You Will Be Mine..Again Ch. 05byMyanlass©
Gale kept thinking back to what Patrick told her. His father didn't want him to marry a girl like him. She knew there was something going on with his dad because he wasn't social with her at all. He just fired off a bunch of questions about her family and what she planned on doing for the future. She just thought he was being overprotected but she was nothing but nice to him. She figured his mom would at least stuck up for her, but nothing; not even Patrick. After she told her, she went ahead and left the place going back to her house just to clear her head.
She was torn a little though. She saw the vulnerable look in his eyes as he talked about how he thought he was doing all this for her. It made her let her guard down just a little bit more, but it still hurt the fact that he didn't stick by her. The other problem as she knew her body; once she got a taste of Patrick, she would want more. She needed to get her head straight.
When she finally got some free time, she found herself in front of Dominique's door waiting for her to come open it.
"Gale, what's going? Are you alright?" Dominique asked as soon as she saw her.
"Hey, I need to talk to you for a minute."
"Sure, come in." Dominique said moving inside as Gale followed her.
She followed Dominique to the living room and Dominique eased down on the couch. Gale smiled to herself as she sat on the opposite side.
"Okay, what's on your mind?"
"I just needed someone to talk to and I didn't want to go to my sisters, because I know how they are. I didn't know who else to turn to and I know, you're not a therapist anymore, but I really need your help just to understand some things because I'm so confused." Gale was rambling to a point where she felt tears streaming down her face.
Dominique reached her hand out to her, "It's okay, Gale. You can talk to me."
The simple touch calmed her slightly and she took a deep breath, "You know that I've been working with Patrick and I found out why he broke up with me. His father didn't like me because of the type of girl I was. Also, he told him that if he didn't break up with me; he would pull all his money and pretty much leave us broke. I just couldn't believe it."
Dominique nodded, "Were you content with the reason that he gave you in the beginning?"
Gale blinked for a minute looking over at Dominique, "I don't know, I would have been better thinking that he didn't love me other than the fact that he was a coward."
"Gale, be honest, you weren't happy with that reason either. It tore you apart."
"Yes it did, but, am I not worth whatever money he has? I mean Patrick is smart and driven, so am I; couldn't we both build what we had together. Yea, it would have been hard but we would have been together and everything would have been different."
"I understand, really I do. There was a lot of mistakes that he made, but the important part of this is to still forgive him for it."
"Yea I know, I know. It's for my benefit more than his." Gale said rolling her eyes.
"Yes, because you didn't forgive the first time and it turned you into a bitter woman. I know that it hurts for someone you love to say those things to you and I'm sure he regrets it everyday. You have to forgive him and he has to forgive himself. Now after that's done, then the both of you can move forward. I'm not saying that you will be together but whatever becomes of it will be good for the both of you."
Gale sighed, sitting back in her seat, "I don't know about this. I mean I know that you are right, I really do, but there is just so many thing I want to say to him and I'm angry but at the same time..." she trailed off.
"Gale, do you still have feelings for Patrick? I can't after all this time."
"It's okay to admit; just because you have feelings for him doesn't mean that you have to get back together with him. Sometimes, what you are going through can be held back emotions and once you release them, then it will become clear if these are romantic feelings or you just holding in emotions. The most important thing is don't let this make you bitter."
"I don't even know how to make this work or if I can talk to him. I know the reason but I still feel like asking why." Dominique sighed, "I'm sorry Dominique, I know the reason, but it's so hard to believe."
"Wasn't it even harder to believe that he stopped loving you?" Gale looked down at her fidgeting hands, "Any reason that he gives you is not going to sound logical because of everything you two shared with each other. That's the thing with us women we know the reason but we always want to know the extent of the why. Then we try to make it out like maybe there was something wrong with us. When you think like that, it does make you bitter and hardens you. For right now, you still have to work with him, so tell him how you feel and start fresh."
"What if unloading everything makes me bitter?"
"It won't. The best thing for you to do is tell him how you feel, leave him with right now you are fine, and start over."
"You really think this will work and how soon should I do it."
"I know it will work and as soon as possible just don't let anything get in your way of making it successful." Gale nodded.
She was took a deep breath as they both turned to the doorbell. Dominique was about to get up when Gale beat her too it.
"You stay, I'll get it." Gale said.
"Thank you. I wasn't expecting anyone but a delivery." Dominique said sitting back.
Gale opened the door and for a moment she forgot to breath, "Hey sis...you're not my sister in law." The tall captivating man said staring at her.
"Um, no I'm a friend of hers. You must be Nik's brother?"
"Yea, I'm Gianni. I was actually coming to check on Dominique."
"I don't need you to check on me every hour Gia!" Gale smiled moving to the side letting him walk in.
"Have I told you how much I hate it when you call me that?" he said walking into the living room.
"You have and that's why I'm the only one that can call you that." She smiled, "I'm fine seriously. If I don't have you coming by, I have Nik calling every 30 minutes, my Aunt Crystal and your mom, and my mom calling every hour. Not to mention my brother popping up too."
"Hey, this is your first kid. As a member of the family we have every right to make a fuss over you and check on you. Besides, what else do I have to do?" he said sitting on the edge of the couch next to Dominique.
"How is the club going?"
"Oh, I'm just waiting a couple more papers to sign and then get ready for opening. I just left from the building."
"Club? What club?" Gale said standing in the living room doorway.
"Gianni is starting a jazz club around here." Dominique beamed.
"Oh I love jazz. Will there be live singers?"
"Yep, some friends of mine that's helping me find some. You should drop by when I start it, you can be my personal guest." He said smiling.
Gale couldn't pin point it but something about that smile he flashed her made her smile widen, "Gale, don't you have something that you need to do?" Dominique quickly said and that brought Gale's attention to the situation.
"Oh right, I do have some work to do. Thanks for talking to me."
"No problem. Let me know how that goes." Dominique said.
Gale smiled back at Gianni just before walking away. Dominique was right; she did have some things that she had to do and she wanted to talk to Patrick. She was about to call him when she heard someone calling her name. She turned around and saw Gianni walking towards her.
"Hey, did I forget something?" Dominique said.
"Yea, I think you forgot my phone number." He smiled and Gale couldn't help but smile too.
"Thanks Gianni, but I'm not entirely sure about hooking up with anyone left. There is a lot going on wit me personal and business wise." She always thought honesty was the best policy.
"No I understand, but you're new around here and so am I. I figured I could use someone to talk to around here other than my brother and his friends. It's kind of irritating when most of the time all they talk about is their wives." Gale shrugged.
"Believe me, I'm the same way with my sister and her friends."
"I'm Jade's older sister."
"Oh I didn't know, so that's another thing we have in common. Everyone can use a friend."
Gale bit the inside of her mouth contemplating the offer. Friends? Well, what can be wrong with just being friends? Besides having a handsome man like him around can help take her mind off Patrick, "Alright, I'm up for that." She smiled.
They exchanged numbers and Gale noticed how Gianni kept staring at her. She shifted uncomfortably.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
"I'm sorry, but I couldn't notice how beautiful you are. Believe me it's not a line but you are."
If Gale could turn bright red she would, "Well thank you Gianni, I'll call you later." Gale hurried inside her car and drove off.
She felt slightly bad allowing herself to be sucked into Gianni's words and eyes while still not working things out with Patrick. She really didn't want to start anything, not now anyway. She needed to get everything settled with Patrick. She grabbed her phone and gave him a call.
"Hi Gale." Instant shivers went up and down her body hearing her name on his lips.
"Hi, I was just giving you a call to..." she lost her words not exactly sure how to come about this.
"Gale, are you okay?"
"Yea, I'm okay. I think we need to talk."
The silence on the other end was deafening, "Alright, do you want to come to my hotel room?"
"No, um does your hotel have like a restaurant?"
"There's a bar down there that we can meet up at."
"Okay, I'll be there in another 20 minutes." She said and hung up.
She took a deep breath. She hoped this wasn't going to be as stressful as she think it's going to be. She knew that this was going to be emotional but like Dominique said, this needed to be settled. She needed to let him know everything and that way they can both move on.
Twenty minutes later, she found herself in his hotel restaurant waiting on him. He was always fashionably late, she thought shaking her head. She looked towards the door and saw him standing there scanning the room. It was like instantly he saw her and started walking to the table. Her heart jumped in her chest watching his eyes zeroed in on her.
When he finally reached the table, he smiled at her, "Did you order anything?" he asked.
"Just some tea, I'm not really that hungry."
"Okay, what's going on?" he said sitting down folding his hands together.
"I want to talk about us and the other night." He nodded, "That night was..."
"Incredible?" he finished and she looked away.
"It was good, but there are some things that need to be settled between us. I mean it hurts a little to know that the reason that we didn't work was because your dad didn't like me."
"I know and I can't give you any explanation other than to say I'm sorry."
"That's the thing Patrick. It's a little too late for sorry." He looked down at his hands and looked back up, "I mean you left me in front of the house that I thought was ours and didn't even look back, saying the most hurtful things I ever hear you say."
"You think it was easy for me to say those things? It took everything in me to not go back and apologize to you."
"But you didn't. It took you nearly 10 years to come back and say you're sorry. You don't know what I been through with you leaving like that. It makes me think that everything that we went through was for nothing."
"It wasn't; Gale everything I felt for you was as real back then as it is right now."
Her mouth went dry at the declaration and she looked down, afraid to look into his eyes, "What do you mean real now?"
"Do you think everything that I felt for you could just go away? Everything I felt for you back then I still feel now and I'm sorry for what I done to you. I'm sorry for being an asshole and not fighting for you. You're right, I was a coward, but I didn't know how to make it and give you everything."
Gale thought about what she been holding on to and felt her eyes misting over, "We didn't need everything. All we need was you."
Patrick's eyebrows drew together as he stared into her eyes, trying put together what she was saying but his heart already knew, "We?" his voice trembled.
Gale sighed, "I was pregnant at the time and I just found out. I was going to tell you that night but that's when everything happened."
Patrick's mouth was partially open and looked off, running his hand down his face. Gale swallowed hard waiting for him to say something.
"So um..." he cleared his throat again, "What? You should have told me."
Gale shook her head, "I wanted to and I tried."
"Tried? You tried..." his words died off and he ran his hand down his face, "Upstairs."
"What?" Gale said drawing her eyes together.
"We need to really talk and I don't want to get loud or whatever while I'm around people so upstairs now."
She agreed only for the simple fact that any reaction the both of them showed in front of people would be bad for the hotel. She followed him up to the room in silence. She wondered what was going through his head as she saw his jaw tense up and fist balled at his side. He was about to busy. Usually when Patrick gets like this, he would close his eyes and try to calm down, but she wasn't sure what he was doing.
As soon as they got inside the room, the room was still filled with their deafening silence. Patrick collapsed against the arm chair as Gale cautiously sat on the sofa, waiting for it. She started doubting that maybe she should have kept this from him, maybe it would have been better to bury this.
"You...you were pregnant?" he finally said looking up at the ceiling.
"Yes, I was."
"And, what happened?" Gale licked her lips not sure where to start, "What happened?!" he shouted and Gale nearly jumped out her skin.
"I was so mad and hurt. I could barely eat or sleep. I kept calling your phone for months. Finally someone picked up and told me to stop calling and that you were happy. They told me that I can't mess up your life. Shortly after that, I woke up feeling so sick and dizzy. When I pulled the covers back and saw the blood, I knew I lost the baby." Gale said choking on the last words feeling the tears stream down her face.
She remembered that day as if it just happened. There's was so much blood and the small bump that she had was gone. She remembered screaming so loud that her mother burst through the doors frantic. Mom didn't want her sisters to know so she sent them over to her friend's house while they went to the hospital.
Patrick pushed out of the chair pacing the room, millions of thoughts storming his mind. Pregnant? She was pregnant with his child? And he wasn't there. He remembered he thought he lost that phone and had to get a new one. Who would have had the phone? Who would have talked to her? Someone knew and he didn't do anything about it. She went through it alone. His child; the child he always envisioned having with her.
She said someone told her to stay away, who did she talk to? He bit down on his lip as the redness clouded his vision. He couldn't help but see her crying all alone as she realized the baby was gone, crying at the thought that he didn't love her anymore. He did this, it really was all his fault.
"FUCK!" he shouted and before he could stop himself he punched at the wall.
Gale's mouth dropped at the outburst. She never saw Patrick lose his cool, he always tried to be so in control. He slumped down to the floor not saying a word. It wasn't till she saw the red liquid on his knuckles that she snapped out of her haze. She rushed to the bathroom, wet a towel, and return back to him. He didn't look at her as she gently grabbed his hand dabbing at it.
"I should have been there." He finally said, his voice shaky, "I shouldn't have left you. I could have..." he trailed off, "Everything that happened it really is my fault."
Gale sighed wiping away the tears, "I didn't tell you this to make you feel guilty."
"Well too late for that."
"Patrick, I held on to that anger and with everything that happened the other night and then hearing about your dad; I can't be like that anymore. I think our paths crossed again to finally get over this and move on."
"I see why you hate me."
"I didn't hate you. I was disappointed in you, but I could never hate you and you shouldn't hate yourself." She lifted his head looking into his red eyes.
"Easier said than done right now. God, Gailyn; I'm so sorry. If I would have know I would have came back here no matter what."
"With no regrets?"
"No regrets what so ever. I wish I could have been more of the man that I should have been for you."
Gale sighed and she felt like a huge boulder was lifted off her body giving her the opportunity to stand up a little stronger. She dabbed at Patrick's hand feeling him flinch a little but his face didn't show any signs of the pain.
"Well, I hope it's not broken. I think you should go down to the emergency room and let them look at it."
"I don't really feel up to it."
"Patrick, don't play this macho man bullshit. You need to have that looked at, now either you do it willingly or I will drag you by your ear." She said looking into his eyes but he saw the hidden smile in them. She always threatened him with that when she wanted him to do something.
"Alright then, you are coming right?"
"I suppose so." She shrugged, "Just in case I need to witness you crying like a baby when the doctor wraps you up."
He chuckled lightly, relishing in her banter. His girl was coming back. This was the Gale he remembered. He didn't care how long it took but he was going to make it up to her and win her back.
She couldn't believe after telling him everything how much she was really enjoying this job. Patrick made it easier without the constant flirting just more of him being himself; which was still a little flirty but not as extreme.
She did enjoy the nice little flowers that he would send her even after she assured him that he didn't have to go to this extreme. The supplies were coming in so fast that they were thinking that it could open ahead of schedule.
Since then, Gale has been talking to Gianni more lately. It has been very refreshing to talk to him. She likes that he makes her laugh with little to no effort. He asked her a couple of times her opinion on certain things to add to the club and she helped him out. She didn't mind helping him, especially listening to some of the things that he has gone through. They have hung out a couple of times at the restaurant and she has came by where his new club was going to be to look around.
Yea it was nice having Gianni around, it also helped to take her mind off the hunger her body was feeling for more of Patrick. Damn, she knew this was going to happen! Every time she felt him close to her or even when she went into the kitchen, her body would clench with the memory. She couldn't be thinking about going down that road again with Patrick, not after everything that has happened between the two of them. Good gracious, she had to get this under control.
Gale had just got off the phone with Mara when she saw Patrick walking into her office leaning against the wall.
"Hey you." She smiled.
"Hey, what's going on?"
"Oh nothing, I just got through ordering a couple of supplies for the dining area, which you still want it small and intimate, right?"
"You got it." He smiled as he crossed his arms in front of his chest, "Not much room for anything else."
"Well, yea but it's really coming together. I mean yea it's just going to have like ten rooms but with the setting and everything, it's going to be huge."