Something Personal Ch. 04

"Gavin," she said huskily, placing a hand on his cheek. "I need you take me. I need you to make me yours," she whispered nervously. She felt self-conscious but forced herself to hold his eyes.

His eyes fluttered shut and he buried his head in the crook of her neck. He reached for her nightstand drawer, scrambling for a condom, and was stopped by her fingers wrapping around his wrist.

"We don't need to...I'm on birth control," she whispered tentatively, staring into his eyes.

He swallowed hard. "Are – are you sure?"

She smiled tenderly and nodded.

"Nina," he groaned quietly, entering her in one surprisingly gentle motion.

Gavin felt his breath leave him in one big gust at the feel of her around him, flesh to flesh, without any barrier. He had never done this before and the sensation was beyond anything he could have imagined. She arched her back again, her arms circling him as he began moving inside her. His thrusts were tender and steady, shocking her with the sensation that he wasn't just filling her physically but reaching toward some place deep inside that had previously been unattainable. She felt tears forming in her eyes as the noticeable tingle started from her belly, the warmth spreading throughout her body.

He felt her fluttering around him, her muscles contracting. "Look at me," he whispered.

Her eyes found his and he was startled by the sight of moisture in hers. She gave him a tender smile, one hand reaching up to tangle in his hair. He blinked, intense emotion threatening to split his chest open.

"Wrap your legs around me," he demanded softly.

Her clenching around him increased and he felt his testicles contract, felt himself swell inside her, frustrated that he was so close to climax so soon. She started to moan and his eyes rolled back at the sound.

"Come for me," he said softly.

He grasped the side of her face, kissing her, trying to transfer the emotion welling up inside him. She responded in kind, a tear falling down her cheek. He finally broke the kiss with a gasp, starting to pant heavily.

"Now," he told her fiercely. "Come for me now."

Nina let out a long, low moan, her legs tightening around him.

"You're mine," he whispered just before his own climax started.

His hips sped up, plunging into her as they cried out with their eyes locked. He kept thrusting long after they had both peaked, dropping his forehead to rest on hers. Finally he stopped, snaking his arms around her shoulders and clutching her tightly. Her legs and arms were still wrapped around him, both of them breathing heavily. They didn't move for what seemed like hours, still trying to get as close as possible.

Gavin regretfully rolled to his back, sure he was crushing her. He dragged her body on top of his, hugging her to him.

"What happened to my wildcat," he wondered out loud, stroking the length of her back.

Nina attempted a laugh but was still trying to catch her breath. "I guess I don't need to be bossy with you," she said softly. "At least, not all the time." A little smile played on her lips.

"Hm," he said thoughtfully. "I like the wildcat," he told her, lifting her chin and giving her a slow kiss. "But I like making you mine too. Now you're my wildcat."

He brushed a finger against her cheek where her tear had fallen. She smiled, staring at him for so long he grew worried.

"What?" he asked.

"What you said..." she whispered.

"Oh." He swallowed nervously. "Well, I meant it."

"Really," she stated, grinning.

"Really," he confirmed, returning her smile. "I love you," he added in a whisper.

She bit her lip, feeling the threat of tears pricking her eyes. He meant it. The words were hovering on her lips, wanting to burst out but stopped by some invisible dam, by the cage she had locked around her heart. They stared at each other for a long silence, her struggle obvious. She blushed and her eyes faltered.

"I -" she began, looking at him helplessly. "I - I'm scared, Gavin."

"I know," he murmured, embracing her.

She buried her face in his chest, feeling ashamed.

"Hey," he said quietly, cupping her chin so she would look at him. "It's okay. I'm scared, too," he admitted. "Besides, it's nothing personal, right?"

Her mouth opened to protest, then saw the playful twinkle in his eyes and she poked his stomach, laughing. He chuckled, stroking her cheek.

Getting lost in his eyes, in the sincerity of his expression and his words, she felt a smile spreading across her face, warmth flooding her chest. She ran her fingers through his hair. He smiled as she trailed a finger to his mouth, stroking his lower lip.

"It's actually something very personal," she murmured, staring at his mouth before meeting his eyes. "I love you, too," she said quietly.

"Yeah?" he said in surprise, grinning. "Promise?" he teased.

"Promise," she said, returning his grin. "Kiss on it?" she added playfully.

"Thank God that no-kissing rule is over," he said, chuckling.

Her laugh was cut off abruptly by his lips on hers and she pulled him on top of her, letting herself get lost in his kiss.

The End