In Control?

Good

It is hard to separate oneself from what is an ongoing saga - which itself is completely valid in poetry, I believe.

Good that this time you are not repeating the successful formula of telling a story of nature, musing about it and then sliding into the meat. Though I would be pleased to see that again.

It absolutely holds the attention. Nothing jars but I am not sure how good technically the verse is (Greenmountaineer could make more useful comment on that) but you clearly wanted to say what was true and not compromise that.

I really liked the thoughts you put into this, and the way you describe the past, present and future ("I never dreamed that I'd have had" / "So here am I in chaos cast" / "For good decisions now I strive"), weaving it all together with thoughts and feelings about this person's own situation. It's a window into the awareness of one's own situation, something valuable in itself for the knowledge it contains.

As for the rhymes, it seems like you've written everything into a very neat structure. I do not understand much about this technical part, but I can surely appreciate the effort it takes to make things fit like that. Good job!