Sex with a Ghost

Oh the things I would do differently if I could go back in time... Gosh I'd take her to Spain with me...

I wonder where she is now... I wonder what she's doing at this exact moment... I wonder if she's found a new lover...

I was pulled from my thoughts as I felt a pair of teeth sink into my length.

'Ow Georgina! What have I told you about using your teeth?' I asked, rubbing myself to soothe the pain.

'Well maybe if you stopped moving around and actually told me what feels good then maybe we wouldn't have this problem!' she scolded me.

'I'm sure me not communicating with you has nothing to do with the fact that you just used your teeth on me,' I said, sitting up.

'Well you never know. Some guys like it,' she said, shifting her body on the bed.

'Who the heck likes that?' I asked, giving her a weird look.

'A few guys I've been with have liked it,' she said, shrugging her shoulders.

'Well those guys clearly don't have nerve endings in their penis,' I said, pulling my pants back up.

'You're not even going to let me finish you off?' she asked, scoffing.

'Yeah I'm good,' I said, tying my pants back together.

'Wow, you're lame,' she said, getting up.

Georgina is an ex of mine. We broke up months ago and the relationship was never really a serious thing. I guess we booty call.. If that's what you want to call it... But I only call her up or she calls me up when we are both stressed or just need someone to talk to.

She hasn't taken my virginity or anything. It's just messing around now... But I can't stop thinking about Kate... My God I need to find her... But who knows if she would even talk to me after I just left her like that... I was young and dumb... But that's just an excuse... I was so afraid of losing her, that I just decided to let her slip away..

Wow... I am so stupid...

'I take it that you're not going to do anything for me?' Georgina asked, looking at me.

'Ummm...' I said, trailing off.

'Yeah, I get it. Goodnight Daniel,' she said, grabbing her purse then leaving.

She left me there on my hotel bed and with the scent of her perfume. I'm visiting family and she just so happened to be in the area as well, so she texted me letting me know as she had remembered that I would be here.

I lay down on the bed in a huff.

Kate... Kate...

Kate...

I closed my eyes and drifted off into a sleep.

****************

I waited the next group of people that came in.

It looked like a family of 6. They all sat down at their table and I walked over to them with 6 menus.

'Good evening, I'm Kate and I'll be your waitress for the night,' I said, handing out the menus to each individual.

'Would anyone like to start off with drinks?' I asked, bringing out my pad of paper and a small pen.

'Can we get 3 waters and 3 iced tea please?' the young gentlemen asked.

I looked up at him and instantly he reminded me of Daniel.

'Oh my gosh... Daniel?' I asked in shock. My entire world froze.

'Mmm no, it's John,' he said, looking around at his family members.

I slowly came back to reality.

'Oh uh... Sorry... About that... So um.. 3 water, 3 iced tea?' I asked, writing it down.

They all nodded awkwardly.

'Okay, I'll be right back with your drinks,' I said, shaking my head in disappointment then leaving.

I headed to the back and grabbed 6 glasses.

'You alright Kate? You seem a bit, flustered,' Heather said, holding my back gently.

'Oh yeah... I'm fine...' I said, pouring the water in the glasses.

'Is it... You know...?' she asked, helping me with the drinks.

'What?' I asked, looking at her.

'That thing with Andrew?' she asked, grabbing a tray.

'Oh my gosh no,' I said, putting the filled glasses on the tray.

'Do you still see him?' Heather asked curiously.

'He came over for a bit tonight, but that was the first time in weeks. It's honestly nothing now,' I said, lifting up the tray.

'Did you guys... Go all the way yet?..' she asked.

'Ew no, I wouldn't do that with Andrew,' I said, heading out the little door and out into the crowd of people.

I approached the table once again, handing them all their drinks.

'So are we doing appetizers tonight or just straight to the main course?' I asked, pulling out the little pad and pen again.

'I think we will just order now,' the man said.

'Sure, what can I get you all tonight?' I asked.

'I think we will just order a 24 slice with pepperoni and mushroom and 4 pounds of wings, medium please,'

I wrote down the order quickly.

'Okay, and can I get you guys a side of extra blue cheese?' I asked.

'Sure, that'd be great,' he said.

I added that to the paper, and collected their menus.

'Perfect. I'll be back with you all soon,' I said, heading back to the front table and returning the menus, then heading back into the kitchen.

I called out the order and placed it on the kitchen counter.

I looked over at Heather and she was filling up drinks now.

I grabbed a tray for her, bringing it to her.

'Thank you,' she said.

I smiled, placing the glasses she had already filled on the tray.

'So like is Andrew good in bed?' she asked.

'Heather he's a complete idiot. No wonder Catherine dumped him,' I said.

'What? Why?' she asked.

'He's just an idiot. You'd have to know him to understand how idiotic he is. I just don't like being around him,' I said, handing her the full tray.

'Huh, that's weird. My one friend Mike said he's a good guy,' she said, looking at me.

'Well maybe Andrew is two faced,' I said, opening the door for her.

'Yeah maybe. Thanks,' she said, heading to her table.

I've been working with Heather for around 3 months now. She's great. We go on coffee dates often and just talk about anything. She's my age too.

The busy night went on and my shift was over.

I drove home that night in deep thought. It's almost 2 AM. The late night shifts like this are always hectic.

When I arrived home, I immediately went upstairs to remove all my makeup and removed the bun from my hair and hopped into the shower.

Afterwards, I instantly crashed into my bed.

Daniel... Daniel...

Daniel...

I closed my eyes and fell into a sleep.

**************

I awoke in the middle of my hotel room bed, and I looked to the clock beside me with foggy eyes.

Does that say 8:30?

Perfect. I woke up at the perfect time.

I promised my Aunt I'd be at her house by 10 for brunch. Everyone will be there. All my family members that I haven't seen in years.

If only someone else was there too that I also haven't seen in years...

I tried to block out the thought. I got up, showered and got dressed. I made it out on the road by 9:00.

I drove down the freeway, thinking.

Thinking.

Thinking...

Stop thinking Daniel... She's moved on... I told myself in my head.

I turned off the freeway and started driving down the road.

Suddenly, a deer ran out in front of my car.

'Shit!' I yelled, and immediately turned the wheel to the opposite side, dodging the deer.

I looked in the back mirror as the deer ran away. I was relieved.

I quickly looked back on the road to be met with an oncoming car.

Coming straight at me.

The driver suddenly turned and we both missed each other, but my tires screeched and twisted and turned.

Suddenly my car went out of control.

'No!' I screeched as my wheel took full control of the drive.

Before I knew it, my car was headed for a tree at the side of the ditch.

I was yelling, cussing at the top of my lungs and placed my arms over my face and braced myself to jump out of the car.

I thought I made it...

I thought I made it...

It was too late...

I felt a stabbing through my entire mid section, ripping apart and destroying every organ in that part of my body.

I tasted blood. I felt blood running all along my jaw and chin.

I felt a wave of pure shock.

Then it came slowly.

A feeling I just can't describe.

I felt the pace of my own heart beat slowing down.

I gasped and choked at the same time for air.

My vision was unfocused. Everything was a blur as I fell more and more unaware of reality.

The beating of my heart wasn't there anymore. Everything froze.

I soon fell into a world of blackness and I froze too.

**************

I awoke.

Not in the position I was in before, not in the world that I was in before.

This was different.

Everything was different.

I walked across the field of pure blinding white, hearing soft melodies being sung in the distance.

'Where am I?' I finally asked out loud.

'Daniel... Over here...'

I looked around. Where is everyone?

'Mom? Dad? Aunt Marie?' I asked aloud.

I found my way closer to this voice.

'You are safe with me Daniel, it is your time,'

I looked at thin air.

Then suddenly, a tall figure, stepped out from the clouds and embraced me in a tight hug.

'I am The Lord,'

Then it clicked into me...

I died in that car accident... I never made it out alive... I never jumped before my car hit the tree...

I broke down.

'Oh... Lord... Please... Please don't take me yet... Please send me back... I'm not done on earth yet... Please...' I cried and pleaded to have Him return me to my body, but the Lord placed his hand on my shoulder, crying with me.

'I am sorry Daniel. I can not help when you come to me. This is your time. You did many wonderful things on earth, now you can do them up here and send them down on earth,'

I was in shock...

I am dead...

What about my family and Kate?...

I cried harder into my hands.

The Lord hugged me once again, then disappeared into the blanket of clouds.

I looked up as he was now gone. Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder.

'Daniel, it is so nice to meet you,'

I looked at the man and I knew I had seen him before.

I've seen him in photographs from my Aunt Marie... This is her husband...

The uncle I never met...

He passed away before I was even born.

'Oh my... Hello... It is... Nice to meet you...' I said softly.

'It is so sad... You are still so young...' he said, tearing up.

'You look quite young yourself...' I said, looking at him, tears rolling down my face.

'A young man like you should not be here yet... It's tragic...' he said.

I looked down, crying more tears.

He rubbed my shoulder soothingly.

'You will find your place here. You will be happy again,' he said, then he walked away into the distance.

I looked down at my own hands.,

There are no cuts, no scrapes, nothing.

I am a new person compared to who I was before I died...

I looked over at a vision of the crash. I walked over and watched as the ambulance carried me away, ripping open my shirt, resuscitating me.

I suddenly felt a vibration in my chest, and I was back in the ambulance.

'Stay with us, can you hear me?' voices called out and slapped my cheeks to bring me back.

Groups of people hovered over me. I opened my eyes faintly, only to be met with blurry and unrecognizable faces.

'He's back,' one called out.

'Stay with us, you're on your way to the hospital,'

My vision soon fell back, and I was again pulled into that world of blackness.

**************

I awoke a second time in that same place.

The white blinding field.

They tried to save me... They tried...

I'm just meant to be here now... This is my home now...

I looked at the vision as the crew of paramedics resuscitated me over and over.

I felt nothing.

They looked around at each other, placing a finger to my pulse just by my neck.

I was gone.

****************

I awoke the next day with a strange and sick feeling.

Something's wrong... Something happened...

I got out of bed and made my bed, feeling strange.

'What the heck is wrong with me?...' I asked myself, holding my head.

I'm off balance or something... Something's just not right...

Something's just off...

************

I continued to explore this new world.

I looked down at the next vision.

It's my mom, dad, Aunt Marie and the rest of my family...

My mom ran to the phone with a smile.

Moments later, she hung up in tears.

I clutched my stomach as the pain grew within me.

My mom broke down to the ground. My family ran to her.

She yelled, she screamed.

'Daniel's gone! Daniel's gone!'

I cried once again as I watched the vision...

My father cried out, the rest of my family stood there in shock.

'He was killed in a car crash on his way here... Oh my Daniel is gone...'

'I'm okay mom... I'm still here...'

I couldn't watch it anymore...

I turned to the next vision, drying my tears.

It was a girl, maybe around my age.

Wait.

My age, a girl...

That's Kate...

Oh my Lord...

She's beautiful...

She's everything I could have ever wanted...

She's so tall, so thin, so perfect...

I left her...

What was I thinking?

Clearly I wasn't thinking...

I watched the vision as she looked puzzled, but she still made her bed.

I wonder where she is... What she has planned for the day...

Just then, a guy came barging in her room, pushing her down to the mattress.

Who is he?...

I can't watch anymore...

*************

'Kate... You're so sexy...' Andrew said, kissing my neck.

'Andrew have you been drinking?' I asked, trying to get him off.

'Umm... Don't tell anyone... Not even my mother...' he slurred, holding my shoulder.

'Shut up, Andrew. Get off of me,' I said, getting mad at him.

'Fine. I saw Catherine at the bar last night,' he said, sitting up.

'And?' I asked, fixing my shirt.

'She was with another guy Kate,' he said, looking down.

'Well you guys did breakup almost 4 months ago, so she's probably going to move on. Or maybe it's just a friend. It's not our business anymore,' I said.

'Whatever. Who cares anymore?' he asked.

'Clearly you still do,' I said, looking at him.

'No I don't, I... I'm glad she left me...' he said, pointing to himself.

'Okay, you need to sober up. What the heck were you drinking?' I said, grabbing some water bottles from the mini fridge.

'It was only a few drinks... Or more...' he said.

'Drink,' I said, opening the bottle and tilting it to his lips.

He drank it, choking as he did.

'Slow, drink it slowly Andrew,' I said, bringing the bottle back.

'I'm so thirsty though,' he said, trying to bring the bottle back.

'I know. Trust me you will feel better if you drink it slowly,' I said, slowly bringing it back.

He drank the water at a slower pace.

'What's wrong Kate? You seem... Anxious or something...' he said, swallowing the last bit of water.

'I don't know... I woke up with this strange feeling that something bad happened... But it's probably just me...' I said.

'Oh.. Well I should get going now... Thanks for the water..'

'How did you get here?' I asked curiously.

'My... My... uh... Friend dropped me off,' he said.

'And they left me to deal with you...' I mumbled.

'What?' he asked.

'Nothing. You're not driving, come on, I'll drive you back to your place,' I said.

'Are you sure?' he asked.

'Yeah.. But first you should shower.. I think you got puke all over your shirt...' I said, helping him stand.

He stood up and leaned up against my wall.

'Oh Kate.. Thank you for this..' he said, leaning his head back.

'Mhmm... No worries..' I said, tugging my fingers at the bottom of his shirt then lifting it over his head.

He groaned when I pulled it over his head. I threw the shirt outside of my room.

I looked down to his pants in shock.

'What the heck happened to your pants?' I asked, running my finger over the stains.

'Uh... I'm not sure... Why? What's wrong?' he asked.

'Umm... It looks like someone either spilled lime juice all over them or just beat you up in the grass, I can't really tell..' I said.

'Ohh... I couldn't tell you...' he said.

'And they need to be washed as well,' I said, removing his belt.

He looked down at my hands taking off his belt, then looked up at me.

'Hey Kate, what are you doing?' he asked, winking at me.

'Don't even think about it Andrew,' I said, throwing his belt off.

'Fine, fine, I won't,' he said, leaning his head back, sighing.

I leveled my face to his, grabbing his cheeks and looking him in the eyes.

'This has got to stop with all these going to parties and drinking, do you hear me? You are going to get yourself into trouble one of these days,' I said, shaking my head.

'But it's fun,' he said, looking in my eyes.

I let go of his face, and unbuttoned his pants.

'Not when you can't remember it it's not,' I said, dragging his pants down his legs.

He moaned.

I looked up at him.

'Andrew, stop. Lift up your feet,' I said, holding onto his ankles.

'Oh... Kate... I love this position you're in...' he said, smirking and lifting his feet.

I rolled my eyes, taking his pants off his ankles.

I stood back up.

'Go get in the shower now, you're a mess,' I said, guiding him to the shower.

'Join me?' he asked, giggling.

I walked him to the washroom and started the shower water.

'Shut up and shower,' I said, helping him in.

'Just once Kate, please,' he said.

I closed the curtain on him and left.

I picked up his dirty clothes and headed downstairs and added them to the wash.

He really needs to cool it down with the partying... Just another reason why Catherine had to leave him...

I don't know Catherine very well, but I know of her. I've hung out in the same space with her and all, maybe had a few talks here and there, but that's pretty much it. From what I got of her, she is so nice and down to earth and would do anything for anyone. I regret doing this with Andrew.

I hope she finds someone who deserves her.

I made my way back up to the washroom, knocking on the door.

'You alright in there?' I asked, tapping the door with my knuckle.

'Uhhh... Yeah... How do you turn this thing off?' he asked.

'Don't be foolish, there's a handle right above,' I said, rolling my eyes.

'I can't find it,' he said.

'Ugh...' I opened the door and pulled open the shower curtain.

'Right here, Andrew,' I said, turning the knob and the water turned off.

'Ohhh... There...' he said, like a child.

I grabbed a fresh towel and tossed it on his shoulder.

'Yeah, come on, get dried and I'll take you home,' I said.

'I'm naked Kate, and in the shower... Come on... Just once...' he said, looking at me.

'Andrew you're hungover, just get out,' I said, going to the other room to grab fresh clothes.

'Fine... You have to promise next time though,' he said.

'I'm not promising anything,' I said, looking through the drawers.

I could only find a big sweater and some baggy tracks.

'Here, put these on,' I said, pushing the clothes into his chest.

'How will these fit me?' he asked, looking at them.

'Just put them on. I have to do a few things today Andrew, I don't have all day,' I said impatiently.

He pulled the sweater over his head and put on the tracks.

'Wow, they actually fit,' he said, tying the pants.

'Perfect. Now come on, let's take you home,'

*****************

I came back to the vision.

Who is this guy?... Where is she taking him?...

I shifted back to the other vision.

My entire family sat there, all crying, wiping and drying each other's tears, holding each other close.

'How could this happen?...' my mom asked, crying into my dad's shoulder.

I began to cry once again... I'll be watching over them for the rest of time until we meet again...

I looked back at the other vision, and she stopped the car in front of an apartment.

*************

'Thanks for the ride, and everything,' Andrew said, placing his hand on my leg.