Dear April

Best Suicide note I ever read

So, did you write this with a bottle of whiskey at one elbow and a revolver at the other? I could feel the bullet tearing through my brain as I read it.

Thanks! I think...

Whiskey certainly played a part, but I have no desire to kill myself. Essentially, this was pretty much everything I needed to say and this site provides an outlet for me to express it. Hence the letter.

Dystopian, depressing, and truly dreadful.

Please don't write anymore "stories" like this, all that was missing was a picture of you standing on a chair with a rope around your neck; I was having a good, purposeful day, now I have an overwhelming urge to listen to Leonard Cohen albums and drink neat Gin until I start crying with self-pity for all my imagined failures. Thanks a fucking bunch pal, why did you do this? I know the title of this genre is not 'The Happy Incest Section', but for fuck's sake...

No stars, please go and find the number for Depressed Losers Anonymous and let them either talk you into either writing something more upbeat, or show you the best ledge to jump off...

Fuck the anon below

I know I'm an anon too but but fuck it. Damn, its depressing. I just scroll new entries and found this, didn't even know its incest/taboo, just saw the title and kept reading. Askformore, who ever you are and wherever you're from, be strong dude. Don't end your life, I felt damn cold after this, the pain is too real. Love is pain, in any form. Write more man and you better fucking not kill yourself! Lol!

wow

great writing. sadly, truth be told, I have felt the same way, but for different reasons.
Keep writing.

Needs a follow up chapter. frankly I want to see the pain in her and the family.

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Is think that what this character is saying that he doesn't love his sister because she failed to read his mind.

I gave you 1*. Your an selfish asshole. Boo hoo cry me a river then kill yourself since no one else loves or wants you. What about how your sis felt. How uncomfortable & violated she must have felt once her big bro confessed his feelings of love & lust for her. Big bros are suppose to protect their little sisters not want to fuck them then get mad when they don't feel that same lust towards them. Move on already she been has & never looked back. Thank god she didn't I hope she keeps this up in the future. Your a fucking loser. Thats why your still alone you most likely will always be its not April's fault. People aren't mind readers & ppl aren't going to feel a way about cause you want them too.

I think you missed the point Anon.

I think you kinda failed to read what I wrote. I never expected her to feel like I did. And even if she did, I was never able to delude myself into thinking that we would ever work out.

I know she's not a mind reader. That is why I told her that I couldn't tell her. I told her, more times that I care to admit, that yes, my secret could be that bad. Dude, that's the reason I fucking lied to her for so long. Because I thought she would hate me. And when she told me she wouldn't, I believed her.

I was never angry because she didn't want to fuck me, because I'm not the kinda guy who gets angry when girls don't want to fuck me. And I never expected to want to fuck me.

I hope that clears it up.

BTW guys, I have no desire to kill myself. But thanks anyway.

well that was certainly a downer

And if she wasn't depressed before reading his missive, she will be now.

No score

Don't even rate 0ne star.
Want to make your sister feel guilty for not feeling the same way as you do? What a loser!

Cool.

Why did she stick a firecracker in his butt? And why did cake crumbs emerge from her stanky pussy?

People hear what they want no matter what we say.

As you have stated these were unwanted feelings and you never expected them to be reciprocated. She begged for the truth and after many years you told her the truth. From her perspective it would be a very difficult thing to hear. As it would be for most sisters. However, you made it clear that this secret could cause a great amount of turmoil. She made it clear that as your sister and friend she would not pass judgement and grow to hate you. I'm not sure she hates you but clearly has passed judgement. The relationship with your sister does not have to end. It is possible to overcome this and reconcile the friendship. Maybe she just doesn't know what to say at this point. She may be afraid that if it's discussed further, other family would get involved and that would be bad for you. At any rate use that degree and make a life for yourself. Don't worry about the rest of the family. If they don't truly care about you then they have no business in your life. There are millions of women that would be just as good for you and even better than your sister. Move on with your life and you will find happiness. A smart mind that is not put to use in a constructive manner will get bored and overthink everything.

this is the sad truth of of forbidden love.

i agree with the anon, your sister must be scared. think about it, by the time you reveal this she was pregnant, and the way you described your mother and your religion, she must've been terrified hearing this. i don't blame you or anything, its true. we don't choose who we love, true love, one-sided mostly... and you're a good brother, when she came to you, you comforted her. but the enormity of your situation is totally different. you just gotta give a thought from her point of view, given the situation she was in. and no, i don't think you hate her even though you said so, i know, been there before. you just wanted an assurance from her, a little comfort, something. frankly, i can't speak for her unless there's a reply letter from her. i'm an introvert too, i know how it feels... give it more time, sounds lame but yeah.
PS
to the 1star sad piece of shit of an anon who say boo hoo, fuck you. you have no idea what John is trying to say. this is not Julie and Mark's summer vacation in France.

never EVER

Have i given a rating of one before now,what a load of crap

O Thats sad

This is why incest is frowned on. It can lead only in 1 direction only if both parties agree! Or have the guts to except it. So ask4more(john) Go find her! If u mailed it ask her . maybe u can salvage your love.(just ask) As 4 her family just go another state and leave a letter telling hubby I am going away.(hire a local lawyer) just start over. W/every thing name inc.

So True!

This reminded of my experience with my sister when we were younger. My first sex was with my sister. We carried on our sex games for many years, until she got pregnant. When mom & dad found out I was the father of her baby, I became the "black sheep" in the family. Basically no longer recognized as a real family member. I didn't get along with ANY family members. We barely talk at all, and if we do, it's one argument after the other. What really gripes me most though, is my older brother fathered my younger brother with our (Catholic) mother, and they're both treated like royalty. Dad worked to provide for us, and just did whatever mom told him to.
I do know however, when mom passes, (she is dying from cancer and dad passed 15 yrs ago) the rest of them can kiss my ass! We'll be through for good and ever!

coverd in Salt and Feeling Sour as fuck.

Damn. I do agree that April must have been having a hard time given all the circumstances, but to not meet your eye in fourteen months. Fuck. If this is true good luck bro. I've been in a dark place myself all throughout middle and high school and have only just stumbled, clawed, and climbed from those dark recesses into a blinding light like none other. Peace and Safety, brother.

- Jonathan Michael Jackson.

MOAR

Oh man, this was really really good. If you don't make a follow up to this, like a letter from the sister or something, I am going to be very disappointed.