My first memory of the intensity of sexuality is a dream I had when I was maybe 9 or 10. It was about that same time I experienced my first "orgasm." I was shimmying up a pole at the playground and as I pushed and pulled myself up that pole with my legs wrapped around it working my leg, ass, arm, abdomn muscles... I suddenly had this intense feeling of pleasure beginning in my groin and spreading through my young body! I had no idea what had happened and never reporduced it though I tried! Years latter when I discoverd porn and mastturbation I relaized what that strong pure pleasurable feeling was in both the dream and the pole. |