Pam's Guilt

The living room light was bright. I close my eyes. I thought about what had happened tonight. and the night when I first arrived. I just know him for less then a month. He had already seen me naked. Not once, but twice. I smiled helplessly.

"If you need anything, let me know. I am going to take a shower."

"OK, thanks."

Steve did not get home until later that night. I did not mention the whole incident to him. I just told him I fell in the bathroom.

(5) Visitor

The next two weeks went by very quickly. My daily routine was preparing breakfast, cleaning, cooking, swimming in the afternoon, dinner, etc. Steve and I made love 3 more times over this period. Nothing as memorable as the one on the day I arrived. We made love when Jim was not home.

On evening when Steve told me he would be late, I went out shopping. When I got home, Jim was home with his bedroom door closed. I did not think twice. After shower, I got ready for bed. Just as I laid on the bed, I heard the voice of Jim and another lady from next door. I looked at the alarm clock, it was almost 9:30pm. I got curious and listened carefully. They were talking and laughing.

That went on for almost half an hour. It was silent for a few minutes and then I heard a loud noise as if something fell on the bed. I heard a small scream from the lady. I had a feeling that they were going to make love. I was excited and curious to find out what I can hear in my bedroom.

I was disappointed. It was quiet. I placed my right ear on the wall but I still couldn't hear anything. Another 10 minutes went by before I heard anything. I heard the annoying noise from the bed frame hitting the wall. He must have the same bed as we had.

The annoying noise came and went at first. The noise became a rhythm. Occasionally I heard her moaning. I knew they must be making love. I was curious and at the same time very excited. My right ear was on the wall the whole time trying not to miss anything.

That making love and bed frame noise went on for a while before it stopped. A few minutes later I heard their door opened and then the bathroom door was closed. I did not know who was out there. I was curious to find out who she was.

The clock was showing 10:33pm now. Wow, they went on for more than an hour. My panties was wet. I was excited. I can feel that my nipples were hard. I took off my panties. Before I put a new one on, I heard the bathroom door opened. I quickly got out trying to catch who she was but I did not see her. Jim's bedroom door was closed. I placed my right ear on the door. I couldn't hear anything.

As I turned toward my bedroom, I saw Jim looking at me with a funny facial expression. I paused for a few seconds before I rushed back into my bedroom.

I was so embarrassing. I just got caught listening to them making love. I tried to think a good reason to explain but I couldn't. I don't know what time I fell asleep, but the next thing I know Steve was besides me. I can feel his body was cold. He hugged me from behind with his left hand wrapped around me. I moved a little bit to make it more comfortable.

"What is the time now?" I asked.

"Almost 2am."

"So late again?"

"Ya. Too much work."

"OK." I said.

His left hand felt my body, from the thigh to my left breast. We married for so long, I knew he wanted to make love.

"It's late." I protested. I just remembered I did not have panties on. I took it off and did not put a new one on.

"I will be quick."

"...."

He got a silent OK from me. His left hand wandered inside my nightgown.

"You must be waiting for me." He said quietly after knowing I did not have panties on. I couldn't tell him I took it off because I was excited hearing Jim and the girl making love earlier.

"Mmmm." His fingers were on my pussy feeling my clit. The pussy hair grown back. Slowly he inserted his middle finger in me. I moaned again. I was excited. I can't tell if I was horny all night or just from his touch.

He lifted my left leg up on his belly while he continued finger fucking me. I turned my upper body toward him, wanted to feel his body. He raised his head and his mouth sucked on my left nipple.

I was excited. I couldn't help but moaned.

"You are hot."

"..."

He then got up on the floor and removed underwear. I moved my body down toward the edge of the bed. I wanted him to enter me. With my nightgown raised to my waist, he held on my both legs and spread them wide. The room was not too dark. I can see his body but I can only feel his cock outside of my pussy.

Without any hesitation, he entered me. I was wet. I can feel it. I was excited. He stood on the floor. He was fucking me while holding my legs wide. I noticed the noise of the bed frame again. Earlier it was Jim's bed, but this time it was our bed.

I just had a naughty though, I wanted him to know we were making love. I followed Steve's rhythm pushing toward him.

"Your are so sexy." He said.

I did not say anything. I never thought of myself as a sexy kind of woman. I did catch attention of guys from time to time, which I enjoyed.

Steve raised my nightgown further up to expose my breasts. I removed the nightgown myself. I was naked. Steve is pushing toward me. I saw my breasts were bouncing up and down while Steve was fucking me. I closed my eyes. I moaned louder.

I felt Steve's hands cupping my both breasts. I felt his hands on my body. He was squeezing my breasts. I can feel his cock is thrusting faster and harder into me. With every push he did, the bed frame was hitting the wall. I did not care about them hearing us. I just wanted to let go of my usual self and enjoyed..

"Mmmm." I moaned as his finger was brushing my clit as he was fucking me.

"Mmmmm." I moaned louder.

I thought of Jim and the girl in his room making love earlier. I know the only thing between our beds are the wall. I wanted them to know that we were making love. I wanted him to know.

Steve did not say anything but continue moving in and out of my body. He then raised both of my legs on to his shoulders, he continues fucking me faster.

"Mmmmmm." All I can hear is Steve and my heavy breath and the bed frame noise hitting the wall.

He continued fucking me for another 2-3 minutes before he released everything inside me. He lowered my legs from his shoulder. He hugged me for another 30 seconds until I felt his sperm coming out of me. I pushed him away.

"You are good."

I gave him a smile. I got up to clean. I couldn't find the tissue box. I cleaned the sperm off me with my panties. By the time I was done Steve already fell asleep.

I put on a bathrobe with nothing inside me. I took the panties with me. I wanted to clean the sperm off the panties. I opened the door and got into the bathroom. I switched on the light. I just wanted to be as quiet as possible. To avoid the loud squeaky noise, I left a small gap without closing the door fully.

After pee, I stood in front of the mirror. I rinsed the panties and left it on the sink. I wet a small hand towel. I untied the bathrobe and started cleaning my pussy with the damp cloth. All in the sudden I heard a noise and looked up. I saw Jim. His eyes were on my body. I immediately wrapped the bathrobe.

"Sorry, I did not know you are in the bathroom." Jim said.

He continued, "I heard a cat so I come out to check."

"What cat?" I asked?

"Cat making love." He winked.

"Hey." I threw the cloth I just wiped my pussy at him. I did not think twice. It was like a reflection.

He caught the cloth with his right hand. He immediately put the cloth on his noise. He smelled it! I was blushed. I tried to get it back from him. He immediately raised his right arm high in the air. He was at least 4 inches taller than me. With his arm high in the air, there was no way for me to get the cloth back. I jumped up trying to grab the cloth. I missed on the first few jumps.

He immediately put a finger on his lips signalling me to keep quiet. I stopped jumping but on the toes trying to reach the cloth. My left hand was keeping my bathrobe together and my right hand was reaching. Suddenly his left hand grabbed my ass toward him while his right arm remained high in the air. I felt his hand on my ass.

All in the sudden we look each other in the eyes. It was very brief. No more than 1 second. I pushed him away. Without looking at him or saying a word, I got back to the bedroom.

I did not sleep well that night. I eventually fell asleep and when I woke up, Steve already left the apartment.

The week went by quickly. Jim and I talked briefly, we never mentioned about that night. I did not find out who the girl was with Jim.

(6) After dinner

Steve and I went for a dinner on Thursday night. The restaurant was famous for its Italian foods. I dressed up for the occasion. I wore a black short dress I bought recently. I put on a thigh high stocking, just above the hem of the dress.

"You're sexy on the dress." Steve's eyes were wide open when he first saw me in that outfit.

I replied with a smile.

"Maybe we should stay home tonight." He was approaching me with his dirty look.He came over to feel squeeze my butt.

"Wah. Someone is not wearing panties."

"It is G-string"

"Oh let me see."

I slapped him on his wrist. ...

We waited for 30 mins to get a table at the restaurant. By the time we're done dinner, it was closed to 9pm. Steve had a conference call at 10pm. We took a taxi home. Once the taxi dropped me off, Steve continued to the office.

I took my sweet time taking a long hot shower. Once done, I stood in front of the mirror applying moisturizer on my face and body. I put on a white cotton panties. I brushed my teeth in front of the mirror. While brushing, I heard a loud knock at the door.

"Who is it?" I asked.

"It's me. I need to pee." Jim said.

"Wait."

"Hurry up."

I immediately covered myself with a towel. I opened the door. He immediately walked passed me to the toilet. He lifted the toilet seat. I smelled a strong alcohol on his breathe. I rinsed my mouth and trying to get out of the toilet. I wanted to leave the bathroom but my dress was on the hook beside the toilet. Before I had a chance to take my dress, he started peeing. I did not know what to do -- should wait for him to finish to get my dress or should leave and come back later for the dress.

I paused for a few seconds.

"Is my cock bigger than Steve's?" He asked as he turned his upper body toward me.

I naturally looked at his cock. I blushed immediately and turned away. I did not know what to say. I kept quiet.

Once he was done, I heard him unzipped his pants. All I wanted at this time was to get my dress. I turned around trying to grab my dress. He saw what I wanted to do. He grabbed my dress and passed it to me. But he wouldn't let go of the dress.

"Give it to me?"

"I want to see you wearing the dress."

"Give it to me." I tried really hard to get the dress from his grip but he was too strong.

"Can you wear this dress for me to see together with the underwear you gave me?"

"When did I give you the underwear?"

"The one you left here the other night."

I suddenly remembered the underwear I left on the sink that night. My face was warm.

"Give me the dress and underwear."

"OK." He let go of the dress and walked passed me toward the bathroom door.

"You will wear the dress for me with that underwear?" I was relief until he turned around and asked again.

"You are drunk." I know there was no reason to talk to a drunk man. I got my dress and I wanted to leave the bathroom. I walked passed him and he grabbed me on the waist.

"Let go." I yelled.

He lifted me and put me down in front of the mirror. He used his body to pin me to the sink. His crotch was pinning me on my ass. He wrapped his arms around my breasts.

"Let go." I screamed.

I can tell he was drunk. His breath was smelled and his eyes were red. I saw him through the mirror.

"Can you wear the dress for me?"

"No!"

"Let me help you."

He pull my towel away. I tried to hold onto the towel but I couldn't. It was a sudden. I was half naked in front of him, exposing my breasts to him. I covered my breasts with my arms.

"You are drunk. Let me go. Steve is coming home soon." I screamed.

"He called while you're in the shower. He said he will be late."

"Let me go."

His right hand went to top of my panties. He wanted to pull my panties down. I immediately hold on to my panties with my right hand and continued covering my breasts with my left arm. His left hand pull my left arm away from my breasts exposing my breasts. His right hand grab my right breast and started playing with it. I saw him squeezing my right breast through the mirror. It was a strange feeling seeing that. I screamed again but that did not stop him. Once he let go of my left arm, both of his hands were playing with my breasts. All I can do was trying to get away from him.

"Your breasts are beautiful. Do you like them to be sucked?"

I continued struggling. His right hand moved to my panties. He wanted to pull my panties down. I knew that he was determined to remove my panties. With all of my strength, I held on to my panties with both of hands. He tried but he couldn't pull it down.

I thought I was safe for a second. It did not last long. He pushed my body down toward the sink. He grabbed my both hands and held them at the back of me. Once he locked my both hands with his left hand, he pull down my panties.

Once my panties was down to my thigh, his right hand felt my pussy.

"You want me now. You are so wet."

"Please don't do this. I won't tell Steve anything if you stopped now." I begged.

His middle finger was feeling me up and down from my asshole to the pussy.

"You are wet. Your pussy is ready. Do you want me to fuck you in the pussy or your ass."

"...." I cried.

He unzipped his pants. He removed his underwear.

"Ass?"

"No."

"OK, I will fuck your pussy then."

"Please don't." I begged.

"You are wet. I know you want me to fuck you hard."

Without much delay, his cock entered me.

"You are an asshole." I screamed.

He did not say anything. He continued fucking me. He was deep inside me. It was painful. I cried. He did not seem to care. He continued fucking me for the next 3-4 minutes.

"Please let me go." I cried.

He let go of my hands. I did not resist again. It made no difference. He lifted my body up. His hands squeezed my both breasts while fucking me. I looked at him briefly through the mirror, his face was red. He continued fucking me and playing with my breasts. That went on for another few minutes. At this point I just want him to finish and let me go.

I did not know what he wanted to do when he took his cock out. He turned me toward him. This was the first time I was facing him after he entered me. He lifted me and placed me on the sink. He opened my legs wide. I did not resist. I closed my eyes. He entered me again. His right hand supported my weight and his left hand was squeezing my breasts..

"Mmmmm." I moaned.

"I know you enjoy this."

I did not say anything. I kept my eyes closed.

I can't remember how long he continued fucking me. Every push was deep inside me. I was so excited. I closed my eyes. I tried to keep quiet but I failed. I moaned with his every fuck.

"I am coming." I felt he fucked me faster and faster. I felt relief and at the same time shameful. I let him fucking me. My legs were opened wide voluntarily for him. His hand squeezed my breasts and worst of all, I enjoyed it.

His both hands moved to my waist. He moved my waist toward him as he was fucking me harder and faster. About 30 seconds later he came. He released his sperm inside my pussy. All I heard was his loud breath. We both stayed still for another 10 seconds. His head was resting on my breasts. I pushed him away.

"Get out." I asked.

He quickly put on his underwear and pants and left the bathroom. I took a shower again. I saw red marks on my wrists, hands, and breasts. He was rough. I cried.

When I left the bathroom, Jim's room was closed. I didn't know if he was still in the apartment or went out. I just went straight to my room. I cried more. I was debating whether I should tell Steve. I decided not to. It will be best for everyone if I just pretended nothing happened.

Steve came home around midnight. I pretended to be sleeping. He got into the bed. He hugged me and slept beside me.

(7) Night out

I did not sleep well at night. I woke up around 7:30am. I prepared breakfast for Steve and Jim. Normally when I prepared breakfast, I prepared for both of them. I did not want to act differently.

After breakfast, Jim had a brief moment with me.

"I am so sorry last night." Steve said.

"...." I did not say a thing. I didn't know what to say.

"I am sorry. I did not mean it."

Steve came back to the living room. Both of them left.

***

I went swimming in the afternoon and took a nap after. The phone ring woke me up from the nap.

"Hello?"

"It is me." It is Steve at the other end.

"What's the time now?" I asked.

"Oh sorry to wake you up. It is almost 6pm. I will be late again. We have a farewell party."

"OK. What time are you coming home?"

"Around 11pm."

"OK."

"Jim is with me too. He said he has something to talk to me. We will go home together tonight."

"OK." I hang up.

I didn't know what Jim is going to talk to Steve. Was he going to tell Steve what happened last night? I was worried. I called Jim.

"Hello?" Jim asked.

"What are you going to talk to Steve?" I asked.

"What are you talking about?"

"Steve told me you have something to tell him."

"Oh. It is work related. Trust me, that is the secret between you and me. I won't tell anyone." I can sense the upbeat feeling in his voice. I hang up.

I spent the next few hours watching tv, video chat with my kids, etc. They did not come home until around 11:30pm. When they came back, Jim was holding Steve up to the room. Steve was drunk. He seldom drank that much.

"What happened? Why drink so much?" I asked.

"He was not a good drinker." Jim replied.

We both got Steve to bed. He was mumbling. I did not know what he was talking about. As we put him on bed, his hand was grabbing my strip on my night gown. My bra was exposed. I quickly settled him and pull the strip back up. I know Jim was looking at me. I pretended nothing happened.

I got up from bed. I removed Steve's shoes. I wanted to change him but I didn't think I can do it by myself. I thought of asking Jim to help, but I decided no too.

"Thanks." I said to Jim.

"No worry. Can I talk to you for a few minutes about the stuff I was going to tell Steve?"

I got nervous.

"Let's go out side."

I walked toward the living room. He followed me from behind. I was afraid he would do anything to me because he sounded drunk too. I was right. Before I had a chance to get to the living room, he grabbed me on my waist in the hallway. He lifted me and threw me on to the sofa.

I pushed him away and he immediately grab me on my shoulder and started to kiss me. I turned my head left and right to avoid him. He finally kissed me on my mouth while his both hands were on my breasts again.

I pushed him away with all of my strength.

"You can't do this. Steve is in the bedroom."

"I want you."

"I will scream."

"You won't. If you scream, I will tell Steve that we made love last night. You had a big orgasm."

"No."

"I still have you panties."

"...."

"I want you to suck my cock tonight. I promise I won't fuck you. But if you resist, I will fuck you like last night. If you scream, Steve will see everything.It is your choice." He unzipped his pants in front of me.

I looked at the curtain-less windows. He understood my concern.