Why Did She Hate Me? Ch. 02

"Fuck me!"

Rachael was furious with herself as she looked in to the rearview mirror and saw the red and blue flashing lights. This was the second time she was pulled over for speeding in under an hour. Rachael was in such a rush to get to her parent's house that she didn't even realize she had been speeding. With another 45 minuets till she got to her parents home, and here she was on the side of the road as the officer approached her car. The officer asked her what the hurry was when he finally reached her window. Rachael lied telling the officer she had been working all night and was headed home to be with her family. The officer politely asked for her I.D. that, Rachael had to fish out of her purse.

The police officer taking Rachael's driver's license looked at it then looked at her. She definitely looked tired enough to work the late shift.

"Well normally I would have to write a ticket up but since it is the holidays and you're just trying to get home to get some sleep I will let it slip this time. But please be careful on the roads at your speed you wouldn't have been able to stop and would have had an accident then your Christmas would be ruined." As the officer handed Rachael's ID back to her, he turned and walked back to his squad car. As he watched Rachael start her car and slowly pull her car back onto the road he shook his head.

Rachael on the other hand was breathing a sigh of relief. That was the second time she had used that lie to get out of a ticket. She had to be more careful and pay attention to the road she couldn't get James to forgive her if she was careless and had a wreck. As Rachael drove she found it was hard to concentrate on being careful she just wanted to get to the house as soon as possible, but she did notice the storm in the distance and forced her self to stay at a safe steady pace.

Rachael arrived at her parent's house around noon. As Rachael opened her car door she turned to see the front door open and see Grace rushing out the door before Rachael could even say hello Grace scooped her up in her arms and gave her a big hug. Rachael had been expecting something like this but it still surprised her. Rachael hugged Grace for all she was worth both women not saying anything. Rachael pulled away from Grace and they started talking. Even though Rachael called weekly Grace had a lot to tell her as the two women talked, Rachael had pulled her bag from her car and they had started towards the house.

When the screen door opened Rachael could smell the sweat smells coming from the kitchen. She saw Frank in his favorite chair his eyes closed and breathing was steady she guessed he was taking his afternoon nap. Rachael walked towards the stairs saying that she was going to unpack and would be back down to help in the kitchen. As Rachael unpacked and placed her clothing in the dresser she stopped when she came to an envelope slowly she reached down and picked it up and stared at it for a few minutes. She had not put whom it was to on it but then again she didn't have to.

Rachael lifted the pillow off of her bed and placed the envelope under it and returned the pillow to its place on her bed. Rachael returned to the bag and kept unpacking. When finished she stopped and looked around her room. Grace and Frank had left it in the same condition it was in when she left for college, posters hanging on the walls; stuffed animals in the window; a picture of James sitting on her desk. She slowly approached her desk the picture of James was perfect except for the tearstains that showed. Every day for two years after he had left she held that picture in her hands as she cried. Holding the picture, her tears would spill down from her red and puffy eyes and drop onto the picture leaving splotches on it.

Rachael opened the desk drawer to place the picture in it but she stopped she decided that she was going to get a new picture of James a picture that was perfect and didn't have any stains. Rachael set the picture back on her desk and turned and walked out of her room. She was passing the door frame she said something in such a low tone of voice it was softer than a whisper "James I hope you get here soon."?

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James pulled up to the house just as he had in the dream. So far everything had happened today just as it had in his dream. James was called to work just as he knew he would to cover for a co-worker. And now here he is sitting in front of his parent's house, the cars lined up just like he had seen in his dream. James pulled into the drive he watched he front door just as he had seen his parents came running out. James found himself following the dream doing and saying what he had in the dream and got the same results, his mom fussing at him for calling her and his dad by there first names everything was the same. James followed his mom to the door and in side, again just as he had seen everything was exactly set up and in place as he remembered. Rachael was there in his chair, why did he still care about her after how she had hurt him? He had given her what she wished he had given her freedom from him he had stayed away just like she wanted.

James barely paid attention to what was being said he was running on autopilot. Having been through this so many times in his dream James just let himself say everything that he had in his dream he did everything just like his dream. The only thing so far that he had done different was that he had noticed the letter left by Rachael. It was almost dinnertime James was out in the garage with his dad. James found it hard to act surprised when his dad showed him the ring for his mom. James knew what was going to happen later on tonight he had decided that either way he would continue with this.

James will let everything happen just as he dreamed it; he had made this decision while he was driving to his parent's house.

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So far everything had happened just as she had dreamed it, Rachael had decided to follow the dream and it seemed that everything would happen just like she dreamed it. Rachael's only worry was what would happen when she reached the part where she wakes up? She had to force herself from letting her worry show, she felt like she had to continue with how she saw this day in her dream that is what she felt she had to do if she was to get James back in her life. Rachael loved James more than life and it had only been after he left that she came to realize how much she loved him.

Rachael realized how fast the day was moving she had just gone and told James and Frank that it was dinnertime. One of the first surprises for James was about to be given the desert that she had made it was his favorite. Rachael knew what his reaction would be even though she was still nervous about it she knew that he would love it. Rachael also knew that she had still a few more hours of waiting till James and she would talk. Rachael was prepared she was ready to talk to James to let him know how bad she wanted him back in her life and how bad she wanted to be with him. Besides the desert she had another surprise for him she just hoped that this worked and that he would take her back.

Rachael on the inside was screaming wanting time to fast forward so she could talk to James so she could see his magnificent body coming out of the shower like she had in her dreams, just the thought of seeing James naked was enough to make her knees feel unsteady. Rachael took a few deep breaths as James finally started to eat her desert, the night was moving so fast at times other times she felt like time was standing still. Soon she could tell him; soon she could have him she knew it would happen tonight.

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It happened just like the dream James had showered and was trying to get to his room before anyone could see his erection and she was there at the door looking at him when he opened it. Just like his dream as he walked past her to go to his room she asked if he did like her desert and of course he did and he told her just as he had in his dream, and just like his dream his towel fell off exposing his nude body to her.

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Rachael was astonished that it had happened just like she knew it would. They talked in the hallway and the towel dropped and his nude body was exposed to her. She had seen his cock it was about 7" long and it was thick, the rest of his body was perfect as far as she was concerned. Rachael counted to 5 and walked to the door James just dashed into and very quietly opened the door. She saw him with the letter she had written and placed on his bed before she told Frank and James it was dinnertime. James was still in a state of undress, slowly he turned his head and looked at her, his face had a look of shock with a hint of fear. James moved to the edge of his bed and moved from his laying position to a sitting one he made a gesture offering her a seat Rachael shook her head.

"James can we talk I would really want to talk about what happened the last time we saw each other. I know I was wrong I was hurt and that I had said some things that had hurt you, but 4 years. I don't think that I deserve that, and mom and dad practically having

To beg you to tell them what was going on in your life they defiantly don't deserve that." She knew she did deserve what had happened she told him to stay out of her life and he had done just that. But she also knew that if she wanted him in her life she had to play this out just as the dream had shown her over and over again.

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And here it was she was talking to him asking him why he hadn't talked to her in 4 years and hardly ever talked to his parents and the feelings from his dream started to come to him. How could she ask him that she knew very well why he had stayed away from her? James would tell her how he felt now was the time. "Do you know how I felt when I left 4 years ago? How I felt when the little cousin I loved like a sister yelled at me calling me a big dumb jock for trying to keep her from being known as the sophomore slut to the football team, or how I felt when I was told that mom and dad were worried that I might screw my scholarship up because of my grades. How about this one when I was being told I shouldn't take the scholarship that I should let someone take it that I wasn't worth the time and effort. When we were growing up I didn't mind you hanging around because I loved you. I always wanted a baby sister and you were that sister to me."

As Rachael listened she understood how much she had hurt him. But he said something that surprised her and he had said he loved her. How did he love her was it the way she wanted, craved, needed? Her vision started to get watery as she listened to how badly she had hurt him in her fit of anger. She felt she could just barley understand how he felt when he left those long 4 years ago and how he had felt up until this point.

"And what really hurt Rachael was the look on your face. I knew what it was and it hurt the most. It was a look of total finality that you believed what you told me that you were done with me for the rest of your life. So when you told me to get out of your life and stay out I did. I didn't want to hurt you anymore. I knew you were hurt when I threw Rickey out. He never came back did he? Did he even tell you I called his coach and told him that he was trying to force him self on some sophomore? I didn't say any names the coach removed him from the team. He was tired of how Rickey treated the girls he was with and didn't like what it was doing to the other players." At this point Rachael started crying. She was crying for all she was worth. James couldn't believe that he had made her cry he was just trying to let her know how he felt.

Rachael stood up and started moving for the door, as she reached for the handle she left James hand grab her wrist, she looked up at him and James did something surprised her. James pulled her into a hug, which she eagerly accepted. As James hugged Rachael he stroked her hair and rubbed his hand up and down on her back and whispering that he loved her and that he was sorry that he made her cry that he just wanted her to know how he felt. And then he said it again "Rachael I love you. That's why I have stayed out of your life. I didn't want to hurt you again. I have missed you. I just hope you love me as much as I love you. I only wanted the best for you. Please forgive me for hurting you."

Rachael stood there with her cousin he was hugging her and telling her that he loved her and she wanted to know how he loved her. Rachael struggled to get a hold of herself to slow her crying, she felt so touched that even while trying to express how he felt that he cared about how she felt. All she wanted to do was stay in his arms and be close to him, but if she didn't make her move now she never would be able to. Rachael looked up at her cousin and looked into his eyes and then she made her move she grabbed the back of his head and pulled him into a kiss.

James was shocked when his cousin looked up at him and looked into his eyes he couldn't understand what he was seeing in her eyes. And then he felt her hands grab the back of his head and pull him into a kiss. It wasn't a short sisterly kiss, it was a kiss that he had seen but never felt. It was soft and tender and in that one kiss she had opened her heart to him. James was overwhelmed; his mind was trying to comprehend what was happing. When Rachael pulled back from the kiss James looked into her eyes what he saw was fear. She was sacred how he would respond to her kiss.

As Rachael looked into James eyes her only thought was he said he loves me show me how you love me. She felt James hand that was rubbing her back stop, when she pulled him into the kiss. His hand was at the small of her back. As Rachael looked up into James eyes trying to decipher what he was thinking she felt his hand begin to move up she felt James arms pull her closer to him and his hand go to the back of her head as he pulled her into a kiss. This kiss like the one she had given him was gentle and answered her question of how he loved her. She felt his lips begin to part and his tongue tentatively touch the front of her hips. She instantly responded by opening her lips and allowing his tongue to enter her mouth. As their tongues danced with each other she felt his other hand slide slowly down her body until it reached the small of her back hesitant to go any lower.

When James pulled back from the kiss he looked into her eyes the fear was gone replaced buy the same look he saw at dinner. He looked her right in the eyes "Rachael I love you, I love you more than a cousin, I love you more than a sister. I have fallen in love with you."

This moment was the most important moment in his life. No matter what happened for the rest of his life James knew this moment would be one he remembers until the day he dies. James looked into Rachael's eyes waiting for her to respond.

Rachael looked into her cousin's eyes "James I love you I need you in my life, without you my life is empty. James I love you and I am in love with you." Rachael didn't wait for James to answer she pulled him into another kiss. Rachael felt dizzy everything was turning out just how she wanted how she needed it to happen.

James responded by kissing her back, no longer was he holding back his feelings he moved his hands from her back slowly down to her waist. Her hands locked behind his head Rachael wanting to keep him in the kiss as long as possible. Rachael waited a long time for this, and now that it was happening she didn't want it to stop. They kissed for what seemed to be hours before James finally pulled away.

"Rachael I want to be with you I want to be inside of you I want to make love to you."

Rachael smiled "James I want you to be with me I want you to make love to me. But James I have to tell you I am a virgin, I knew I loved you more than I should and I didn't know what you would do if I asked you to make love to me. I was scared of what you would say".

Before Rachael could say anymore James leaned in and kissed her, she moaned into his mouth. James kissed her for what seemed like hours but was really only a few minuets pulled back "Rachael I have to tell you I am a virgin also, Rachael I have wanted nothing more than to tell you how I felt but I was also scared about how you would react. Then when I threw Rickey out and you told me to leave well I tried to forget how I felt about you. At college every woman I met I compared to you, at first I didn't realize that. It took me a few years to understand why I wasn't interested in any of the women at college. None of them were you or even like you. What do we do now? How do we proceed?"

Rachael looked into his eyes "Stay here I will be right back". Rachael untangled herself from James and walked over to the door and out James's room. She went to her bedroom and pulled and over to her dresser. She opened her dresser drawer and hidden between two of her shirts set the object of her search. This was another surprise for James; she bought just before she left college to come down to her parents. Rachael pulled out a dark blue teddy. It was silk and was almost see-through, Rachael quickly undressed and put the teddy on starting with the stockings, then put on the panties, and finally the main garment.

Rachael opened her door and looked down the hall, no one was there so she quietly walked down the hall she stopped in front of the door to her parent's room and listened she heard a muffled snoring. Rachael proceeded to James's room she quietly opened the door and shut it. James was lying on his bed he was on his side facing the door. When she entered Rachael saw James start to smile and noticed that his cock was hard very hard. "James baby this is my second surprise for you this is an early Christmas present I hope you enjoy unwrapping it."

James was speechless he had never seen anyone look so beautiful he thought he must be looking at an angle. James found himself moving he stood up and walked over to Rachel and took her hand he led her to his bed and he picked her up. James looked at what Rachael had on and how she looked at this very moment. He wanted to remember this moment and he knew he would. James slowly lowered Rachael to his bed, her eyes looked deeply into his. "Rachael before we go any farther what about protection should I pull out I don't have any condoms".

"James for my first time with you I don't want you to use any condoms and I don't want you to pull out I want to feel you inside of me, I don't want you covered I want you to fill me with your cum, and what ever happens will happen. Tonight I want you to enjoy our first time, and I want to enjoy how you fill me with your cock. James cum and unwrap your present."

James didn't waste any more time, James leaned down and started kissing Rachael he then started to kiss down from her face to her neck being careful to restrain himself from biting her neck he didn't want to give her a hickey. That would be very hard to explain to his parents. James kissed down from her neck on his way down James pulled down the fabric of Rachael's teddy so that her right breast was exposed. James looked at Rachael's breast in awe it looked so perfect the nipple was pink and hard. The areola was a light brown, the breast looked to good to James he leaned down and started to lick and kiss her breast. While James attacked Rachael's right breast his hands uncovered her left breast. Soon James leaned back and looked at her left breast that was when he noticed it. Rachael's left breast looked different the areola was a darker brown color and her left nipple was only half the size of her right.

Rachael knew what he was looking at she hoped that it didn't change his mind about her.

James leaned down and started to lick and kiss Rachael's left breast. Rachael was moaning loudly James pulled his head back and warned her that she had to keep it down or their parents would wake up. Rachael nodded and James went back to kissing and licking her breast. James slowly moved his hands down Rachael's body till he got to her panties. He looked up at her and she again nodded, James moved down to her panties and looked at them they were set tight and showed the outline of her pussy. James hooked his fingers in the waistband of her silk panties and started to pull them down, down her panties went to her knees then off of her completely James held the panties looking at them. He put them to his nose and inhaled her sent it was intoxicating.