What I Couldn't Believe

He never let me think bad about myself. Like on our third date. He invited me to his house. I was gonna spend the night. We were watching TV in his room when he said he was going to change into his night clothes. When he started to undress right beside me I help but stare. His body was beautiful. I was amazed yet so disheartened.

He was gorgeous. And what was I? A nothing. A huge, pitiful nothing. I had never told him how I felt about myself. I had the feeling that he was just in it for the sex and complaining isn't very sexy on a woman. He had caught me staring and smirked at me.

"If you're gonna gawk at me you're gonna have to return the favor."

I could feel my cheeks warm and turn red. He saw this and asked why I was so embarrassed. I couldn't keep it quiet any more and I was never good at lying.

"It's just....I don't.....I just feel like you wouldn't want to see me like that. I feel kinda dirty and disgusting around you. You're beautiful and I'm just this thing."

His eyes seemed to lose light. It broke my heart that my complaining had took it from him. He sat back down and took my hand.

"Mi vida listen to me. The way you look is the furthest thing from my mind right now. Your beautiful. Hermosa. And when I thought of this moment I didn't think of seeing you undressed and trying to get you into bed. I thought I get to wrap my arms in your and I get to feel that warm embrace that you give me every time we hug. Don't ever be afraid to show me how beautiful you are."

His words were like a hot knife. They pierced through that pain I had gained from other people. It rip down that wall of security until it was just raw feeling. But my fears were still there.

"But Hector I'm dirty. This isn't what you deserve."

He sighed deeply and held my hand tighter. His head dropped and I wanted to badly to make him feel better. But what was I to do? My worries would never leave me. His head shot up and he smiled at me.

"Come with me, cariña."

He held my hand tight and got out of his bed. We stood at the end of his bed and he looked into my eyes. I knew my cheeks had gained even more crimson tint. Again he was pulling me. This time to the bathroom in the corner of his room. He opened the door and lead me inside. The shut of the door made me jump and he was immediately at my side.

"Don't be scared, mi reina. I'm right here. Now and when ever you need me."

He walked forward and circled so he was behind me. My arms were crossed hanging by my waist. He pulled them apart and held them out to the sides. His arms wrapped around me and started to unbutton my shirt.

My lip was trapped between my teeth as I tried to calm my breathing. My white button down fell off my shoulders. I crossed my arms again and tried to hide what I could. I felt his chuckle near my ear. His deep sexy voice sent a ripple of light throughout me.

His hands held my arms and started to lift them up. They were level with my shoulders.

"Keep them up, niña."

They were shaking slightly but I kept them in the air. His fingers started at my wrist and slowly slid them toward my back. Once he got to my back his fingers continued their soft electric path downward.

Once he got to my waist his hands moved forward and held onto the band of my pants. I was close to telling him to stop. But this feeling deep in my stomach had me wanting so much more.

I stilled my breath and kept my hands still as he unbuttoned my pants. I shook harder as his hands slipped into my pants. They were in the front side by side but slowly circled my waist until they touch on near my bottom. I gasped softly as my pants slipped off my waist and bunched near my feet.

Hector helped me out of them. I thought privately that it was a good thing my bra and panties matched. He pressed his chest into my back and breathes deeply into my ear.

"Shall I take them off or you?"

I bite my lip and suppressed a moan. He breath on my neck and his deep voice in my ear had my body on vibrate. I wanted my bra and panties to stay on but I knew he wouldn't have it.

"I'm supposed to keep my hands held up aren't I?"

I heard his deep chuckle and shiver ran through my body. His arms found their way back to my stomach. They trailed up and sat under my bra. My breasts ached from the pleasure that was coursing through me. I wanted him to touch them. But how could I say it.

His hands pushed up ward until they slipped under my bra. His finger tips brushed my nipples and I gasped loudly. They were incredibly sensitive and he seemed to realize that.

"Do you like that, mi amor?"

Words were gone. None could be found in the gasps and soft moans. My peaked nipples were trapped between his thumb and pointer finger. I couldn't help but lean back into his body. For once the thought of me taking him and myself down hadn't even crossed my mind.

But all of sudden his hands were gone. Those soft but strong fingers no longer held me.

"I asked you a question and I expect an answer. Do you like.....

His fingers began pulled and rubbed my inflamed breasts again.

.....this?"

I nodded fast and put my hands on top of his. I pressed down and tried to get more pressure. His tsked in my ear.

"You moved your arms you bad girl. I'll have to punish you for that."

One of his hands left my chest and I whimpered at it's loss. Hector chuckled the sound.

"Someone is needy, hmmm?"

I let out a louder whimper in response. The hand of his that was free slid down my waist and stopped right on top of my panties. As soon as he did his fingers pulled faster and rubbed harder on my battered nipple.

"I want you to be relaxed. Don't push me away."

Hector pushed my hair to the left side and spun my neck in kisses. My skin tingled in anticipation as his hand slowly entered my panties. I was shaking and my breathing was wild but I couldn't stop even if I tried.

"Spread your legs just a little bit baby."

I widened my stance and let my legs open some. The tips of his fingers curved until he was cupping my sex. My whimpers came out more desperate. My hips shot up and I leaned back further into him.

Hector started to bite in placed of his kisses. His thumb dipped between my lips and grazed something between them I pressed my hips forward and tried to get more friction. His hands went further back and circled my soaked hole.

"My baby is leaking. Is this getting you horny baby?"

His thumb pressed in harder and one of his fingers slipped into me. A new feeling settled into my skin. I moaned louder and seemed to shake harder. A hiss was pulled from my mouth as a second finger was pushed inside.

He pressed them deeper but as he withdrew them I felt terribly empty. Just as I was about to beg for their return when Hector slammed them back into me. I gasped as loudly as I could and melted against him. He pulled them out and pushed them back in over and over. I felt myself clench around his fingers as this great feeling built up inside of me. It was getting closer and closer. Just as I was at the highest point his fingers were gone again. I whined and turned my head so I could look back at him.

"Why did you stop?"

His smirk was smug. A wave of fresh embarrassment crashed onto me. I had just acted to wantonly. Something started inside and made me so slutty. And now he was relishing in his abilities to get a rise out of me.

My eyes dropped the the floor and pulled my bra back over my breasts.

"Niña, what's wrong?"

I knew my cheeks were flushed again. I wanted to scream at him and storm out. But my body wasn't ready to give up this new feeling. I cursed my hormones and flashed him a glare.

"That was a dirty trick. I might be inexperienced but that doesn't mean you can just take advantage of me. Do you get off on how you can effect women? Well you won I'm turned on and I want more."

His arms shot out and he gripped my wrist. Hector pulled me into him and he wrapped his body around me. It soothed me and let me relax into him.

"I didn't smirk because I thought I had control over you. I smirked because I had never seen you be so free with yourself. You let me see a very private part of you. A part you didn't know about. And the thought that I made it come out makes me feel good too."

I felt terrible I had just accused the sweetest guy I know of being some manipulative creep. And all he wanted was for me to open up for him. I hugged him tight against me.

"I'm so sorry Hector. I just feel so out of place like this your the first person to see me so vulnerable. I just don't want you to look any deeper and see something dirty that you don't want."

Hector let his mouth hover above me ear.

"Let's change that, shall we?"

He pulled away and turned toward his shower. He turned it on and the room slowly filled with steam. His lips found mine and his fingers unhooked my bra. I gasped at the chilled feeling against them. My bra fell to the ground between us.

Hector's hands slipped into my panties and pushed down until them slid down my legs.

"If you feel like anything then my light and my angel then I'll clean you. You won't ever feel dirty again."

He pushed open the shower curtain and held out his free hand to me. I took it and he pulled me into the shower. He had a pink loofah hanging in a packet on the wall.

"I bought this for you for when you wanted to shower in the morning. I guess it would be OK to use it now."

He covered it in sweet smelling liquid body wash.

"I didn't know what kind of wash you use so I bought the kinda that smelled the prettiest."

I gave a small smile and played with my fingers. The hot stream of water graced my back and slid down to my legs. The goosebumps erupt on my skin and made me shiver.

"Turn toward the water baby."

I turned around and waited for Hector to start. He wet the loofah and began to make a lather of light pink bubbles. His washing starts at my shoulders. Then traveled down my arms.

After he reached the end of my arms he traced back up the underside of them to my sides. I was shaking like an earthquake. His soft hands and the loofah ran up and down my sides. I could hardly breathe as his hands met at my stomach and started to wash upward.

When the loofah grazed my breasts I bit my lip hard to keep from crying out. He put the loofah around his wrist and massaged my chest with his hands. The soap made them even softer and so slippery.

The water washed the soap off of me and Hector turned me around.

"I've got to wash your legs now."

He dropped to his knees and looked up at me. His gorgeous eyes bore into me. Usually I would blush and look away. But now I wanted to see him. I wanted him to see me. He pressed hand on the inside of my left leg.

"Lift this one up on the edge baby girl."

I bent my leg up and let it sit on the edge of tub. I was open for him. I put my hands against the wall to keep myself steady. My legs were trembling and I know it wouldn't take a lot for them to buckle.

Hector rubbed the loofah up and down my right leg. As he went down and came up the next time he would go higher up. He stopped right before he touched my hot spot. In all honest I wanted so bad for him to touch me.

He went to the bent leg and started to wash at the ankle. I pressed into my hand on the wall harder as I tried to keep still. He was terribly slow. I had closed my eyes and let my head fall back.

They shot open when I felt something running up my leg that wasn't the loofah. I looked down to see Hector's tongue tracing up my calf. His eyes bore into mine once more. This time I couldn't throw my head back or close my eyes. I had to watch.

One of his strong hands were gripping my right leg that was on the ground. He watched as I bit my lip and gasped uncontrollably. His tongue stopped just as he was about to sink into me. I wanted to beg for him to stop teasing me.

He beat me to the words.

"I think your all cleaned up. Did I miss a spot?"

I pushed my hips forward and whimpered softly. His smirk deepens and makes me want to kiss it away.

"Uh uh. Use your words, baby."

I bit my lip and pushed my hips closer to him.

"If you can't speak then I can't help you."

I pouted and started to whimper.

"Hector please. Can you?"

"Can I what?"

"Your mouth your hand anything please just touch me!"

This time he didn't smirk. His eyes filled with deep desire. His hands slid up my legs and stopped on the top of my thigh. My breathing hitched as his pinky and his ring finger slowly massaged me. Something was rolling between his fingers. A part of me. It was small and felt slippery.

He pressed hard into it. I moaned deeply and my legs jerked. His pointer and his middle finger moved forward and dipped into me. His fingers were big so the initial stretch was painful. I squeezed my eyes shut and bit harder into my lip.

I felt them curve upward and my entire body buckled. His chuckle was deep and throaty.

"I think I have found your very special spot, niña."

His ring finger sped up around the mound of flesh as his pointer and middle finger kept curving upward. I couldn't stay quiet. My moans and whimpers echoed throughout the bathroom.

I felt something building up inside. Like a wave pushing toward the beach. Just as the feeling seemed strongest Hector pushed his fingers deeply inside of me. I cried out loudly and felt something wet and warm flow out.

Hector pulled out his fingers and looked up at me. I watched as he put them into his mouth and sucked them clean of what ever came out of me. I turned red and moved to the front of the shower. He smiled widely and stood up.

He pulled me into him and started to kiss my neck. I moaned softly and pushed my hips into him.

"That's called cumming baby girl. You did it so well for me. I'm gonna let you lead the way now. Do what you want."

I gave a small smile. He had made me feel good. I suppose the only way to go is to return the favor. I took the soap and rubbed it in my hands. I started to wash his chest tentatively. He saw my hesitation.

"Baby do you want me to take over?"

I looked up at him and smiled.

"Yes please."

Hector grabbed my hips and pulled me closer. His hands slid to my thighs right below my bottom and gripped tightly. With one move I was up in the air and my legs were wrapped around his waist.

I let out a squeak and gripped him tightly for fear of falling. Hector's next smoldering kiss quieted my noise and calmed me. He brought us out of the shower and into the bed room. Hector let me go and I landed on the bed with a bounce.

I looked up to see his towering form. My eyes were drawn downward. I had watched porn before but hadn't seen one in person. His was beautiful. It stood up proud and straight.

The tip was a deep red almost purple. He was hairless which I was thankful for. Seeing them covered in hair was just something I didn't like. I knew staring was rude so I raised my head and stared into his eyes.

"I know you want me to take over baby but I think this part should be yours."

His eyes were hopeful and expectant. I leaned forward and took it into my hand. I leaned forward more and flicked my tongue against the tip. I could feel his heart beat as my tongue went up and down on him.

He started to moan when I wrapped my lips around the head and sucked softly. It was thick so I had to press my lips into my teeth so I didn't knick him. His hips moved up slowly so I took that as a signal to go deeper.

I moved my hands further down his length and took more into my mouth. I got some in before the head tapped my throat and I gagged. I pulled off the length I could take and dipped back to take it again.

I looked up at him.

"I think I'm ready for you to take over now Hector."

His hands laced through my hair and began to pull my head closer to him. His cock pushed between my lips and I opened for it. The warm soft skin sliding against my tongue was new and I really liked the feeling. I moaned softly around him. It must have felt good for him because his body shuddered and his hands gripped my hair tighter.

I didn't mind it though. His aggressive thrusting and tightening grip made my heart race. I could feel my skin tingling and my thighs start to sweat. Hector's hips moved faster. Each thrust pushed him deeper into my mouth. Soon the throbbing head slipped down my throat and my eyes started to water.

Hector slid out of my mouth and I watched as the spit made his cock glisten.

"Lay on your back, baby girl."

I slid back closer to the top of the bed and laid back. Hector looked over me like he was appraising fine jewelry. I felt so worried he would find something that he didn't like. My heart raced and I really wanted to cover myself. One arm was across my breasts and the other was trying to hide my pelvis.

Hector got on the bed and stood up on his knees. I was looking up at the ceiling because if I looked at him I knew I would blush. My legs bent as I tried to make room for him. His hands traced up my legs and rested on my knees. He pushed them open and leaned downward.

His warm breath grazed my hotspot made my hips shoot up. His strong hands brought them back down with a firm push. One of hands trailed up and started to to twist and pulled at my nipple. All the stimulus had me shaking quivering.

Soon that heat go closer and closer to my skin. I let out a strangled gasp when his tongue licked up my hot spot. He trailed it up and down. Each time he went down he dipped his tongue into me. When he wrapped his lips around that mound of flesh I nearly came undone.

The fingers that were tormenting my nipple edged higher and pressed into my lip. I opened for them and sucked on them like I had done his cock. He pulled back and watched me.

"That's right, niña. Get them all wet for your papi."

My body shook at that. My papi? I couldn't help but smile as I sucked on his fingers. I think I could call him my papi. Especially if he was gonna keep speaking in Spanish while we do this. My train of thought was broken as his fingers left my lips. His mouth once again circled around that skin and sucked softly.

My squeals and whimpers seemed never ending as he slid those two wet fingers into me. He pushed them back and forth with a slow and firm pace. Each time Hector came back in he curved his fingers. What ever he was touching I wanted him to stay there.

When they left me I felt empty and in terrible need. My whimpers gained a chuckle from him. He got back onto his knees and grabbed onto the back of my legs. He pulled me closer while placing my bent legs around his waist. My whole body was shaking and all I wanted as to be filled again.

Hector leaned forward and kissed me. It was soft at first like testing aa pool's temperature. It got deeper until I felt his persistent tongue pressing into my mouth. I moaned softly and opened my mouth for him. He let his tongue chase mine until they rubbed and played together.

Hector pulled back and smiled down at me.

"I want to do everything with you baby girl. But I want you to choose. I won't do a thing until you say."

Every part of me that was scared and wanted to run was gone. I needed to go all the way with him. For him. To be connected in the most passionate and beautiful way possible.

"Please papi. I choose you. I can't wait any more."

Hector's eyes clouded again. It was amazing watch how he dropped from caring to passionate to crazy with lust. He leaned in again. This time instead of a soft kiss he took my mouth forcibly. This kiss was hard and it made me almost light headed.

He slipped closer to me. I could feel his hardened pressure pressing into me. He kissed my shoulder and looked at me softly. He did this for a while. It began to worry me.

"Yes Hector? What's wrong?"