All Comments on 'Why a Rape and Impregnation fetish?'

Thank you with being so honest about your emotions. Thank you for conveying the truth and not sugar coting it and even mentioning the part about bad breath. Thank you for your courage. Thank you for your strength and determination to delve into yourself over and over again to write your stories.

I'd like to convey my humblest, deepest respect.

From one warrior to another

Christie,

Thank you for sharing. It's humbling to read someone's account of something so personal. Many people would not have the strength to share what really happened like you have. It's easy to understand your comment at the top "maybe this is how I wish it really happened". It's also understandable how you express yourself in your story writing.

You have my deepest respect.

Thank you again,

Mark

Hey Chirstie, great stories. I have read them all. I like you picture too. Keep the stories coming.

Thanks for telling your story. Mine is similar with a coworker too. Only difference is there were two rooms and no condoms and I got pregnant at 18. It took a long time to realize and accept that it was rape and I could not fight him off and it was senseless to even try. You're braver than me.

Okay. Personally I'm still repelled by Non-Consent/Impregnation stories, but I can understand how they work for you. You have my deepest sympathies - no one should ever go through that.

I'm learning about the pain I caused someone. I wish I could find her and apologize but it won't happen. She was a nice girl I knew and I did something close to what Richard did except I got her pregnant. I don't know if she kept it or if it was a boy or a girl but I'm sorry.

I understand what you mean. Keep up the good work.

It's a terrible cliche, but as the saying goes, "What does not kill me makes me stronger." (I think it's somewhere in Nietzsche but I can't remember which book, and they're on a really high shelf.) To be able to relive and transform a traumatic experience into something that gives you pleasure and strength is a great thing. Can't say I have any time for this Richard person (my grandmother would have called him a "heel"), but the imagination is the best crucible for transforming shame into something else. Also, you're a really good writer. Keep up the good work.

Christie

As I have said before...I adored your stories. What I don't adore is the way they got started. You are one brave and courageous woman. I salute you and anyone else who has gone through this type of experience. I found out this past while that my own daughter was raped by her first b/f. A guy who I trusted with her. Once I found out what had gone on...I went to see him and we had a nice little "chat"...needless to say...I had the last "word" and it wasn't goodbye...it was me handing him the telephone after dialing the local police...and standing there while he asked them to come and pick him up. End of story...not yet...he now resides in a prison...and after countless sessions and therapy, she is now able to live a full life. She, too, deals with what happened by writing. I sincerely believe that this is the best way...for both of you. Take care and stay safe...as always...OneGoddess

for explaining this better than I could, and I tried in a story last year, but it came across as me wanting it to happen again. I want to thank the previous commenter, who left the "bad boy" comment, I wish the bastard that raped me had a conscience, but I doubt that he does and probably he never thought about me again. Im glad you have the courage to write this and I admire you for not letting hateful people stop you from xpressing your opinion ~~

maria

I'm very impressed by you. You endured this and survived and seem to have gotten stronger. It's been many years since I raped a lovely young woman I had been dating. It was an act of supreme selfishness and I've regretted it for twenty-one years now. She did not do as well as you.

wow. i am so proud of you for coming out and telling us ur story. you are so proud to have been through that.

I'm so sorry that you've gone through what I've gone through. I wasn't at a hotel, but a friend's party and the guy was actually my boyfriend. I said no, he said yes, he forced me and I didn't dare fight back. He didn't use a condom and after I got over the relief of not being pregnant I had to suffer through the pain and embarrassment of an STD. I wish everybody who reads the non-consent stories would take time to realise the pain behind a lot of them.

Sorry to hear what you went thru. I'm also sorry to say I understand what can get a guy going so much like with Richard. I'm 38 and earlier this year I was travelling cross country with a much younger lady and we ended up in similar circumstances. Things happened. I got seriously carried away and now she's pregnant but at least not coming after me with the law making any accusations. I spent three solid days with her being dressed in next to nothing and then we had to share a bed at one point and she came to bed naked. I thought she wanted me, you know? I cuddled up to her and she was cool and then we were kissing and I got on top and she started saying no. I didn't listen and once we got started she got into it. We did it three times that night and she got pregnant. I suppose I'm kind of a rapist for this. One part of me regrets it in the abstract but the other part is still reliving the conquering feeling I got from putting my bare cock into her wonderful body and just letting go. So you got your fetish to deal with and now I have mine. Good luck to you.

Thank you for sharing. This almost belongs on one of those rape survivor sites.

I really respect your courage in writing about this. I think this sort of thing is in real life far more common than anyone wants to acknowledge.<p>

In my version of the story, I can plead a few things in mitigation. I don't believe I was cynical. I certainly didn't intend to rape her. She really did definitely come to my house on that day to have sex with me - it was the first thing she said when she came in through the door. I really was firing blanks, and I knew that for certain (but

I don't know that she did). We did set out to have sex, and when we set out I had her consent. At the last moment, though, she definitely withdrew her consent, and I did not respect her withdrawal of consent.<p>

She was a virgin. I knew she was a virgin. More than that, I knew she was an extremely vulnerable and troubled girl, and I was more than twice her age. She was below the US age of consent (although not below the age of consent here).<p>

She slept with me that night - although she could easily have gone home; and I thought I had been forgiven. I hadn't, and we were never intimate again, although we did remain friends.<p>

Like you it's messed with my mind ever since, and has led me to be extremely troubled about my sexuality. Like you I've tried to deal with the issues it's raised for me through writing. It's one of the few things I've done in life that I still really lose sleep over - and it's twelve years ago now.

I thought this was one hell of a brave thing to post on the site. The true account of what really happened to you. I hope the part in "Milestones" where you state Richard's wife came over to your house and your parents didn't speak to you for months wasn't accurate. Did you know statistics show one out of every 4 women have been raped? You are not alone. And for the record, I have the same nonconsent/forced impregnation fetish as you. Does that make me sick? Getting turned on by a guy holding me down and coming inside me? Not any sicker that someone into golden or Roman showers, I say. To each their own.

I'm sorry for your experience, but I'm glad that you are strong, brave, and recovering.

Basically, I've been raped twice. Once I was forced to give oral sex, and once I was forcibly tit-fucked. Even before any sexual experience, my mother would always tell me that I was fat and ugly, and she'd go on and on about reading stories from the newspapers where girls were abducted and raped. So I put 2 and 2 together, and came to the conclusion that I would never have sex unless I was raped, and probably impregnated.

So that's where my fetish started. And, from there, I masturbated all the time to fantasies that involved rape and impregnation (the idea that the man is only in there for himself to cum). Of course, at the time, I was only around 10 years old, and I learned to masturbate around 5 years of age, so I got pretty fucked up over rape and sex long before I was actually sexually active.

I think that this is one of the reasons I was so fucked up in relationships. I always ended up being the girl who was the friend of the girl who the guy liked. But since my friend wasn't available, he'd take me as a consolation prize. I actually thought I was lucky! Being treated as a warm body for awhile felt like being wanted, and that's really all I wanted.

Of course, in reality, I am terrified of becoming pregnant. I am afraid of the financial and physical consequences, and simply the fear of being a bad parent, because you can screw up so badly so easily.

But the idea of being taken care of, of a man just fully and completely taking care of me and solidifying that care by coming inside of me and being there forever, is just lusty to me.

I just know that more often than not, it's just some guy who is using my body for his own pleasure, regardless of the consequences, and then will just run off and abandon me when someone more desirable comes along. Maybe this is why I want incredibly extreme plastic surgery. I want to be a nymph in a way my biology and genetics has never let me be. For once I want to be the first girl that people want, not the second or third.

I really desire to have someone impregnate me one day...but only if that man is willing to follow through with the safety and support that he promises with filling me with his seed.

i love this, but only in fantasy. i wouldnt do it but i love hearing about other men who have

At least you're honest about it. I'd like to meet you sometime and give you some real honest love and then offer you my low sperm count cock and you could actually swim in my love batter.....

You've shown courage, go ahead !

I'm a male, and the thought of impregnating a female, or even pregnant females turns me on greatly...

I really get creeped out by a rape fetish though. I had a girlfriend a long time ago, that got had a rape fantasy, and wanted to do some consentual roleplaying on the subject.(the thought scares me shitless) I assumed that she was just being the kinky perverted sex craved maniac looking to "spice it up a little".(ain't nothing wrong with that gents).

now....its a whole new light.

I'm a 34 y/o female and I have the same exact fetish/fantasy you do and it's spilled over into real life. I just can't get past how forcible sex and impregnation turns me on so much. A real life rapist would be very shocked at my reaction I think! Luckily I have a man who is turned on by submission so I can be a "victim" safely, and during sex I beg him not to knock me up and it only makes him do it harder. VERY intense. Well, you're not the only one.

If it helps you. Then I can think of no better way then to continue to write about it until you can move on. I can relate to your fetish, not because I have had the same experience or the same fetish, but because I find writing about it the only way to work it out.

For me these fantasies are not really about rape (because no-one could actually want this). I have been sexually abused when I was seven, and I really really hope that is not the reason for me having an infatuation with non-consent sex. But I often wonder why reluctancy is turning me on so much. Maybe it is more about a strong, possessive, dominant (aka alpha) male. Because someone who is ruthless, who takes what or whom he wants, is also someone able to protect you and care for you.

I really think that a 'rape' fetish is something I have. Not in a way that I'd want unpermitted sex with Strangers. but I do like the idea of role playing with my boyfriend. Struggling and being handled roughly, but still knowing that no harm will come to me, Not really rape i suppose but in role play terms.

I have developed similar fetish's after my own rape. The situation was different and in many ways more violent, but I just felt like putting it out their that you not the only one. It also helps to know I am not either. *weak smile*

I totally get what you are talking about. My first boyfriend was a gentle lover and things were great. In college I dated an older guy and the first time we had sex he kept saying he was going to put on a condom and he basically got me going and caught me in a weak moment and went in bare. I kept telling him to stop and it turned him on and he wrapped his arms around me and did his thing. I was shocked that he had sort of raped me and that it was the most feminine I had ever felt. Being completely helpless to his wants was the most sexual experience of my life and it is not something I share with anyone who knows me.

I'm a woman and have similar fetishes, but was never forced, so I haven't a clue what's behind the origin of the fantasies. My husband tried to help me act out some of the stuff, but it wound up being quite hilarious -- not at all what I was going for.

I've enjoyed reading your work. Thanks for posting it.

For sharing your most intimate feelings and I hope that you are able to get back to a level of balance.

Ducky

OMG please write more stories! I have a huge Rape and impregnation fetish! I am a woman and it gets me dripping wet to think about it! Not violet rape but i'm going to do this to you and you're going to take it kind of thing. whew I am wet already

I have never comented on any stories I have read on this site, but I just wanted to say...You are one truly brave woman xx

I came across your story in a search and am just blown away that you can write about it. I was raped repeatedly over a long weekend about 15 years ago and got pregnant as a result. I kept the baby because it was too complicated to do anything else. Like you the rape twisted me around and the healing never really started. My prayers are with you.

Thank you for your bravery and your stories. I'm a man with this fantasy, but would never act on it. My best friend, who I have had an on again off again sexual relationship with for years, was sexually abused as a child and raped by her boyfriend as a teenager. She used to say that sex with me was theraputic because it wasn't rape. She still won't talk about it. Your bravery gives me hopes that maybe one day she'll be able to talk about it as well.

I also had the same experience, but except of having the baby, i had an abortion. Kinda wish i wouldn't have now, but i digress.

You are very brave to comment. I get how rape twists you, i've gotten tremendously darker sexually since it happened. NOw all i can thing about is reclaiming the exact situation with someone I trust.

Peace to you,

Cath

I was raped when I was younger. I am now 19 and since then I have been having fantasies about it. I DO NOT ever want to be raped again, just like you said... But I really have to say thank you for this. I read somewhere that some girls who have been raped do get fantasies about it later but I always thought I was alone since I had never met another girl who did. I'm glad I found your stories so now I know that I am not alone. Thank you.

Thanks for just giving a voice to those of us who won't say it out loud that getting raped left a scar. When I was fifteen I thought I loved an older guy and I had an awful family life so the one time I ran away I went to the guy. He kept me with him for almost six months and the very first night we were alone he became a totally different person and he raped me. It's been 11 years since then and this is the first time I called it a rape. I ended up pregnant after the time with him and he left me at my parents house late one night when he got bored with me. I've never seen him again and the baby was adopted by my parents and everyone calls him my little brother.

Unlike you I don't think I can have real sex again. But thanks for your story.

I have always dreamed about getting raped, pregnant and marrying my rapist. I will be writing about it

Im similar. I was raped as a teen and now as a 30 something year old wife and mother I get really turned on by the idea of forced impregnantion. Don't know why, I just do.

You hit a home run. I asked under "nightmare..bad dream" about this topic you covered. I thank you for not making me feel like a freak. I didn't enjoy the rape but I read these stories and try and relive that moment, but for me I feel like I'm taking the control when I relive it thru the stories because it's on my terms. It's hard to explain but I believe you understand. Thank you. Truly, thank you.

Thank you for sharing such a personal experience. So far all the comments have been from other rape survivors. I wanted to post since I have thankfully been spared the experience while so many others have not. I, too, read n/c stories. My reasons are deep and murky even to me. Aren't all of the fantasies that touch are darkest deepest places? I am glad your stories are therapeutic for you and I'm glad that you share them. I find them quite erotic and exciting. I don't know how to end this except to again say Thank You and good luck on your healing journey.

A brave entry and re-live. Rape is rape, is rape. When i read your prof before the story page I thought 'HOW NORMAL'. Then fogged and grimaced to see so many non consent subs. I can imagine the fetish!, altho not sure it's one of the most healthy. No one who does not know you can say they understand. Human complexity is a myriad of thoughts and emotions, intertwined. I would have thought above 50% of the nc subs would end with the perpetrator in custody ... or hell. It would be interesting to write such a story prosecuted with a female antagonist. I hope that the sub block fades BUT turn a new leaf, as they say, to any category. Non erotic i have 2 opinions on. I've edited news and magazines, both peripheral but with national links in the uk. Too many times I saw non ero struggling or poor authors emptying words on Lit. Years ago i tried to have such blacklisted or disparaged within the site. However if having gained praise here one wanted to try a short series of mainstream subs to test out; we'd be mad and short sighted as readers to not welcome such.

This does expose to me the madness of media life, as in the wide and crass distinction.. Sex is a total adult measure of fitness and happiness, and partnering IN a healthy lifestyle. About 500,000 episodes in real life every day. Good and bad. When someone opens their mouth to say there's too much sex on tv, film etc, you hearing either inhumanity, or insanity. IT NEVER reaches true life intimacy levels. Protect children from ALL rape; visual, audio, mental, commerical, and Physical. But in real life terms. A multi stuggle re The 'Net. Rooms for adults and adult life is still not really ring fenced. Age apt awareness is too often religous skewed; or ignored.

Now advertising exploiting Sex, if i was not lonely and happy to see so much female exposure that is NOT REAL, i would happily have a womens' version of The Inquisition (see Dark Ages church warped morality) that went around and used increasingly painful methods of castration on the advertiser collective... I'd be cheering so loud u'd hear me in the US. And if you could turn your attention at the same time to sleazy sales men and women, thats them all who intrude without being asked, I WOULD BE OVER THE MOON. S UK :-)

What you wrote is difficult to read but I hope many people do read it because it is important. I'm sorry you were raped and that you have to work on the issues it caused. I wish you all the best.

.... you've either actually been there or heard about it because you got the drive time correct. I wouldn't mind a post of Milestones with the noted "bad parts". A I read it, it didn't come off as a rape the first time for me.

My first time wasn't romantic either. While it wasn't rape, I feel like I was a naive 16 year old with a crush on an older guy who wanted everything. I couldn't tell him no, he didn't even take his off pants all the way. I asked if he had a condom, I could hear him thinking about his answer as he climbed I too of me, saying "No, but it's okay." as he pushed me into the bed and slide inside. I was pretty heartbroken because I wanted to be his girlfriend, but I felt like he used me and didn't think much of it.

He did end up making me into his girlfriend after using me a few more times. I guess he wanted to try it out a little first. He cheated on me constantly. He lied to me about everything. I stayed with him for three years because I thought I loved him and wanted it to work. He kept making me cry, doing things like cheating on me and then calling me over to fuck me afterwards. I found out because the other girl's girlfriend (she would fuck my boyfriend when her and her girlfriend fought) emailed me her online journal and told me everything.

That was all ten years ago. I met someone amazing three years ago. We have a fantastic relationship.. But I fantasize about being used all the time. I pretend when my boyfriend and I are having sex that he's a stranger who brought got me drunk and brought me home to cum inside.

Strange. Am I right?

Rape is wrong. I detest what Richard did to you, especially as a guy.

I am happy that your writing is therapy at the keyboard.

You owe no explanation to anyone.

Sorry You had to endure some Shellfish Pricks discusting despicable act!

May You do well in life and your writting!

Good luck

Justjhawkins@gmail.com

We use what we must to cope with what happens to us in life. If the fetish helps you deal with your rape, fine. Don't however, glorify rape to all the mouth breathers out there by putting nonconsent stories of any kind in a consent catagory of any kind. You do all women, including yourself, a disservice when you do that. If you care a out story scores, know that will get you bombed no matter the quality of the writing. Be honest.

You aren't fucked up. Actually you're doing well

I was raped when i was 8-10 years old and one of my most fantasized things is rape/bondage. Hearing this makes me feel better knowing im not alone and like you i would not actually want to be raped again, but i do fantasize. You're a fantastic writer. Thank you for sharing your story ❤

I don't think you were twisted by the rape. It's such a common turn on, I'm really happy you have had the wisdom to separate your fantasies from how terribly Richard treated you. I love your stories and really enjoy those fantasies.

Thank you for sharing your story. I can relate to it a lot, I was orally raped as a child and I have always had a massive fetish for anything related to rape, nonconsent, or BDSM power dynamics. I never want to be raped again, but fantasizing about the topic is one way that I can relive and try to reprocess that memory. Unfortunately it's also probably a fantasy which has been baked into my sexuality; when your first experience of sex is so horrible and centered around stripping you of any agency it kinda fucks with how you relate to sex and get turned on. That's something that I only recently realized, and is the hardest aspect of the abuse to admit.

Good of you to put your experience out there for the benefit of others. This unhappy tale really needs to get to the right audience - young teenagers - who could learn a lot from your experience and as a result might avoid it happening to them.

Glad you are brave enough to put this out there for people and glad this writing is helpful for you. Personally I don't like reading most on the non-consent out there most of the time it makes me feel dirty just reading it. Not anything against anyone writing it.

I hope some day (if it hasn't happened already) you and your parents find a way to reconcile if that part of Milestones is true. Your parents blaming you for what happened with Richard is terrible. Richard sounds like a real piece of...work.

As a dad I can't say I'd be terribly pleased by what happened, but I'd listen and understand. I'd forgive you (although Richard would be a much tougher sell). Afterall, their book teaches that none are without sin...even them.

I congratulate you for writing your original romanticized version. It was what you were capable of writing at the time. Traumatic experiences can be difficult to share with others. Putting it in writing and on a site like this for all to see, Including your rapist, is very brave.

It's good to see that you felt comfortable enough to give us the real version. Thank you for that. I hope your family is meeting all of your needs and that you continue to be happy now and into the future.

Thank you for posting this. It encapsulates everything so well and speaks volumes.

Thanks for sharing🖤

I almost got raped once. I managed to get away, but I do keep thinking about it. What if I haven’t fought back? I think I would’ve come to like it very much. That reluctance is a turn on for me , but the risk of an STI is what scares me the most.

I don't know what I expected tbh.

Best story on Literotica...Thank you for trying to put words on what is so confusing!

Wow! Certainly different from "Milestones". Thanks for your honesty.

I have heard of very different reactions to rape. Thanks for sharing your experience and congratulations on what appears to be a strong, if unusual, recovery.

There's no graceful way to ask this. Did this writer actually die? Stage 4 is almost always fatal, but hope springs eternal. Does anyone know? If she in fact passed, did Literotica make any note of it? She mentions some friends in her shocking admission. Have they mentioned her on this site? It just seems to me we owe her some words. I had one of her stories saved in one of my libraries, but this is the first time I heard about this. (5-12-23) It just made me really sad, for whatever that's worth. I enjoyed your stories, Christie052780. I hope you landed in a writer's paradise!

I read your story milestone...I was quite confused till i read this

Everything is clear now

I hope you are doing well and staying happy

I believe in karma, Ma'am may be not today ,not tomorrow but someday he's gonna get what he deserves