Murphy Ch. 10

Was he someone else or was he himself? Truman didn't remember much from the past couple days and what he remembered from the last couple weeks didn't feel like him at all. He would never have thrown things and shouted at his wife like he'd done Ruby. He wouldn't be surprised if she hated him. He hated himself.

"Daddy go away!" He remembered his son screaming at him, "you're scaring Trudy!"

That was the moment he recalled where he began to hate himself. God, he'd do anything for that woman and those two brats. He was supposed to be the good guy, the one that fought the scary men of this world. He had become that scary man. Even in the depths of his grief Truman smiled, Terren was so much like his mother with a tongue that knew no master.

Just as Truman thought he'd lost himself in sadness and reverie there was a faint knock at the door. Probably more doctors with more meds or more therapist or neurologists to "examine"him. He was officially over the circus rings and just wanted his family. He hadn't bothered to look toward the door.

"Daddy!"

Truman heard the chorus of two young voices and nearly wept with his joy. The twins threw themselves on him, two pairs of arms and legs wrapped around him. Two voices speaking so fast yet in rhythm with each other. He did start to cry then.

"Aye you little savages, don't break your daddy." He heard Ruby call as she followed them in. She gave Truman a wide smile, the smile he remembered had melted his heart in the fourth grade and still had the same effect to this day.

Ruby settled in front of him as the twins found their usual spots on his lap. Terren always snuggled to his left and Trudy snuggled to his right. He smiled down at them as they proceeded to fill him in on what he'd missed in the last weeks. It wasn't until Ruby reached up and wiped away his tears that he even remembered he'd been crying.

"I am so sorry," he managed to say past tears, "I'm sorry for what I've put you through and what I've put the kids through. I'm just so sorry,"

Ruby looked at him as if something clicked and she'd realized that her husband was back. She looked down at the kids for a moment then back at him her eyes glassing over.

"I know this hasn't been any picnic for you," she finally replied rather slowly. "I can't imagine what it's like for you. I know for me it sucks balls so it must be much worse . I took a vow when I married you that I would always be with you. I meant it Truman, every word."

As she continued her glassy eyes spilled their tears just as a smile entered them. In that moment and for the first time in months Truman felt hope. He felt that everything will always be great as long as he had his family.

***

The day passed for Jaelyn with an unbearable slowness. Randomly,her heart jumped out of her chest with worry. Delvin headed the crew on the rescue mission and Jae feared he'd lose his life to the rubble. She fought to keep it together for Nandy. Nandy was really going through it. She remained silent mostly, her gaze going vacant. Jae could almost see Nandy's inner turmoil in her dark blank eyes.

Really, they both tried to be there for each other as they both suffered with worry, but honestly, they couldn't do each other much good. Nandy had retreated within herself, bottling her emotions and anxieties and saving them for when she was alone. Jae wanted her to unleash it but only so she could selfishly have a distraction.

After hours of watching Law & Order on Nandy's couch, avoiding the painful subject of Murphy and Delvin, and jumping at every ring, ding and notification their cell phones made Jae decided to call it a night. She retreated to her condo leaving Nandy to sleep off her grief.

Jae stepped into her apartment, placed her keys in the bowl on the foyer and simply stared. She didn't know what to do next. Odd, she was a grown woman walking into her own house and just felt clueless. Usually she'd try to get some work or research done but for the first time in...ever, she didn't have a desire to work.

She'd watched enough tv and listening to music would risk the chance of hearing a love song and diverting her attention to her fear for Delvin. Did she love him? She had to ask because she knew often people tend to equate attachment and lust with love. She also knew that the fear she felt could be distorting her perception of her own feelings. Jae rubbed her brow. She was thinking way too much. She suddenly knew what she should do.

A glass of white Zinfandel later Jae danced hippie style in the middle of her condo to the grooves of Janelle Monae. She was trying to lose herself in space and time. She nearly succeeded but lost balance falling to the couch behind her. The song changed to a crooning love song, quickly sending her thoughts reeling. Where was Delvin? Dear God let him be fine. Please God bring him back to her safe and sound.

As the song slowly died out Jae realized she'd been crying, pleading and praying. God she hadn't thought to pray since leaving her mother's house all those years ago. She reminded herself to take action, hopping to her feet and grabbing her phone. Jae had no idea who'd she call nor what she'd say but she couldn't sit there and be miserable any longer.

Her heart froze as she realized her phone had died. She quickly plugged it up and waited impatiently for the screen to awaken. Staring at the dark phone she suddenly recalled how she'd met Delvin. He'd switched their phones. He was bold and charming, attentive, and oh so affectionate. Jae smiled at the memory.

She had five missed calls, all from Delvin. Anger, relief and anxiety consumed her as she re-dialed his number. After only two rings hep picked up.

"Thank God, Delvin it feel so good to hear your voice."

"It's not enough for me," He said gruffly, "I really need to see you, right now."

Jae registered the plea in his voice, "What's wrong?"

"Buzz me up, I'm outside." he suddenly said.

Jae ran to the window. Delvin had brought the entire fire truck and they were parked at the entrance of her condominium. She could make out the figure Delvin made as he jumped from the truck. The truck drove off and Jae rushed to buzz Delvin into the building.

Her heart raced as she waited impatiently for Delvin to reach her door. Jae even went as far as opening her front door, stepping out into the hall and in the direction he should be coming from. She stared wondering if it would be to much to venture down the hall, maybe get on the elevator.

"Jae," she heard Delvin call from behind her.

She turned and sprinted for him, throwing her arms around his neck. He caught her, spinning with the force of her inertia. It felt so good to be in his arms again. Although he was dressed in his fire rescue shirt and jeans he still smelled of sweat, soot and smoke. She didn't care, she kissed him, her entire body thrumming with joy.

They stayed there, holding each other and kissing until they'd had their fill of each other. "I didn't know what I would have done if you didn't come back to me,"

"I'm here now," He said smoothing her straightened hair from her face before kissing her.

Jae took Delvin by the hand leading him to her front door. Jae noticed how heavily he walked and weary he looked. It sparked in her a need to care for him, already listing things she'd do once she had gotten him inside.

Once inside, Jae locked the door and led him to the bedroom. She proceeded to peel off every layer of clothing until his bare taut body stood before her. Delvin's gaze was heated as he waited to see what she'd do next. He was too beautiful to not admire. His skin was the color of rich mahogany with strong shoulders and long toned torso. Jae's eyes trailed down his body noting the Usher V cut that led to his quickly hardening dick.

Jae looked away then into Delvin's face. He seemed to be waiting for her to look, even daring her. Jae let her gaze fall again to the thick muscle between his legs that bobbed with its own weight. She wanted to grip it, to feel the heat of his dick as it throbbed in her hands.

She didn't, she turned her attentions to his clothes, picking them up and taking them to the wash. when she came back, Delvin had managed to turn the shower on and was just about to step in when Jae stepped into the steamy room. Jae gave him a shy smile as she slowly peeled off of her own clothes. Delvin didn't hide the fact that he watched nor did he make a show of watching. Jae saw pure admiration in his gaze and was emboldened to stand before him as his eyes ran over her naked form.

Her skin looked soft and Delvin wanted to dive into her body like a vat of melted caramel. Jae once again took his hand and pulled him into the shower. He followed along losing himself in the warm water and the feel of Jae's hands on his body. Jae slowly and diligently washed him off. She wasn't overtly sexual, she was deliberate and nurturing. Delvin loved that about her. He loved her, she was so intelligent and bold but still innocent in a lot of ways.

They both stepped out the shower and Delvin allowed Jae to dry him off unable to hide his own attraction and feral need to be with her. Jae kept her movements deliberate trying to quell her own desire. She'd done it for so long it was almost second nature.

Suddenly Delvin had her by the wrists pulling Jae close to him before wrapping arms around her. Jae was taken by his sudden action but not by the passionate way he claimed her lips. Her body responded like it always had, with quick surrender.

"I love you," He blurted breaking their kiss, "I love you, and I realized today that you're one of the best...no that's not right, you are the..." Delvin sighed not sure of what he wanted to say but knowing that he had to share his epiphany with her.

Jae looked at him expectantly but also as if she already understood.

"I don't know what I did to deserve you in my life, but I'm so grateful to have you. If I didn't have you to come home to tonight I'm not sure I would have made it home."

Jae looked at him, really looked and found sincerity, she saw a weary man and a shook man. She saw a strong one who was kind affectionate and goofy and totally in love with her. Her eyes pricked. He was everything she could dream of having and of being. He was special and Jae felt herself give in.

Jae kissed him slowly drawing his bottom lip into her mouth, inhaling his scent, pressing her body to his and putting all her love into that kiss. She loved him and that love seemed to have no end.

Jae slowly pulled away leading Delvin out of the bathroom and towards her bedroom. Once inside she closed the door behind him and turned around and pulled him in. She felt unable to be without his touch any longer. Her body flushed with heat as Delvin grabbed her as if he needed her just as badly.

Delvins hands were everywhere at once sliding down her back and over her hips and soft ass cheeks, pulling her in and teasing every sense. Her hands roamed his body slowly,a

attentively until Delvin's lips slid down her neck, nibbling and sucking. She paused enjoying the way his nips sent liquid heat flooding her core. She pulled him tighter in, grinding against him in a way that felt just as instinctual as it did awkward.

Delvin moaned into her neck sliding his hand down pert nipples before reaching between her legs stroking her slick folds. Jae shuddered, the sensation, not new but more intense than she'd ever felt. She moaned aloud the sound filling her ears.

Delvin spurned on by her enjoyment trailed kisses over her chest and down her breastbone. He captured a small cinnamon colored nipple in his mouth. Jae's sharp intake of breath was music. Delvin turned his attention to the other until Jae squirmed in his arms. Delvin wanted so much more and the way Jae looked into his eyes told him she wouldn't protest. Yet, he didn't want her to regret this and regret him.

Though it took all his willpower he pulled away. The movement was sudden and Jae almost whimpered in protest. Her body, libido, and soul had been whipped into such an inferno, she was lost in it. She wasn't afraid though. Her heart beat and her body tingled but there was no fear no anxiety like the many times before.

Delvin looked weary and collapsed on the bed. The day had been a rollercoaster for him, Jae remembered. What with her nakedness and they're petting it may have confused him emotionally. Jae had to make things clear for she had come to a realization and a decision.

Jae made her way to the bed, sliding her body next to his. She noted that she loved the feel of her naked body against his. She curled against him until his arm wrapped around her. How does one say what needed to be said. Jae heavily felt her own inexperience with love and sex. She opened her mouth to say what she wanted but nothing came out. She pressed a kiss just below his ear and squeezed her eyes closed.

"I'm ready," she said softly, "I love you Delvin and I don't want to regret never giving you what I wanted out of fear. Only I'm not afraid because this feels right. At this point in my life, if I can't trust my own heart than what can I trust? Right now, my heart is telling me you're the right one."

Delvin shifted to look into her eyes, to look at her and for her to look at him. He didn't want her decision to be based on her physical reaction to him. She looked on him intently before breaking into a girlish smile. Delvin had to return such a smile. He dove in pressing a kiss to those still smiling lips. Delvin next went for her neck swiftly nibbling and growling making her giggle with its abruptness.

Slowly, Delvin savoured her neck and Jae was again amazed at how it set her ablaze. He covered her body with his and Jae reflexively wrapped her thighs around his hard lines, enjoying the weight of him bearing over her.

Delvin continued his nibbles and tastes down her body she was so soft and brown and he couldn't resist. As his trail travelled lower Jae gasped. She hadn't expected Delvin would lick her pussy first. Excitement and nervousness coursed through her. She'd imagined what it would be like. Delvin nipped at her inner thighs licking and sucking the soft flesh. Jae felt compelled to watch. His tongue flicked out caressing her swollen clit. She fought hard to hold onto some poise.

Devlin's tongue began to work the soft folds of her pussy and Jae lost control of her breathing, heaving unevenly. His masterful tongue stroked at her before engulfing her clit. Jae shuddered and moaned unable to recognize the sound of her own ecstasy, but even that added to her passion. Jae's moans turned to mewlings as he continued.

Delvin pressed his tongue inside her grunting into her core. Jae overwhelmed by the newness of the sensation, the passion of intimacy, and the proof of his enjoyment was sent her over the edge. Jae had experienced orgasms before but this was more powerful than she'd experienced. Her entire body tremored with her peak and flooded with heat, wetness pooled onto her thighs and Devlin's face as his strong arms held her still.

"Omigod Delvin!" She cried when he had not relented. He finally pulled away lips covered in her juices.

It was kind of gross but she loved it that way. Jae clamoured to pull him near, kissing him and molding her body to his. Jae held him and kissed him in wonder and awe. This was so intense and she could feel that it was only the beginning.

Delvin pulled up and looked down on her devouring her long tan body spread for him. He gently ran his swollen mushroomed tip up her soaking folds until Jae writhed against it. Positioning his dick at her entrance, Delvin slowly pushed into her slick heat until he felt her tense. Delvin withdrew slowly until only his head remained.

Delvin looked down on her with a playful smile, "How does it feel to lose your virginity," he said.

Jae was caught off guard by the question and giggled.

"I feel like a woman," She mocked and Delvin laughed. He captured her lips in a kiss pushing in to the hilt. Jae groaned into their kiss. She had never felt like this. The new erotic sensations overwhelmed her senses and she basked in it. Delvin slowly made love to her. kissing and nipping her neck, whispering his enjoyment in her ear.

Jae moaned with abandon, she couldn't care what she sounded like or what she looked like all that matter was Delvin and this moment, their union. She gave it all up, her heart, her emotion, her passion and her sex. It was a type of freedom that stoked the fire of her libido. Jae gripped onto him, his body like silk covered steel as he drilled into her willing body.

She loved this man, the things he did for her and the things he did to her. It was as if all her emotions crashed down on her at the same time as Devlin's ministrations had brought her to her peak. Jae came, a phenomena that she had never occurred up until this moment. Jae had had orgasms before but Delvin had made her cum. A difference she'd notice in the way her eyes rolled back, her thighs tremoured and hot wet heat rushed her sex.

Delvin groaned at the exquisite feel of her hot body as it gushed and gripped him. He sawed into her making her buck against him in her excitement. Delvin held her body, growling into her. "Good girl, come for daddy,"

As if she wasn't in the throes of the strongest orgasm she had ever experienced, the timbre of Delvins voice as he purred into her ear sent her over an edge she hadn't thought she'd reached.

"Delvin," She moaned as she gripped him tighter holding onto him as her body took a rollercoaster on its own. Delvin pushed deeply into her holding her there, her tight spasming hole bringing him to cum. He groaned into her neck filling her with his seed.

"Goddamn" Jae said after a few minutes of laying in a slack bodied heap of heaving breaths and satiated limbs.

Delvin laughed as he shifted them into more comfortable position, tucking Jae into his side, "Goddamn is right,"

***

A strange numbness had fell over her. Nandy was tired. She didn't want to cry anymore, she didn't want to hurt. As she laid on her living room couch a decision her heart had adamantly made a long time ago bubbled to her consciousness. She was taken to that very first night with Murphy. Nandy recalled thinking she had finally met her equal, sexually of course.

She woke up the very next morning just as the sun was rising. She hadn't slept long but had always been a morning person. Nandy woke up in Murphy's arms. That never happened. Nandy would never allow them to stay long enough for that to happen. She was never hooking up with a guy for affection.It was purely sex, but waking up in Murphy's arms felt amazing.

She had laid there for at least five minutes enjoying the thrum of happiness that coursed through her. Nandy had happened to shift her body, eliciting a groan from Murphy.In his sleep Murphy pressed his swollen erection agaiunst her ass. Her libido was instantly awoken like flicking a bic lighter. She ground her ass into his bulge. Murphy's arms tightened around her, his body had stiffened against her motion.

Nandy had wanted him then and suddenly.She wanted one last taste of him before he was gone. It wasn't just his thick cock that she wanted.She wanted the banter and his conversation, that boyish smile, and burning green eyes.

Nandy slipped away from his arms surprised by her thoughts. She reminded herself that it was the sex and only the sex. Another part of her whispered defiantly that there was nothing wrong with keeping him around.

Murphy had rolled to his back his long brawny body barely covered by the sheets and his hard dick laid heavily on his lower stomach. 'Oh god he was hard as a rock nandy thought climbing atop him and sliding down onto his him. His thickness stretched her deliciously as she proceeded to ride him until he'd awakened and their shared passion consumed them.