Can You See Me Now?

I

was

trying to get your attention
not to mention
come up with an invention
similar to a shatterproof heart
in the beginning you were the start
of my smiles, the end of my tears
I knew love would last for years
all I had to do was
trust

in

you

pain comes in so many different hues
can I get one in blue
give me two in red
so I can visit my rage twice
in one night
i'm losing my sight
because of all this blood
in my eyes
everytime I blink to see things clearer
my eyelids scratch my corneas
the salt in my tears
intensify the pain
that's why I don't cry
that's why I won't cry

can you see me now?
can you see me now?

what about now?

let me climb on top of the hill
turn left
lean my head to the right
I think I have a signal

can you see me now?
what about now?

of course you can't
your eyes have been closed for so long
you might just have to get a chizel
for all that cold in the corners
ya shit's crusted, rusted, busted over
and over
and over
and i'm so sick of being invisible
invincible
replaceable
i have no face at all
in your mind
because you've created your
own image of who i'm supposed to be
so you can never see me for me

I am a WOMAN
I love
I live
I breathe
I care
I can't do this anymore
you used to adore me
what changed?
did you mean to aim
that fucking bullet at my soul?
marksman

my soul is soaking my clothes
seeping through my pores
sliding over the sores
from the stones you threw
how's the view from your
glass
house
?

can you see me now?

I hate
I scream
I cry
I can't do this anymore
look at the score
game over
you win
I can't compete with
your idealistic
unrealistic
her
SHE does not EXIST
not in this skin
not in this blood
your blood
mama's blood

but I still love you Daddy
.

rsjsj

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