It's Time

bydeputy duffy©

Part 1

I got home after another long day at work and retrieved the mail. I sifted through it...junk, bill, junk, bill....

"What this?" I wondered, looking over an envelope with no return address. "Hmmm?"

I took it upstairs to my kitchen and opened it. Carefully. It contained three handwritten pages of pink paper. I read the first one, a brief cover letter, as it turned out.

I wrote this letter the day I got home after Marcy's wedding, but it took me months to get the courage to mail it. I'm not sure I should have, but, if you're reading it, I guess I did.

That's all that page said. I started pacing the floor. I remembered that wedding well, but the reception was a little blurry. I know one thing, I made a total ass of myself. (Fucking tequila!)

I took a quick peek at the next page. (I had a sneaking suspicion.)

"Yep." I muttered, suspicion confirmed. Her handwriting was pretty distinctive, right down to the little heart she drew over each "i." But mainly it was the fact that SHE was the only one I ever let call me "Stevie."

I sat down. I had figured I'd hear from her again one of these days, but now I was a little afraid to read the letter.

"What if she says she doesn't ever want to see you again?" I said to myself, as my mind wondered back in time to that wedding.

Marcy was an old high school friend of mine. I'd been out of the loop, so I was surprised to get the invitation. The only reason I went (it was about two hours away with a lead foot) was to see if SHE would be there. I knew she'd been out of the loop, too, but if I got invited....

I had made the trip to the wedding with time to spare, but was a little late (conveniently) in arriving at the church, so I just sneaked into the back row. I saw a few familiar faces, but not many.

I started thinking about the glory days. It had been 12 years since high school. I always thought I was pretty cool back then. I played sports, was a class officer, always got invited to the best parties, shit like that, but now.... Here I am sitting in the back row of the church, no wife, no kids, no date, a lame ass job, a way-too-old truck, and $7,000 of credit card debt just to top it all off. I wasn't 100% sure about high school, but I knew I was anything but cool now. I wondered how things had turned out this way for me.

I was lost in thought.

I suddenly realized that people were standing and clapping. I joined in and followed the wedding party out into the parking lot. A pretty redhead caught my eye.

It was HER.

And she was still the hottest thing on two legs.

I kept her in my sights, but tried to stay out of hers, because she was holding hands with her husband.

"What a dick," I thought. "Why him?"

I continued to watch them (while everyone else focused on the bride and groom). They seemed like a happy, good looking couple. I followed them until they hopped into a shiny blue Escalade. (He even opened her door.) I huffed and headed for the reception. Once there I went right to the bar....

And so it began.

I was working on my second beer when our eyes met.

"Oh-my-god!" Debbie ran over to me and wrapped her arms around me. I held her tight. (She is the only woman to ever make me weak in the knees.)

"Ok, break it up, you two." Her husband pried us apart with a friendly smile. "How's it going, Steven?"

"Alright. Good to see you, Mark." (It wasn't.) We shook hands. The three of us made some friendly conversation before Mark suggested we find our seats. Debbie gave me a quick kiss on the cheek, and they moved into the hall. I went back to the bar and grabbed another cold one -- and a shot -- before finding my seat at the back of the hall.

It was a normal wedding reception (white people dancing badly), but I just couldn't get Debbie out of my mind. I thought about our past.


Debbie grew up next door to me. We were same age, so we rode the same school bus. We became fast friends. People used to joke that we were Siamese Twins because wherever I was, Debbie was, and vice versa.

Debbie often used to sleep over at my house. (My mom and I lived in the lower floor, and my Aunt and her kids lived upstairs.) But it wasn't like at a kid's sleepovers. She used to sneak into my bedroom through the back door and crawl into bed with me, mostly on weekends. I don't remember exactly when it started. I just always remember it happening. My mom knew, too. When I'd ask to eat breakfast in my bedroom, she'd joke, "Are we having breakfast for one or two today?"

Only when I got older did I understand that Debbie was fleeing from home more than wanting to sleep with me. She didn't talk about it much, but I knew she wasn't happy at home.

When we got into high school, our sleepovers slacked off, but they still happened. I was trying to "take our relationship to the next level" (as they say), but she always said that she wasn't ready for sex, and I never pressed her, even when I woke up and found her in my bed. It was difficult, especially when she blossomed. Sometimes I'd wake up with morning wood and find her sleeping in these little short shorts and a small tank top. It was all I could do not to.... It was all I could do.

But, otherwise, things generally seemed fine between us. I'd always thought we were a couple until the night of the Bradford Halloween party, our Senior year. Debbie said she was working late (she worked part time at some clothing store), so I stayed home for most of the night giving out candy. Then I hit a couple of hot spots before going on to the party.

Things were kind of quiet, and something just didn't seem right. People were looking at me strangely. A friend of mine even tried to stop me from going upstairs to the finished attic -- where all the couples went to make out. I got this sick feeling. I brushed past him and raced upstairs and searched room after room, until I opened one door, and there she was...there THEY were. Debbie in bed with a boy on top of her. They froze. She wore a look of panic on her face, but she never said a word. I looked down at the trail of discarded clothing, and then back up to his arched back. Even under the covers it was obvious what they were doing.

His head slowly turned in my direction. Like a punch to the stomach, I saw that it was Mark Thomas. (Mark was my nemesis. He was a year older and always seemed one step ahead of me. And, to make matters worse, he was also my cousin, who lived upstairs from me.) His face slowly grew a smile, and he resumed thrusting his hips. He had won again and he knew it. Evil thoughts filled my head. I stepped towards the bed. Suddenly, I was hit in the back of the head by something and then all I remember was being kicked, over and over.

(Yeah, that was a Halloween party to remember. I lost my girl and, thanks to a couple of Mark's friends, sustained three broken ribs to boot.)

Debbie tried to explain, saying she was really in love with him, while she and I were just best friends. She said if I truly loved her, I'd understand....

Even though I was crushed, I tried to suck it up and be a man. I even went to their wedding a couple of years later. While we didn't see each other much after that, we still got together at Christmas. It was never easy. I'll admit my smile was fake, but I always thought that one of these days she'd see who truly loved her.

Then, about five years ago, Mark got a new job, and they moved away. That was the last I saw of them until Marcy's wedding.


I finally built up enough courage and sat down and read the letter.

Dear Stevie, It was so surprising so see you at that weeding. I used to think about what I'd say if we ever met again, and then we do and I just couldn't seem to find the right words. You didn't seem to have the same problem, although some of them were slurred, but you still had that look in your eyes. I know it well.

That's why I had to write this. It's time.

Believe me, I'm not that special. I have my flaws. I know I leaned on you pretty hard back when we were younger. You were my savior. You showed me that all men weren't perverted like my dad. I know you think he used to do "things" to me but he didn't. But that's not saying he wasn't fucked up. I can't believe I'm going to finally tell you this but here goes.

Most of the time my dad was pretty normal, but when he'd been drinking he'd get weird. One of his things was to watch my step-mom strip naked. Sometimes he'd bring his buddies over to watch too. He made me watch too. If I didn't, he'd threaten to give me a bare bottom spanking. Even though I didn't like her that much it was still hard to watch them humiliate her. Sometimes they'd make her touch herself or put things inside of herself.

He also used to have sex with my step-mom anywhere in the house at any time. If I was around, he'd call me in to watch, and that's why I'd sneak over to your house. If I wasn't around....

I knew why he was making me watch, before he ever told me. He was training me. He said the day I turned 18 I'd take her place, but he, you know, had that accident. Things were good with me and my step-mom after that. Strangely, it was a real blessing.

I guess you always knew something weird was happening over at my house, so I guess my confession doesn't shock you that much.

It didn't shock me, but it wasn't what I thought. I would have loved to have been a fly on the wall, though. Her step-mom wasn't much of a looker, but she was really built. Her dad, however, always gave me the creeps, and I knew things were weird for her at home. I was kind of happy when he died. Now, I'm thinking Debbie was, too. It made me feel better about it.

I flipped to the last page and read on.

And that brings me to you.

You were always there to comfort me. You were my rock. Not once did you try any funny stuff after I said no. Sure, I knew you took some peeks under the covers, but that was it.

I'm not sure what I would have done If you had "charged" me for my visits, but I'm sure I would have done just about anything to get out of that house.

But that's why I loved you so, because you didn't.

But there is "love" and then there is "in love." I know you've told me more then once that you loved me. (Fifty times at the wedding.) It always warms my heart.

But, did you ever think you just might lust me?

I wonder: If you had a do-over what would happen? If you knew that last time I snuck into your bed would in fact be the last time....

I know we can't go back in time, but I had an idea that might just square things between us.

Once a year (the last weekend in October) my husband goes away fishing, and that time is near. I would never cheat on him. I vowed. But, if something happened, and I didn't have a choice, then I guess that wouldn't break my vow. I'd never tell anyone if that happened. Mark thinks he's been the only one.

Confused? Well, last Halloween a good friend of mine told me she was awakened by a large man wearing a Halloween Mask. He had this large knife, and, well, you can guess the rest. But he didn't hurt her. In fact, it turns out he was an old flame. She was pissed, but ultimately understood. I know it happens, but still sometimes I forget to lock the back door.

"What the ...." I cried out. I read the ending of the letter ten more times to make sure it said what I thought it did. Putting the letter down, I looked at the wall calendar. I had four days to prepare.


I snapped on the small lamp on the nightstand and slid onto the edge of the bed. Even sleeping, she looked like a princess.

Moments later, her eyes fluttered open, and she let out a gasp. She tried to shuffle away, but I grabbed her by her blue nightshirt and put the knife to her throat.

"No screaming, or I'll use this."

"Oh, god, Stevie, that better be you," she squealed.

I pulled the knife away. I was a little confused. I just shook my head.

"How did you get in here? I mean, I locked the door."

"Quiet bitch!" I snarled, flashing the knife. "Or I'll slash you."

She let out a giggle, her eyes directed to my obviously plastic knife. (I bought it at a joke store. I didn't trust myself with a real one.)

"Okay, maybe scratch you," I said with a chuckle, taking off the Gene Simmons mask (same store), although I didn't know what was going on. I mumbled, "Wasn't I supposed to be some masked man?"

"Yeah, it was kind of scary when I first woke up, but then I remembered you were a KISS fan." (She hated them.) "But that's why I locked the door. I mean, I changed my mind. How did you get in anyways?"

"French doors are pretty easy with a credit card. But forget that. What do you mean you changed your mind?"

She looked down. "Yeah, I mean, I can't go through with it. I thought I could, but now.... It just wouldn't be fair to Mark. Right before he left he finally told me he's ready to start a family. I'm going to be a mom. I've waited so long."

"Fuck that!" I snapped, starting to get hot. (I'd waited even longer!) "What wasn't fair was making me sit there and watch him marry you; THAT wasn't fair."

She closed her eyes and shook her head. I knew she was tired of hearing it.

I shrugged. "Yeah, but what's done is done.... Is that it?"

She nodded, looking away. I started pacing the floor alongside the bed. "I drove seven fucking hours, and now you say you've changed your mind, just like that." I snapped my fingers. "No, not this time. I'm done being kicked aside."

"Please, Stevie, let's talk," she pleaded, pulling the covers up.

"No, this time you listen to me." She tried to interject, but I snapped my fingers again. I ripped her covers away. She wasn't going to hide from me anymore. She gasped and slid up to a sitting position.

"Listen, Debbie, all those years, we were inseparable, and then you chose him. Okay, I'll live with that. I guess he treats you okay, and you two seem to be doing well. (He owned his own company, and she had some fancy marketing and research job.) But you still owe me one. You must know that. That's why you wrote that letter.... Guilt."

She shook her head, a tear rolling down her cheek.

"Yeah. You must remember promising me that I'd be the first. Well, we know that didn't happen. You said in that letter that I could have a do-over. That's what I want...that's all I want." I was having trouble keeping my composure, a tear joined hers.

"But we can't. Not now."

"We can, and we will."

She smacked her lips. "What...? Have you been drinking?"

"No, not tonight. Tonight, I want to remember everything that I say and everything that happens, unlike that stupid wedding."

"You were a dick. You even said you should have charged me to sleep in your bed. I know you didn't mean money."

(My face flushed, embarrassed that I'd actually told her that.) "Yeah, maybe. I guess I'm not the nice guy that gets walked on, anymore."

"Well, I liked that nice guy."

"Oh, yeah, that guy got lots of lovin'. I got to first base the same night I lost my cherry.... Fucking Prom Night. Now, I couldn't even tell you her frigging name. It was so special."

"I think it was Samantha."

"Gee, thanks. I'm sure I rocked her world. It just dawned on me that I've never even kissed you on the lips."

"So, you want a kiss?" She blew me a kiss.

"And that I've never seen you naked."

She didn't say anything this time. I know I was being a whiny brat, but I just wanted some satisfaction. I'd also waited a long time for this, and I figured this would be my last chance. It was time.

"So, are you prepared now?" I said, raising my voice, "to show me that bod?"

She answered by pulling her night shirt down over her knees and shaking her head. "Please leave."

"Jesus! I always believed you when you said you weren't ready for sex, but now, I know you're no virgin. Just let me fuck you, once. Like you promised me many years ago."

"But, I'm married now."

"Yeah, you've pointed that out. So it will be our little secret. You know I can keep a secret." (I've never said a word to Mark about our sleepovers -- even after.)

"B-b-but," Debbie stammered and sniffled. "That was a long time ago, and nothing happened."

"Yeah, I know that all too well. But to this day you've never really thanked me for that. I mean, guys would have killed to be in my position. Do you know how hot you were...and still are? Wow, the things I could have had you do. Like you said in your letter, you would have done just about anything to get out of that house. I should have been the one to show you the joys of sex."

"B-b-but, I wasn't ready."

"Bullshit! Maybe when we were younger, yeah, but what about high school? You weren't that innocent."

She rubbed her chin like she was trying to think what I might know.

"Like, I know about that clothing store." I winked at her.

Her eyes flew open.

"Oh, yeah, I know what you used to do with that manager guy, under his desk."

"H-how? I mean, what...?" Debbie seemed flustered.

"Wendy told me. She seemed to take pleasure in the pain it caused me."

"That bitch."

"Sure, it wasn't until years after you married that she told me." I shook my head with a chuckle. "To think, you blew the guy for a night off, or to leave early.... Wow, Debbie."

Her face turned pink. She whispered, "It was nothing. What else did she tell you?"

"Oh, concerned now? I guess Mark wasn't the only one...."

"I didn't sleep with him. It was just...." Debbie's voice sank, "Oral."

"You sucked his cock." I snapped, and, just to be lewd, I added, "And swallowed his cum."

"Ewww," Debbie groaned. "It wasn't, like I said, it was nothing, and I didn't swallow."

"Nothing, huh? Ok, then where was my blowjob?"


"Yeah, if it was nothing back then...then why when I asked was it? Hmmm? I couldn't even get you to give me a handjob after my 18th birthday party. Am I that repulsive?"

Debbie closed her eyes. "No. You know you're not."

"Gee, thanks." I raised my voice. "Yeah, you know how many hardons I had to wish away. I always thought it was some sort of phobia or maybe you weren't that type, but now I know differently. No, tonight I'm not leaving here until you've sucked me and...."

"I'm not having sex with you, and that's it," Debbie shouted. "And I'm not doing that with my mouth either." She paused. "You've changed."

I looked into her puppy dog eyes. I guess I had because usually they would melt me, but not tonight. I had to think. I'd said too much and gone too far to stop. After a couple minutes of thought, I pulled out her letter and read it out loud. When I finished, I added, "This is your letter, inviting me, the weekend your husband goes fishing?"

"Yeah, so?" Debbie sounded concerned.

(I thought, "This just might work.") "Well, what if I showed this to Mark and told him what a great time we had living out your masked intruder fantasy. He must know about it."

"What?" Debbie screamed out. "You wouldn't!"

"Yeah, it would be a little lie, but with this letter.... I'd tell him how I came in with my shiny steel knife and scary mask and tied you up and fucked you silly on his bed. Just like I do every time he goes away. I'd also tell him how much you enjoyed it, and how you had me do it again and again and...."

"He wouldn't believe you. He wouldn't."

"You don't sound so sure, Debbie." I started reading the part of the letter about the masked man again.

"Ok, ok, I get it," Debbie interrupted, before lunging for the letter, which I held just out of reach. She whined, "God! How pathetic. I can't believe you're blackmailing me. I'm married. I just can't have sex with you."

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