No, Honestly

I told the entire tale, as an erotic story, Dick thinking I was creating it just to excite him.

"I even did this," I told him, pushing him onto his back, kneeling over him with his head between my legs, and going down on him, while lowering myself on his face, so he could use his mouth, too.

"No, not like that," I told him. "You have to reach around me, spread me, then do that!"

"What else?" he asked, after that ended. "Tell me what else."

So I went on with my 'fictional' story and we acted out every scene, and, yes,

I thought about Edward the whole time.

Damn it.

I've never cheated again since that night. I've confessed itseveral times to Dick but he won't believe it. He just thinks I'm making it up.

The problem is, You can't get forgiveness if no one believes you've sinned.