For You

the beauty and pain of love, is almost to much to bear

buterflies dance in my stomach,

i've never desired anything so much.

my very spirit yearning and wanting,

my heart is in agony when you are not near me,

emotions i feel are so powerful
as if to transport me away to some far away place within myself.
although I am unable to enter.
I may Only look upon it as it slips away

everything inside me seems to be lost without your smile to coax it out.

the light within me is weakend and dim.

if you could leave my thoughts for a while, I might feel some relief.
but when I am home in bed I cant help myself tossing and turning with heartache for my sweetest love.

all the time I didn't see how I really needed you in my life,

I thought I would give up and push you aside,

find someone else who can be there and comfort me,
but such false loves would soon fade.

it did not cure my lust or love for my sweetest,
my best, my only true lover, you!

my realization seemed to come to late,
until once again you graced my heart with your sunshine.

i felt secure and safe again, lifted.
even so you had to leave, and i was left waiting until next time.

my dream that i had abandoned was restored.

until it comes true that dream continues to motivate me to live and become a better person.

in your eyes I see my worth
and strive to see it in my own.

sometimes I am scared to think what will happen to my dream when we are together again,
will I have a new one?
one of my own
one that we can share!

I can only hope and look forward to our time,
and take delight in the unknown.

for now my love is slightly restrained but one day it will pour from the sky
like a thousand tsunamis washing down from the heavens
cleansing my soul and setting all my will and beauty free

until then I will be screaming inside,
even crying or sometimes laughing imagining you are here with me.