Aegis had been trying all week, but it was to no avail. All week he had been convincing himself that he shouldn't do this, that the idea was ridiculous. In fact, he had specifically come up with the idea just to reject it outright. Yet here he was, about to do it.
That girl...she just wouldn't go away. Somehow, that face...those eyes...just...her...everything about her spoke to him in ways he could not control or contain. And now he was about to begin his hunt for her. He had to find her. It was easily the most wasteful quest he could ever take, but it was one that a very strong part of him demanded that he attempt. Even if he never found her again, and the chances of even finding her in the first place was remote at best, it didn't matter.
He had to make the attempt. The prospect of finding her was just too great for him to ignore, no matter how slim the chance. It was worth that chance, and Aegis did not know why. He did, yet he didn't. He knew that at nineteen years of age he had desires, physical impulses, and so on. He had sat down with both Azreal and Angelus for these specific topics and how to avoid them, prevent them from taking control and doing unnecessary things like what Aegis was about to do.
Yet all of that preparation still didn't compare to what the real thing was, what having this kind of attraction was really like. Aegis had been running all of these speeches in his mind over and over, and it was like he was speaking to a brick wall of himself.
Aegis emerged from his bedroom, ready to venture into the evening. He knew where to start, at least. Even if she was not a regular of the place they had gone to last week, one of the others most likely was, and Aegis had taken the time to remember their faces very carefully, the faces of those who, if Aegis was correct, where the ones who caused that girl to wear that face of death and emptiness. The ones who he...no, he didn't know the full situation yet. Who they were and what their relationship to the girl was, he didn't know that yet, so there was no reason to start jumping to rash conclusions.
Aegis walked past Angelus, who was in the living room and playing cards with himself with a cup on the table near his cards, which was half full and very dark. Azreal was at work.
"Yo! Where you off to?" Angelus asked, seeing Aegis walking towards the front door.
"Out." Aegis answered as he opened the door.
"Out? What the fuck does that mean?"
"Exactly what it means. I'm going out, and I'll be back later."
"Are you going out on another crusade mission again!?" Aegis heard Angelus call out as he closed the door behind him. Aegis cracked a smile in that ironically, Angelus had guessed correctly. Yes, he was out on another crusade, a very foolish and stupid crusade, a mission which he shouldn't even bother himself with.
With that thought he set out to his destination. On the bright side, the warm summer air still was still hanging around even as the sun was beginning to set.
Since Aegis had gotten here somewhat early, for the sun hadn't even fully set yet, Maloney's was not as crowded as it was when Aegis saw it last week. In fact, when compared to last week, it was empty.
A few small crowds were scattered about on the tables or playing games, and a few individuals scattered in a small space at the bar, and that was it. The entire establishment was easy to see, and Aegis was now properly able to appreciate it's size, which was more impressive than Aegis would have expected.
But, none of them were any of the four that Aegis was searching for, so, he made his way to the bar and sat down in a somewhat isolated spot, and proceeded to order his dinner, waiting out his time here.
When he had finished eating, the crowd had multiplied in that short time, and Aegis faithfully and carefully watched the door, scanning each face as it came in. But now, with the place getting more and more crowded, it was becoming difficult to see the door.
At the same time, now that it was more crowded, he could also relocate and not look suspicious. Aegis ordered a beer for himself, and once he got it he moved away from the bar and to one of the tables at the end of the building that had a straight view to the door that was less likely to be blocked by the incoming crowds.
Time dragged on as he waited, his eyes drifting between the glass before him, which he was drinking very slowly, and the door which was directly in front of him, carefully watching each face as it entered. As he did so, he chided himself on the fact that he was even out here in the first place, wasting his time with a needless obsession. She was just a girl, and he was just nineteen year old male acting on base instincts, the ultimate desire to reproduce, and nothing more.
As Aegis thought about it, he wondered if that was all of it. Maybe there was another hidden answer right underneath all of that. It was also true that for most of his life to this point, he had been alone as he raised Angelus and Azreal to this point. Because of that and the strain of the times, Aegis had virtually no time to spare for himself. He was always with or doing something for Azreal or Angelus. But now, with them growing up and spending more time at work and the three of them, in a way, slowly drifting apart, Aegis wondered if that was the reason. That now, with his responsibilities slowly fading away, he was looking for something new to be responsible for.
The girl...and that look...it was something he could relate to, something very difficult to find. When it came to most people, they were normal in the fact that they had a home and family, that they had a childhood, and thus are able to see the world through vastly different eyes than Aegis. For a long time, they had no home, and were forced to give up their childhood to survive, especially Aegis. He had strived to give up as much as he could to allow the other two to have something resembling a normal childhood, to give them as normal of a life as he possibly could. It was difficult to try and relate to someone who has not carried the heavy burdens of life yet, which was just about everyone at his age.
But that girl...that look...those eyes...he could relate to it. He knew what it was like to wear that look of despair, and what it means. Most of all, such a beautiful and seemingly gentle creature should never have to wear such an expression, one that sapped her beauty the way that it did.
Maybe it wasn't all teenage libido that brought him out here tonight, but it still didn't change that, like a fool, here he was. And things would only get worse, and it did, in the form of four confident women who were sure they could penetrate any ice wall, including the one Aegis possessed. No such luck for them, and they were gone as quickly as they had arrived. Aegis didn't say anything to draw negative attention, but he also made it clear that he was here on business, and not fun.
At long last, about halfway into the deep night, Aegis finally found a familiar face, the same man who had been sitting across from the girl when Aegis had seen them last week. Short brown hair, blue eyes, middle aged man starting to show the signs of aging. The 'target', as Aegis was now calling him, entered with three other individuals, none whom Aegis recognized.
As they made their way to the bar, Aegis stood, moving to a location to where he could more closely observe his target, both to listen to whatever conversations he has and to see how many drinks he takes. Aegis saw that there was an open barstool not too far down from the man, with no empty glasses, and Aegis took the opportunity while it was available and sat down.
"Do you want something sir?" The blonde haired blue eye man asked from behind the bar, who had spotted Aegis as he sat down. Aegis was impressed by how quick he had arrived, for he had been in mid conversation with his target and the others with him.
"Just a Heid please."
"Four money please."
Aegis pulled the change from his pocket and handed it over.
"Okay, one Heid coming right up." The bartender said as he went to work, and was back with Aegis' glass instantly.
"Here you go, enjoy."
Aegis nodded. "Thank you." He responded, and the bartender moved on. As Aegis sipped from his glass, he focused his senses on the rather loud conversation going on just a few stools down, though he was careful not to turn his head or keep his eyes in their direction for long periods of time. The target was currently speaking, who seemed to have quite a drop of arrogance in his voice.
"...so I says to him, 'look, you're a good kid, really, and I like you, but I gotta agree with the big man, he wants you out and so do I.' I then said 'listen, it's nothing personal, you're just an unlucky guy. A hazard waiting to happen, you've just fucked up too many times.' Now I know he's getting pissed, I can see it clear as day in his eyes, and he almost showed it but he kept his calm. I thought he was just being smart, that as angry as he was at us letting him go might have made him, because he really wanted to be part of the family, I thought that he was just controlling himself and keeping himself from doing something rash. Boy was I wrong."
"Anyway, he says to me, 'but sir, I want to be a part of the Tristan family, I'll do better in the future, I promise. I'll learn, I swear I'll do anything you ask me. I says 'no, I'm sorry. It just can't happen, especially after you leaked out that deal which got hijacked by the fucking Bernards. That was the last straw, you cost the boss more money than you're worth. That is the simple bottom line.' Now here he gets really flared up again, and again he does nothing. Instead he just bows, says 'I understand' and walks out. I figured that would be the end of it, that he'd at least have a little common sense, stays away, and just goes back home or something. Instead the fucker goes and appeals to the Bernard family, selling the information of us that he had in order to buy his way in to them"
"For weeks the Bernards harassed everything concerning our deals with Tristan because believe it or not, this retard actually knew a lot of valuable things that the Bernards were able to put together, I guess. But, go fucking figure around two months later..."
"The idiot makes a mistake again and you guys catch him." Another man finished, whom Aegis did not see speak.
"Bingo! Except it wasn't us who got him, but Tristan. And at this point, he was red hot pissed and we all already suspected Edward by this time. Personally, I think the Bernards set him up to be caught just to fuck with us and make us clean up our own mess before he ruined them."
One of the men whistled. "Tristan got him? The guy was fucked wasn't he?"
"Hold on, there's more. Now I hadn't been there when Tristan got started with him, who had confessed to everything by the time I got there. Anyway, I walk in, and one of Tristan's men was there waiting for me, and says Tristan wanted to show me something that I was gonna like. Now I didn't know at the time that they had gotten Edward, so I was scared shitless as the guy led me to the lower dungeons of the mansion. I walk into one of the rooms and Tristan is there with a few of his guys and Edward..."
"Hanging from the ceiling, wasn't he?" A third man spoke, sounding like he was ready to laugh.