Death Alive

Piercing thoughts embrace me
Flickering realities deny me
Lovely
Wonderful
Elation
Strangulation
Sitting down to stand up falling
Remnants of hopes and dreams
Spotted analytical thoughts
Hopeful fits of hysteria
Distorted memories
Drowning in the air of humanity
Burning in the coldness of love
Dying by day
Living by night
Awakening to a world full of hypocrisy
The hate filled love of 'fearful people'
The tender scorn of the norm
The unrelenting comfort of nonconformity
Different
Disturbing
Fulfilling
Familiar
Needing the world to rebuke me
Wanting the power to fail
Motionless marathons of thinking
Revealing words cast in stone
Thou shalt do as thou desire
Above all else yourself you shall admire
Simple equations of life perplex me
Rebellion falls upon deaf eyes
Locked and chained to community
Taking the path that's trampled and worn
Only to find a shortcut to a living death's door
Take my hand won't you
Feast on my inadequacies
Drink from the well of my empty heart
I am death alive
I am the rest you desire
I am the living sleep you cannot die without
You touch me in the night
Without me even near
You strangle me with hands that devour the world
Let me show you the way to death alive
I've been there once,
I will return again
If only to awake from this eternal sleep
Rested and reborn
Baptized in darkness
Resurrected in the shroud of knowledge
Worshipped by the thin veil of understanding.