Letting Go

My heart fills with joy when I hear his name
My heart aches with sadness because he is not here and I am not the same
My soul lingers on hope, that one day he will come back to me
My soul begins a long journey into darkness, realizing we will never be
My body burns an eternal flame as a guiding light to lead him back home, to me
I hide my true feelings to those outside who really know neither you nor I
But speculate on what they thought should not be
That pure evil that lurked within them I can see
If only I would have said what I knew was true
If only you would have saw because I believe you knew it too
We could have been together, loving, laughing, living so strong
Why does it have to be like this?
I am so scared
When will we ever share our first kiss?
Never, I fear Never is the date of the first kiss we will share
Never is the date of the first look into my eyes when you would have realized all my love is only for you
Never is the date for our bodies to finally share, one with another,
Never is the date that is so very near, hovering, doomed to suddenly appear
There will always be a you and there will always be a me
But never I fear, will there ever be a we
I don't know everything but I do know this...
I know I don't know how to let you go
I know I need to let you go
To be where you want to be and to see what you want to see
I am sad that you are gone and sad that you don't love me
And the saddest part is that without you, I will forever be lonely
But I guess its time I realized the truth
There will never be a you and a me
There will never be a we
It's apparent to me that in my life there will always be just me