Sleep eludes me
Conflicting feelings keep me wakeful
What was right?
What was wrong?
If being with Him was right then
Why do guilt laced tears of desire pour down my cheeks?
I feel I have been Fucked three times this night
Once by myself for myself
Once with you, loving and true
Once with Him fierce, primal and perhaps false
Am I so faceted, have so many sides, so many needs
To be satisfied in one night?
I am exhausted and anxious
Shivering with cold and aching with heat
Glowing outwardly while I burn inside
I know not
Right or Wrong
True or False
Pain or Pleasure
It seems all lines, all boundaries
Were crossed this night
He woke up