The Wait

"Down on your knees baby."

I've been waiting far too long to hear those words. They weaken my cells and I drop without hesitation. As my bare knees slam to the floor I can feel everything else fade away. The weight of daily life that has gathered like a heavy dust on my shoulders since the last time, instantly shaken off and I am light as air. I am an empty vessel, ready to submit and to serve. I delight in that freedom as I wait for your collar to take it away. Your hands brush against my cheeks when you lean down to fasten the leather around my throat. This tickles my skin and my nerves with pure excitement. Just the simplest brush from you does that to me. I can feel my cunt pooling already and I haven't even seen your cock yet. But I sense it there, hiding from me beneath your jeans and I know it's coming soon.

You stand up tall again in front me, grabbing my chin gently with one hand as you undue your pants with the other, pulling out your cock which I see already beginning to stir. I want to grab for it, but I steady my clasped hands behind my back. Your hand moves to intertwine my hair. "Open your mouth wide for me and stick out your tongue." I obey and you tease my tongue with your head. My lips instinctively wrap around to greet you, tongue swirling to taste more of you. But you yank me back forcefully using my hair like a puppet's strings. "What did I say?" I return to my position. "Good girl. But if it happens again you won't be tasting this anymore today."

You enter my mouth again but this time you slide right to the back of my throat as I struggle to maintain my position. I gag, but you push through, forcing my head down as much as you push yours in. You fill my hole so completely that I can't breath for what seems like eternity before you slide out to give me a quick reprieve. Then in again, faster and harder. My eyes are closed tight, tearing and my head is swimming from trying to suck in air as you fuck my face. I gather myself because I don't know how long this will go on and I want to do well for you. I find a quite place within the violence to consider my situation. I am here to be used like this... my mouth isn't my mouth, it is yours to use for your pleasure. As if you can read my mind... and maybe you can with how fully you are inside my head with your cock... you remind me "What a perfect little fuck hole that mouth makes. You do so well taking it for me. What other holes need filling today whore?" You pull out your cock and I gasp for air, spit and precum dripping down my chin. "That was not a rhetorical question pet. Answer me."

"Any hole you need is what I need." I respond.

"That's a cop out. You can do better than that, I know you can. Be brave sweetie... tell me where you need it, and be honest."

Butterflies swell beneath my sternum. How can I always be so nervous to admit it? Why do I always hesitate to articulate what a filthy depraved slut I am when I know it and you know it. "I need it in my ass, please." I look at the floor as I squeak out the words.

"Look at me while you tell me what a desperate little anal whore you are."

So I look to meet those eyes, the eyes that have me forever trapped in their gaze and I find a little more courage. "Please, I need you to fill my ass with your cock... with your cum. I need it so badly, I've been aching all week. My mind has wandered to it over and over again. When I'm at the grocery store, when I'm in class, when I shower or pee or eat... the feeling of you hurting me, ripping me open, violating my ass... the feeling haunts me."

You grin down at me wide. "See... that wasn't so hard. I'm very proud of you. I'm glad your mind stays focused on your purpose when you can't be where you belong. Get on your hands and knees for me so I can give that hole what it needs sweetie." You take off your clothes as I take position. I can feel you hovering over me, inching up behind me. I wait for you to take me, but instead you come down close to me, wrapping a hand around to fondle my nipples while you kiss my neck, suck my ear, smell my hair. I melt into the bed. You always know how to warm me up with sweetness before you ruin me with pain. I'm so ready... I'm always so ready for you.