didn't have what it takes. I flunked out on purpose. When I was in Paris, all I could do was think about you. I felt I had made the biggest mistake of my life and that feeling became more apparent when I got home to find you had gotten married. When my parents told me you invited them to the wedding, it broke my heart. I know I made you promise me, but at the time, a part of me wished you hadn't kept it. I'm glad you did though, Tim is a great guy who loves you just as much as I do. I dated Ashley because I figured you had found someone better. The entire time I was with her, I still thought about how things might have been different."

Tim turns to Amber, "I'm okay with sharing if you are okay with sharing. You love her, I love her. She loves us. I don't see anything wrong with that do you?"

"Not at all. I would die for her. She's always been there for me. I love her with every fiber of my being. If I have to share her with you, so be it."

I smiled, sobbing again, "I don't know what to say."

"You don't have to say anything, but will you please stop crying? You're making me want to cry and no one wants to see a man weep," Tim said, trying to get a laugh out of me. It worked.

"I love you both so much!" I said, wrapping an arm around each of them, pulling them close to me. First I kissed Tim, then I kissed Amber.

"We can make this work. To hell with traditional boundaries on love! The only boundaries we need are the ones we set for ourselves. If we are all happy, that's all that matters, right?"

"Right," they both said at the same time.

"I don't want either of you being jealous of the other so if there are any demands or requests say so now."

They both stood there, pondering for a moment.

Tim finally says, "If you want to have sex with Amber, I just want to be present is all. If Amber wants to be present when we have sex, then I'm okay with that too. I feel as long as everyone is involved in some way there isn't room for jealousy."

"I'm not really into the voyeurism thing, but he has a point," Amber said. "If we are all present, then there isn't any secrets when it comes to sex."

The thought had occurred to me that whenever I had sex with someone, one of them would be left out. I didn't want that. If they can let go of their jealousy, I should do the same.

"How do you feel about each other, sexually?" I asked.

They both looked at me with wide eyes, completely surprised that I would ask such a thing.

"Look, if this is ever going to work we need to come to terms with our feelings. There isn't going to be room for jealousy, lies, or secrets. We need to get everything out in the open. I expect honesty."

There was a long silence before Tim looked at Amber and said, "Well, I think you're hot."

Amber laughed, blushing at the same time.

"We've become pretty good friends since you and Roz started hanging out again and. . . I never have had any intention of trying to seduce you, but that's not to say I never fantasized about a sexual encounter with you and Roz. I think every guy has had that fantasy, why not have it involve two of his best friends?"

Amber smiled. Normally she would have been put off by a man confessing he fantasized about her, but she looked flattered.

"I, um," Amber said, struggling to get the words out, "I've enjoyed our friendship, especially when we play online together. I've felt like we are a team. Also, Roz would tell me about your wild sex and it. . . made me curious. Ever since I found out Roz got married, I have wondered what made her go for men knowing she used to be a lesbian like me."

Amber giggled, "I... may have gotten myself off a few times thinking about it, but I wouldn't ever act on those feelings."

I was quite proud of them both for coming forward with their feelings. What they said got me excited, in more ways than one.

"It should be no surprise that I've fantasized about both of you at the same time," I said, "I love you both, equally. I want us all to make love to each other. Right now. Let's just let go of all our inhibitions and see where it guides us."

"Um, I've never actually... done it... with a guy before," Amber said self-consciously.

"Don't worry, I'll teach you," I said, comforting her.

"I also never had to worry about birth control."

"I have a few condoms in the drawer next to you. That will work until we figure out something more long term," Tim said.

Amber smiled, "Alright then, let's do this!"

I took a moment to look at them both. Everyone was smiling. It was a dream we had fantasized about and now it was becoming reality. The anticipation was exquisite.

I embraced Tim, touching his lips with my own. As he sucked in my tongue hungrily, I felt hands on my breasts, but they were not his. Amber had always loved my large breasts, she obviously had missed them.

I took a break from kissing Tim and focused on Amber's lips. She lifted my shirt over my head and tossed it aside. I quickly undid my bra, setting my twins free for anyone's touch. Tim grabbed both of my tits, squeezing them, while Amber ran her hands up and down my cleavage massaging my chest.

Almost as if reading each other's minds, Amber and Tim leaned forward and each took a nipple into their mouths. My nipples became erect from their tongues' touch. I tugged at Amber's shirt, my hands caressed her beautiful boobs, so soft and silky smooth. Of all the women I had been with, including Vanessa, I loved Amber's breasts the most.

Tim focused all his attention on my neck while I played with Amber's titties. I grabbed one of his hands and placed it on Amber's right breast. It was the first time a man had touched Amber this way, she shuttered a little in response. I pulled Tim from my neck, guiding him to the perfect handful of beautiful flesh in his hand. He sucked on her erect nipple as I took her left breast into my mouth. Amber cooed as we fed on her, running her hands through our hair.

"We are all way too dressed for this party," I said suggestively.

I crawled into the bed and slid my pants off. Amber crawled in next to me and did the same. Tim stood at the edge of the bed and undressed. As Amber was sliding off her black panties' she glanced over at Tim's erection, sticking straight out.

"Wow," Amber said pleasantly surprised, "that thing is thick!"

"Touch it," I told her.

I crawled over to Tim and she followed. Our faces were inches from Tim's thick rod. I placed Amber's hand on his shaft. She stroked and fondled him, feeling his hard cock and compact ball sack.

"His skin is so soft yet his dick is firm. It's nothing like the toys I'm used to."

"I'm sure nothing beats the real thing," Tim boasted.

I leaned forward and licked at his throbbing cock-head, "Don't be shy Amberly."