by Number23
Boy are you sick (just kidding). I am sure there are many of us out there with similar secret fantasies. So just live with your secret. As you said, you are a coward, but it is not really cowardice, just common sense. You couldn't live with the shame. So write about it instead. You can have anything you want in a fantasy, so get over yourself, your limitations and make the best of it. Good luck.
Alot of us see things as they should be according to"THEM" but we want what makes us Happy. Go for the gold !