Pam's Guilt

"You can suck me in your room beside Steve."

"No."

"How about my room then?"

"..."

"It will be quick. I won't tell anyone."

"You promise this is going to be the last time?"

"Of course."

"..."

He grabbed my hand and rushed me toward his room.

"I will come in a few minutes."

"I am waiting." He went into his room waiting for me.

I went into my room to check on Steve. He was sleeping. I put a blanket on him and closed the door behind me. I reluctantly went inside Jim's room. He was already undressed. He was naked sitting on his bed. He waved me toward him. I complied. My eyes starred at his semi hard cock briefly.

"Is my cock bigger than Steve?"

"..."

I was in front of him. He grabbed my hand pulling me toward him.

"This is the last time."

"Yes." He smiled. "Unless you want again tomorrow."

I did not know what to do. I just felt shameful and angry at myself. At the same time I felt excited. I hated myself.

"Take off your cloth."

"No. Just oral sex."

"Yes, but I want to look at you naked."

"No."

He pull me toward him. I resisted.

"Just take off the nightgown. I promise I will not fuck you. Unless you beg me to."

"Jim, you are drunk."

"Take off now."

Tear on my eyes. I can feel it. He did not care. He was waiting for me to remove my gown. I turned my face away from him. I pull the strip of my gown apart. Slowly I let the gown fell to the floor. My breasts were exposed and I can feel my nipples were hard. The only piece of clothing I had in front of him is a small pink panties.

"You are so sexy. My cock is hard looking at you."

I looked at his cock again. It is hard. I kneed down in front of him. I slowly took his cock into my mouth. It smelled. I didn't have a choice. I sucked his cock.

"Ahhh. You are so good at sucking. Steve missed it tonight."

"..."

He stood up in front of me. I continued sucking his cock. He pushed his cock toward my mouth. It is bigger than Steve. I thought. He fucked my mouth while his left hand was holding on my head. His right hand was feeling my shoulder. He slowly cupped his right hand on my left breast. I did not resist. It felt good.

"Do you want me to fuck you?"

"..." I can't answer him as his cock was in my mouth with his hand pushing my head toward his cock.

I continued sucking his cock. I felt water on my face. I did not know if it is tear or sweat.

"Do you want to eat my sperm?"

"No." He let got of my head. His cock is in front of me. The tip is red. The room is cold. I can feel the heat coming from his cock.

"OK. Suck it now."

I looked at him. Begging. He just pushed his cock toward my lips. I did not have a choice. I took his cock in my mouth again. I can feel him watching me as I was sucking his cock. Tear coming out again.

"Suck faster. I love seeing your breasts while you're sucking me."

I heard him moaning for the first time. I did not know I should be happy or sad. I wanted to be proud of myself but I can't. He continued pushing his cock in and out of my mouth. All I can hear was his breath and the sucking noise.

That went on for another 5-6 minutes. My jaw was numb. He finally signalled me he was about to come. I immediately took it out of my mouth. I wanted to stand up but his left hand was putting pressure on my shoulder. All I could do was to watch him stroking his cock. His cock was pointing at my face. I was helpless. I couldn't move. Honestly, I felt flattering. I made him so excited.

I heard him moaning again. I knew he was going to shoot his sperm on my face if I did not do anything. I used all the strength I had to get away from him. He tried to push me down but he failed. I got up just enough time to escape from his sperm. I felt his sperm shooting on my belly and then on my thigh.

I made a soft scream. He continued stroking his cock. He released the remaining of the sperm on the floor in front of me. I froze while he was doing that in front of me. As soon as he was done, I wiped the sperm off my body with a tissue. He was watching me while I was putting the nightgown on.

"Are you wet?" He approached me.

"...." I step back. Tear came out again.

"Don't be sad. I can fuck you again."

I left the room quickly. I went into my room. I locked the door behind me. Steve was still sleeping. He was snoring. I felt relief. I turned off the bed room light. I placed my ear on the door trying to find out what he was doing. I did not hear anything.

The room was dark again. Once my eyes were adjusted to the dark, I started moving toward the closet. I wanted to change. I smelled sperm on my body. I did not want to take a shower. I did not want to see him again tonight.

I took off the nightgown. Stood in front of the mirror. With the dim light coming from the window, I saw my breasts. My nipples were still hard. I took off my panties. It was very wet. I did not want Jim to know. I was excited while sucking him off. I felt ashamed. Now that my panties was off, shamefully, I wanted to make love. .

I turned around. Steve was still snoring. I didn't think I can wake him up now. My right hand slowly felt my body. Slowly I moved it toward my breasts, belly until I felt my pussy hair. The pussy hair were wet. I can smell Jim's sperm and my pussy. I was excited.

"Mmmmm." My middle finger were on my clit.

I did not masturbate often. When Steve wanted me to masturbate in front of him, he likes me to insert finger into my pussy. When I did it by myself, I seldom put finger inside me. I prefer fingers on clit.

I still stood in front of the closet mirror. I checked on Steve one more time, he was still sleeping. I closed my eyes. My right middle finger stimulated my clit. My left hand cupped my breasts. I opened my mouth. I can almost feel Jim's cock inside my mouth.

"Mmmmm."

I felt the tense pressured building. I was having a orgasm. It can't be right. This can't be happening. It usually took me a while to get to orgasm during masturbation. I can feel it is coming.

"Mmmmm." I closed my legs really tightly. Everything went silent.

"...."

When I finally opened my eyes, I checked on Steve first. He was still snoring. I quickly dried my finger and pussy with my already wet panties. I put on another clean and dried nightgown. I put on a white panties. I laid on Steve's side. I caught my breath. I felt relief.

***

For the next 3 and a half weeks, I did not give Jim another chance to be alone with me. When Steve worked late, I went to his office to company him. I gave a few lame excuses. He did not seem to care much. He was busy. I sometimes slept on the couch.

(8) Journey back

It was foggy. I was on a taxi to the airport. My vacation came to an end. Steve was going to take me to the airport until he received a call. He had to rush to the office. He took the first taxi and I took the second one.

"Buzz" That is my phone buzzing for new SMS.

"I hope you like your time here." The SMS was from Jim. I hardly spoke with him after that night. I avoided him.

The phone buzzed again.

"I left you a souvenir in your bag. It is in the front zipper."

I immediately opened the zipper. There was a large sealed envelope. I opened it. My face turned red. I couldn't believe my eyes. I was seeing a photo showing my naked upper half of body sucking a cock. It was me in his room the other night.

"I am taking the same flight as you. Didn't I say I will fuck you?" He sent another SMS.

My brain just went blank.