All and More

From the moment I met him, my soul felt as if a door had been opened.
I was caged and restless, too tired to sleep
And too wired to roam
And all the time waiting for death to stalk me.

Everything new.
Everything vibrant.
Everything louder than everything else.

I remember sitting inside myself watching the world go by.
Sitting and wanting yet worrying
Too afraid to step outside.
The weight of my life pulling me down into the abyss.

Falling from grace.
Falling away from myself.
Falling into nothingness and a life unlived.

Love was something
Never really had
Certainly didn't expect.
Almost alien to me.

I have desire, a want and need for him.
I have goals, things I need and want to have with him.
I am loved, something that is everything.