Revenge?

"Nah, it's just some scratches. It was WELL worth it." After a few seconds of thought, Kendall asked if he could call me sometime.

Without even thinking about it, I said, "No".

He looked confused, so I tried to explain. "Kendall you are wonderful, but I am married. This was about sex. I wanted to get fucked rotten by a stranger and you were it. I'm sorry if this hurts you, but that's the way it is. You were my revenge."

We rode in silence for the rest of the way to my car. As I was getting out of his car, another impulse hit me. I turned to Kendall and said, "I'm sorry if I was rude, but I had to be honest. Now I'm going to be honest again. I'd like to have your phone number in case I want to see you again. I had a great time with you, and the most incredible sex of my life and I may want to do it again. But it will have to be on my terms."

He thought for a second, then wrote his number on a piece of paper and handed it to me. I leaned back and gave him a kiss then we said goodbye.

I did an awful lot of thinking and soul searching on the drive home. Do I confront Scott about his mistress? Do I tell him about what I have done? Do I just keep quiet, let him continue with his mistresses and I continue to get fucked by other men? Wait a minute...I had really enjoyed sex with another man. What had started out as an act of revenge didn't seem so much like revenge now. I had truly enjoyed it. Once the sex started Scott wasn't part of the equation. I was there for me. Perhaps Scott was right. I realized that I still love him, have no desire to not be married to him and still enjoyed sex with another.

The realization of that moment is something that I will have to get worked out in my mind before Scott gets back from Miami. Do I continue to seek sex from other men? Do I confront Scott with what I know and what I've done? Do I use my experiences with Kendall to improve my sex life with Scott like he said that his experiences had done with us? The more I thought about it, the more confused I became. What had started as revenge had turned into a revelation. I had many questions to find answers for.