You poor bastard. I live the same curse. I try to prolong the pleasure and minimize uh "exposure" by reliving an adventure over and over again in my mind's eye. But sooner or later the pressure builds and builds and builds and Ka-Boom!
When it all finally boils over it's like a feeding frenzy. I'll even miss work for days at a time.
I'm learning to acquiesce by letting off steam with a mini-adventure before the pressure goes too high.
I agree I prefer not to offend but ...
Anyway I'm not gay (or at least I wasn't?) but I've found some gay/bi venues to be less risky and uh "voyeurs" to not only be less offended but actually appreciative.
Cruising the gay-ish areas of parks and beaches was heaven on earth until the cops caught on and went nuts on us a few years ago. (A couple of the parks even had M/F couples doing the same thing :-)
Ditto the adult bookstores with their video arcades with cruisy dark winding aisleways.
And then there's the xxx theaters. Standing in the dark, in a dark corner, naked or near naked. All of a sudden there's a flash of light as someone comes in. They can't see so it's kinda like a progressive revealment as they slowly get their night vision.
Anyway, props. Great story.
by
Anonymous07/02/11
Good Information
I too have exh. tendencies. But, probably in more control than yours was. So, I'll stay away from public places...thanks again.
by
Anonymous04/19/13
Recovery
As an ex-exhibitionist, I can relate to the feelings you've described. Unfortunately, I don't quite agree with the way you appear to be encouraging the behavior. It's a disorder, it's not healthy and as you've found out, it can be dangerous. Being a nudist is one thing, but when you decide to masturbate in public, it's crossing a line. I used to masturbate in public areas also, although I was never "bold" enough to do it while someone watched. The thing is, people don't want to see it. It's offensive. When I stop to get gas, I don't want to see a naked man masturbating. When I decide to go on a hike, I want to see nice views, not a naked man masturbating. You say that you didn't expose yourself to anyone under 18, but what about the passing cars? How do you know a mother and toddler children aren't going to drive by? Think about that situation from their perspective. Sure, it's exciting for you and you, but it would be traumatizing for them. A naked man in public shouldn't be taken lightly. There are so many stories of rape, assault, and kidnappings involving women going out on jogs, bike rides, etc. A naked man is seen as a threat, as he should be, regardless of his intentions.
I decided to stop for a few reasons. One time, while in a depressed funk because I was broke and lonely in NYC, I decided to cheer myself up with a stroll through Central Park. I was enjoying myself until I rounded a corner and saw a homeless man with his pants down playing with his penis. This encounter disgusted me, made me MORE depressed, and made me stop for a bit. But the urges returned in about a year.
The thing that made me stop entirely was finding a woman who I love deeply, and realizing that I had an unhealthy addiction that she would not approve of. When I realized that this was the woman I wanted to marry, I also realized that I wanted her to know everything about me, that I didn't want to have any secrets. Luckily, she accepted my faults and still helps me deal with my urges. She's incredible, and I don't deserve her.
Unfortunately, I am left with feelings of guilt and shame from my exhibitionist past. I used to look back on it with excitement like you, but now I see it for what it was. I experience periods of depression because I think of how my behavior would be received by my friends, family, etc. They would not accept it, nor should they. It's not something to be proud of, it's not normal, and it's not something to encourage others to try.
by
Anonymous10/28/13
Lets get together
Can't agree more Joe,
What we need is to all get together and share being naked or near in our own company. Sure it's not Public but at least it's to an accepting audience and legal.
Joe,
thanks for revealing yourself the way you did in this story. I sympathize. As a person who has done just about everything you described and more, I finally find solace in releasing my demons through story.
Best wishes,
N1
I'm not sure what I would actually do if it happened, but I think it would be fun to catch a male exhibitionist walking around nude...even better to catch him masturbating.
English
You nailed it!
You poor bastard. I live the same curse. I try to prolong the pleasure and minimize uh "exposure" by reliving an adventure over and over again in my mind's eye. But sooner or later the pressure builds and builds and builds and Ka-Boom!
When it all finally boils over it's like a feeding frenzy. I'll even miss work for days at a time.
I'm learning to acquiesce by letting off steam with a mini-adventure before the pressure goes too high.
I agree I prefer not to offend but ...
Anyway I'm not gay (or at least I wasn't?) but I've found some gay/bi venues to be less risky and uh "voyeurs" to not only be less offended but actually appreciative.
Cruising the gay-ish areas of parks and beaches was heaven on earth until the cops caught on and went nuts on us a few years ago. (A couple of the parks even had M/F couples doing the same thing :-)
Ditto the adult bookstores with their video arcades with cruisy dark winding aisleways.
And then there's the xxx theaters. Standing in the dark, in a dark corner, naked or near naked. All of a sudden there's a flash of light as someone comes in. They can't see so it's kinda like a progressive revealment as they slowly get their night vision.
Anyway, props. Great story.
Good Information
I too have exh. tendencies. But, probably in more control than yours was. So, I'll stay away from public places...thanks again.
Recovery
As an ex-exhibitionist, I can relate to the feelings you've described. Unfortunately, I don't quite agree with the way you appear to be encouraging the behavior. It's a disorder, it's not healthy and as you've found out, it can be dangerous. Being a nudist is one thing, but when you decide to masturbate in public, it's crossing a line. I used to masturbate in public areas also, although I was never "bold" enough to do it while someone watched. The thing is, people don't want to see it. It's offensive. When I stop to get gas, I don't want to see a naked man masturbating. When I decide to go on a hike, I want to see nice views, not a naked man masturbating. You say that you didn't expose yourself to anyone under 18, but what about the passing cars? How do you know a mother and toddler children aren't going to drive by? Think about that situation from their perspective. Sure, it's exciting for you and you, but it would be traumatizing for them. A naked man in public shouldn't be taken lightly. There are so many stories of rape, assault, and kidnappings involving women going out on jogs, bike rides, etc. A naked man is seen as a threat, as he should be, regardless of his intentions.
I decided to stop for a few reasons. One time, while in a depressed funk because I was broke and lonely in NYC, I decided to cheer myself up with a stroll through Central Park. I was enjoying myself until I rounded a corner and saw a homeless man with his pants down playing with his penis. This encounter disgusted me, made me MORE depressed, and made me stop for a bit. But the urges returned in about a year.
The thing that made me stop entirely was finding a woman who I love deeply, and realizing that I had an unhealthy addiction that she would not approve of. When I realized that this was the woman I wanted to marry, I also realized that I wanted her to know everything about me, that I didn't want to have any secrets. Luckily, she accepted my faults and still helps me deal with my urges. She's incredible, and I don't deserve her.
Unfortunately, I am left with feelings of guilt and shame from my exhibitionist past. I used to look back on it with excitement like you, but now I see it for what it was. I experience periods of depression because I think of how my behavior would be received by my friends, family, etc. They would not accept it, nor should they. It's not something to be proud of, it's not normal, and it's not something to encourage others to try.
Lets get together
Can't agree more Joe,
What we need is to all get together and share being naked or near in our own company. Sure it's not Public but at least it's to an accepting audience and legal.
Thanks
Joe,
thanks for revealing yourself the way you did in this story. I sympathize. As a person who has done just about everything you described and more, I finally find solace in releasing my demons through story.
Best wishes,
N1
A fantasy?
I'm not sure what I would actually do if it happened, but I think it would be fun to catch a male exhibitionist walking around nude...even better to catch him masturbating.
CFNM Sequel?
Could you make a sequel where he is confronted by some horny,mischievous, but friendly, girls?
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