Dear to Me

i have always wanted to be
what you think is right for me
the things i will not believe
what is bottling up in me
i sought you for some help
to kill what i felt
you told me not to worry
to ride with my furry
i will teach you something,
hurry,and come with me

i found me a new life
got myself a sharp knife
looked into my own mortality
killed those things that were dear to me
i found me a new life
stepped away from the pure light
just to lose all that meant so much to me

praying to myself
oh god please
dont strip away from me
the only fucking thing
that i ever learned to believe
im crying , im trying,
feeling like i am dying
frustrated
sedated
irascible
aaagghhhhhhhh

i found me a new life
got myself a sharp knife
looked into my own mortality
killed those things that were dear to me
i found me a new life
stepped away from the pure light
just to lose all that meant so much to me

im becoming a monster
you fucking promised me to be
you piece of shit
feeling like you're living in me
sometimes i feel ok
the thirst in me goes away
when im least expecting
your power runs threw my veins
finding myself accepting
anger growing in me

you told me it would be ok
i asked you for advisory
when i stuck her with the knife
my problems flew far away
i listened to you
now my girl is dead

i found me a new life
got myself a sharp knife
looked into my own mortality
killed those things that were dear to me
i found me a new life
stepped away from the pure light
just to lose all that meant so much to me