My High Price Paid to Write Erotica

Tell them to get over it!

Susan, I happen to love your stories and I believe you should keep writing. I would rather your family and friends not treat you that way, but trust me mine never cease to amaze me. Hippocrates are formed every day and it only gets worse. Keep your chin up, that gorgeous smile glowing and be proud of who you are.

Nuts!

A comment made by a WWII commander leading his troops to hold Bastogne against seemingly stronger German forces. In other words, damn them and keep on writing! I enjoy all of your erotica and wouldn't trade you as a favorite author for all the friends or family in the world. After all, it's my life and I'll live it my way! Thanks for the insightful story, Susan, and may all your stories in the future shine as bright as your beaming smile!

Such a spirited woman

I'm so glad you keep on writing because I happen to enjoy (And also write) erotica, including stories of incest.
Those sad people that you talk of will never be half the person that you are Susan.
"The pen is mightier than the sword"

Take care of yourself Susan and please keep writing!

Col.

UNLESS YOU WROTE ABOUT PERSONAL EVENTS AND PEOPLE

without a Disclaimer, that might hit too close to home for atonement, TK U MLJ LV NV p/s FICTION IS NOT FACT OR TRUTH,,,sometimes its fantasy,

im sorry that your friends and family fell the way they do but its thier loss ,
the stories that you write are great ive loved all that i have read and voted for most
i think that most of those people are mad because they cant or dont have the balls
or whatever to write like you do . please keep up the good work and i hope that you
get back on your feet soon . those people were not really your friends or they wouldnt have done what they have

#2 ADVOCATIONS AND VOCATIONS AND RELATIONS

sometimes there is a Hell of a Clash. Its up to you and its your life. TK U MLJ LV NV

You go girl!

Susan, I loved your comments. I may not always like your stories, but I recognize that they ARE STORIES. And as you stated, I'm reading them, so I "am as bad as you". I don't think there is anything wrong with any type of sex between consenting adults. Keep writing.

Manifesto!!

Your two pages are the Five-Star start on a sexual manifesto for the twenty-first century. I, too, know what it's like when you 'come out' about writing and your (my) other perversions. After some bumps, I find it's easier to just nod and say "Oh, that's interesting" rather than flaunt a talent for writing porn (so I've been told). Anyway, you've got the right idea telling the world to shove it and to live on your own terms. Hurray for sex. Hurray for you!

Hope

I hope some of the htings get better for you soon, i.e. the unemployed homeless part. It is a sad statement on your friends and relatives that they reacted as they have. I applaud your bravery and honesty. Looking forward to reading more from you.

Friends???? NOT

I can't abide people who apply a double standard to others. I keep thinking the old saying "There but for the grace of God go I" and do my best to NOT BE LIKE THEM.
You are strong and capable but in your (and my) innocence we felt we had "friends" when they really were aquaintinces and, like a breeze, just passing thru our lives.
Relatives turning their backs on you is their SIN and cross to bear.
I read here but I don't like it when writers pervert the language to suit their idea of their particular fetish. The dictionary is the source of a words meaning.
I hope your life situation improves and that you will find some one(s) to share it with. I know how lonely me, myself and I can be.
Thanks for sharing.

stay strong

You are who you are and that is wonderful. Don't let the phonies and pseudoteligiousget you down. Be proud and be you.

Was Not Expecting That!

...and I truly wasn't! And to say I enjoyed it would be unimportant. Let's get the technical stuff over with first...it was very good, compelling writing. You had something to say and you said it with an ability that was close to brilliance. You know that you are a very good writer, and we know it too. One of the best.
Right, the important bit! You are in the US, I am in the UK. It is 99.999999% we will never meet, so I will not be able to do the nasty things that others have said, to you! I will never even make love to you tenderly and lovingly, either! So let me say this, I applaud your honesty and integrity in writing how and what you did. I also hope that you find a job, a home and all the things you desire so that you can be comfortable as possible. I also hope you find real friends who will accept you as you are...and love you as you should be. If all that sounds 'soppy', and you don't like it, then sorry, but that's how I feel....

Very Nice

Susan, as usual you have outdone yourself. I am surprised that your Back Bay Brahmin friends didn't disown you after you came out about your sexual past while you were still married. I have found that the most uptight repressed people in this overly repressed country are in the Mass area. Must be all that old Puritan blood floating around up there.
Keep up the good work, Keep your chin up and Keep writing....

Very well written

We are who we are. Thanks for being honest about the world outside of erotica. It's a shame that people can't accept one another for who they are.

Please keep writing.

I read your story today after reading the comment posted from another erotica fan the UK. This was my first story of yours that I've read and I was moved and shocked by the reactions from your friends and family.

Stay strong. I hope that you will find employment and a stable home soon. Also, stay strong while you take care of your mom. Its always one sibling that is the primary care provider for an elderly/ill parent.

This was my first story of yours but it won't be my last because I'm dying to find out how being bitten by Vamps leads to some juicy incestuos storires.

A new fan from Pennsylvania.

passionatly written and I assume mostly true.

Sounds like the moral of the story is to learn, not just write, from your experience base.

Writing always has its price

Writing's a solitary pleasure shared with others, no matter what the subject or style.
In the end, you write for you and you alone. If others get it, great. If they don't, well, that's regrettably common.

This essay resonates with me on a profound level b/c for me writing's how I take the external and internal chaos and make sense of it. If I hadn't started writing at fourteen, I'd probably be another teenage suicide statistic.

In my case, it wasn't sexual abuse but emotionally arid family life that made it clear I was on my own with nobody really giving a shit one way or the other.
As an adult, you realize loneliness is the normal state and develop coping strategies- humor, obsessive interests, relationships to make life worthwhile.
As a kid, I took it all too damned seriously and wanted a definite answer ASAP.
Once I started writing down all the crap going through my mind, I could sort the wheat from the chaff and laugh at it with a little distance, see patterns in what was inchoate nonsense before.

Unfortunately, in your case, sex as an obsessive interest smacks of pathology to your acquaintances. Abuse makes victims hypervigilant and aware of sexuality's possibilities both good and bad. It also makes hash of "normal" social boundaries for us.

I'm sorry the folks in your previous social circle didn't appreciate your attempt to process that emotionally tortuous minefield sex can be, no matter your preferences.
Find different people who get and dig it, like us,your readers. It'd help having face-to-face people to give you personal feedback though. Give it some time, yourself the compassion that your previous friends didn't.
Keep writing, not just to drain the bile and pus but also to articulate the hope and joy
you and every sentient being craves thinking about the physical and emotional rush sex can be.

heroic struggle by heroine

I am glad I read this... suffering from your art that is venomous and heartfelt... one that I do not envy...choices we make that have unforeseen consequences...but I love the bitter poison that you can elicit...by rubbing your mind furiously...you are my heroine...

Hold Your Head High!

There are those around you who would find some fault even if you were a brain surgeon or school teacher. Your life is your own. People seem to try to be as stupid and alienating as possible.

In high school, there were those who hated me because I studied and got good grades. I held my head high and now I write about them and their stupidity. When I write, I make it a point to make it clear to any who might know them that I am writing about that person or those people.

Literary revenge is sweet indeed. There is real power in writing.

I can guess at the angst/emotions but presentation is lacking

I know this will catch flack from the others who believe that anyone claiming to be a victim (IRL) and writing about an emotional experience has to be treated with kid gloves and given adulation all the time.

She was jumping all over place and it was more stream of consciousness than a well written essay.

Bravo, Bravo, Bravo!

Yes, presentation was scattered. With some editing this is a fantastic piece. Commendations for not hiding behind a pen name! You are a brave, admirable and honest person! I hope you find new friends and family who love and accept you for who you are and what you do. Live for yourself and do what brings you happiness! It has taken me many years to do just that!

From a new friend, Debbie

Hmm

My first reaction is that this must be fiction, or at the very best a hyperbolic over dramatization.

Maybe I just have better friends and family than you?

Hope this isn't true, sad if so. You write so well here. Always good to vent at times.

Injustice

After stewing about this for the past week I have come to the conclusion that nothing I could say would shed further light on the indignities this writer has been made to suffer as the result of the ignorance, stupidity, bigotry and intolerance of her "friends " and relatives.
She will never recieve the apologies due her, but to her credit she continues to write and post the good honest erotica so many of us like and appreciate.

Bravo Susan

A high price indeed

Provocative reading. You've hit the nail on the head about how we live among hypocrites who will cast stones at you in public, while having affairs, attending strip shows, or reading stories here. I admire you for using your real name and telling it like it is. Sorry you've had to pay the price for telling the truth.

hypocrisy

Hypocrisy and Self righteousness projection of the wealthy,powerful in the society is high and injustices it metes to the victims was always there and in various forms as the author has suffered .Truth is the first casualty in any society.I like the courage of the author .
I like most of the stories and some i don't like but keep writing.
Bravo

Life would be better if people weren't hypocrites

It is a shame on your family that they have turned you out. They do not need to be enthused about your lifestyle but they should at least accept that it is your choice. As for friends, sometimes they never really were your friend. They only wanted something from you and if you could no longer supply that need, they moved on. Sad, but that is how some people are. Your life lately has certainly sucked and is definitely not part of the American dream. However, it has provided you with some great story material. I hope someday soon you can write about new found wealth and family reconciliation.
Many of the prior commentors wished you well but I wonder how many had the good sense to buy one of your e-books on Amazon. I suspect most draw their line of support at $3. And yes, I did buy "Love so Young" a great story. Keep up the great writing.

Hi

Hi I am new to this site was turned to by a friend and I just love it. He also turned me on to you. I am so in love with you. Your strength your courage your writing. I would so love to be your friend fuck those bitches. Come to Vegas I would put you up for as long as you like. I loved the Justin story it was the first one I have read and I plan on reading all your stories, I loved it and can't wait for you to finish. I think you r amazing.

The real us

There is something to be said for the lonely anonymity of a pseudonym.

Hypocrites

we are all hypocrites in some sense. Maybe i am a hypocrite also. we live in a society and it have its own rule. we people have different perception about same thing one will say it is wright another will say it wrong. so what i have a different opinion about sex but society will judge by their rule. suppose i have fantasy to sex with under age people or a rape fantasy, people will judge me as a criminal but i know that i will never do that crime. sex is also taboo in modern world majority people will not accept as it common thing to discuss. sex is a bedroom thing so if you want come up with open space people will not accept it. so we pervert and hypocrites people are good in bedroom not in society. you said that you should never tell your friend's and relatives. so i think you should enjoy your erotica anonymously. Every people have two side one is good and another is bad. show the good in society and tame the bad side in bedroom like incestuous, cuckold, fetish, swinging.

Don't hold back...

Hey Susan,
I love your writing, and I'm sorry for the price you have paid,,,,we are all walking wounded. Please know that you have gifted me and many others with yourself. Thank you.

Infuriating!

That you, because you're a woman, should take such shit from the readers who've obviously spent so much time drooling over your fantasies.

I like a lot of what you've written and, to tell the truth, wasn't nuts about other pieces. No matter, I don't need to like everything and I'm glad you've written. I'm happy to see another voice contributing to erotic fiction, and especially happy to hear a woman's voice contribute.

For reasons of imy own, I haven't widely discussed what I've posted here - it's not the kind of thing that would help my professional or academic career, and would very likely cause problems in my personal life. (I don't need to tell you that.) But, I plan to keep writing and I hope you do as well. Brava!

you are a fabulous writer

another smart Pennsylvanian like me :)

Seriously, the world dislikes honest people, especially those who say suggest do and describe things the larger group wishes they had the courage to sample. Keep writing -- you have friends and supporters out here!

Bravo

Forget them Susan Jill, you're so much better than them. Nil Illigitimi Carborundum.

Way to go

This anthem of your pain and loss for what you believe to be honest and truthful is beautiful. For those who judge you, let them be Judge first. I have not read any of your stories but this one..... Thank you for writing such an inspiring and insightful look into your mind and heart.

way to go

They judge you and point a finger at you but fail to realize there three pointing back you are a gifted writer they're loss is our gain. It is a price you paid but they're loss I've read some of your stories and like them. These hypocrits dont deserve the time of day. We all have kinks its human nature. If they say they don't they are not true to themselves. That goes for friends and family

Ignore the trolls

Personally, I don't have much patience with self righteous people either, particularly when they're also hypocrites. Anyone reading material on Literotica has no business making personal attacks on the writers. Everyone has their likes and dislikes, but tolerance for other people's likes and dislikes should be standard behavior for anyone reading this category of material. I enjoy much of your work, just for the record. Your name is one of those that gets my attention in the posting list as it gets updated.
I know one of the base guidelines for story writers is "write what you know", but it saddens me to hear a talented, educated, and obviously intelligent person like you should have had to learn so many bad things in such a hard way. I wish you good fortune in the future and hope you continue to favor us with your stories.

Applauding your courage and conviction

Susan, first let me say, that I am a fan. I've not written much and when I think about what I've contributed to the Literotica community in comparison with a prolific writer such as yourself, I hardly make a ripple in the ocean. I appreciate your unselfish approach at not only your contributions but also the degree of your honesty and the price you paid. It should be obvious by now that you have an enormous support base here on Literotica. I know that this doesn't provide any real tangible comfort but I hope you do at least find some degree of solace in this fact. I am sorry you've been shunned by your close friends and even more sadly/importantly by your family. I haven't shared with many about my writings here on Literotica out of fear of repercussions. I am also, perhaps a little too much so, careful about the genres that I consider writing about. Perhaps I shouldn't be as careful and not be as concerned about what people might think but that's easier said than done, at least for me anyway. I admire your fortitude, persistence and self-respect. I was raised extremely conservatively but have 'grown' into someone who appreciates their conservative upbringing and at the same time also thankful that I've been able to mature into someone tempered by conservatism but more socially liberal than my close family and friends would care to see. I guess that's a nice way of saying I didn't throw the baby out with the bath water but I did change out the bath water. :) I know it's been awhile since you wrote this and I hope that during this time your circumstances have changed for the better with respect to your financial well-being. I envy your freedom, appreciate your contributions and love who you are as a person. I am honored to have been given this glimpse into your life and thank you for doing so. I hope I one day have the pleasure of making your acquaintance. I will be all the richer for such an experience. Until then, I will, at the very least, simply get to enjoy your online presence/contributions. Be well my friend. Namaste......
Patrick aka Hookmeistr

friends??

if they were truly your friends in the first place they would accept who you are and what you do.their loss is our gain.personally speaking for myself i think you are a beautiful woman that has a great talent in writing and probably lots of other stuff too but i do love reading your stories so dont let them worry you and keep writing.

Hi Susan

Let me say first that I enjoy your stories. Well written, hot and steamy. And that you cover a wide variety of topics makes them even hotter. And I'm so sorry that you had to go through such crap in your life. But you're one tough woman to be able to brush it off and write a story about it. I, too, enjoy many areas of erotica. Makes us multi-faceted. Who knows? We might meet face to face someday and have some fun. Perhaps you could write a hot story about it.

Sorry

I am totally sorry for the way your so called friends have treated you . There's nothing wrong with your lifestile or the great stories you write. I love your stories I read and vote for them regularly. I wish I had a woman friend like you she would satisfy all my needs with just her literature.

That was pretty brave of you

You told your family about what you write about and they disowned you? f'ed up. Of course, society isn't ready to accept these truths yet. That trying to remain "pure" is actually hurting ourselves. Being forced to hide our baser desires in exchange for social acceptance is all too common. turning 30 means you're old, polyamorous relationships are wrong, etc. You think people would be a little more tolerant of others in this day and age. I guess stupidity and ignorance will never go out of style. I hope you still make tons of sexy, incestuous stories with hot moms, daughters, and various sex acts and maybe come out with something better than 50 shades of grey.

Be true to your own self

Who knows why we do the things we do. Is it in our nda? Was there an event in the past that triggered a desire? Are we lost souls? It doesn't matter.

Keep writing. You love it.

Create your own life, and be happy. Make new friends and embrace the special ones as family.

Forget the dead you've left, they will not follow you.

They should apologise

When i read this i joined literotica i have been reading stories for a while now on this site. While reading the first 3 paragraphs i thought to myself this can't be true but as i read further i came to the relisation that it was true. I have no words to say how i feel about the way you have been treated by your own family & friends. I found it difficult to read mostly from tears forming in my eyes and the sad part is you had to and still live through it. I repeat they should APOLOGISE

Resist Control!

I guess everyone goes through the indoctrination process right from the get-go, that certain things are absolutely forbidden in "society". At least, if we are raised in a social milieu. Most of us never actually question what we are taught, even as we later violate some of the rules, at least. We KNOW that we are going to hell for desiring sex with Sister June or Uncle John or someone else "verboten", so what does it matter if we cheat a customer or steal a cellphone or kill a lover. Everything we want to do seems to be a "sin" of some sort. Do just anything, or do nothing with your life.
Your choice.
If only society would accept that we are best off to avoid things that harm someone, physically or emotionally, and anything else is acceptable, we would have a much more rational basis for our moral lives. That would certainly seem to allow any kind of consensual sex with any consensual partner or partners. No one is harmed, everyone is satisfied to the best of our abilities. Consanguinity? What's the difference if it's mom, dad, bro, sis, aunty, unk, cuz? Incest is only a creation of those who want to control people for their own profit - priests and other politicians - people who get off by doing emotional (sometimes physical) harm to others - people not wholly sane.
RESIST!

Respect

It is not difficult to believe in the perils you have written here. In general, and of course in my opinion, people are hypocrites first and foremost. I have read many comments left by so called readers that criticized an author for a story involving some act that was “immoral” in their mind. In truth, I have had a lot of fun reading some of your stories. That is all it is, for fun, for relaxation, for the mind release of not thinking of the problems of the day. If a story is purported to be true, then so be it. I will admit that it kind of gives me a bit more of a thrill to think people have actually done what many of us wished we had the fortune and/or courage to do. But the fact is they are stories! They are a diversion, a giggle, a hoot! So, I applaud you for your stories. I wish better for you than it sounds like life is dealing you in this letter. If your friends had been taught what I have endeavored to teach my children; that lesson being respect costs the sender nothing but yet is the most valuable gift you can give to another, then maybe they would be better people and treat you better. I am in a career field that turned many former friends into detractors. So, although my situation is miniscule in comparison to yours, I feel a bit of your pain in some ways. I hope to convey to keep up your courage and keep on writing, ‘cause I’ll keep on reading!

Kudos to you!

Dear Susan,

Keep on writing; Keep doing what you enjoy.
I feel sad that it has cost you family and friends,
but in my never humble opinion, those weren't
really friends if thay can't support you and your
endeavors. While you can't get new family, you
surely can make new friends, and I hope you
find them soon. Thank you for bringing pleasure
to so many people.

Best wishes,

Bear

very interesting perspective

Thanks for sharing your thoughts, Susan. It is because of some of the things that you've recounted here that I share with very few people my hobby of writing erotica. I've found that people are so judgmental about sex, that with the majority of them it's just not worth getting into a conversation with them about it.

Hi Susan

Thank you for writing! The individuals you describe are those same ones that make up such a despicable moral minority.
I think you sound like a nice woman. I read erotica and I write erotica.
My ex-wife had a problem with erotica, porn, and anything unless she was drunk (her the one who had 4 husbands, done group sex, screwed around on all the husbands, and had been in a lesbian relationship. I never judged her and found out that she too cheated on me.
My current wife reads erotica and has a much more open mind.
Hopefully your life is better and you can live a free open life again

Thank you for some loving wet wet big "O" moments of pleasure mmmmmm!

Dear and sweet Susan,

Please, keep on writing those loving Erotic Stories and doing what you most enjoy to do!

I´m very sorry if it has cost you some family and some friends, but in my humble opinion, we always most try to make our dreams "cum" real!
So, Please, Do Not Stop writing Erotic Stories!
I love very much yours lovely stories and I use to score them, mostly with a 4 or 5 stars always!

As a Mature Lesbian Aunt in a long term family love relationship with my own lovely 75yo Aunt since my teens, I realy love erotic stories about adult and mature lesbian family love, specially Grannies with Moms, Aunts, Sisters, Moms-in-laws, daughters and nieces!
I know yours lovely stories are more F/m stories but it would be lovely to see more Women in the family love relationship of the stories, like FFF/m or FFFF/m/g stories.

Thank you soooooooooo much for some loving Wet Wet Big "O" moments of true pleasure and for bringing pleasure to so many people.

I wish you All the Best!

Aunt Helena
53yo lesbian Aunt from Portugal