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Click hereYour third (golden) eye flashed
from somewhere near the back of the van,
amidst the jumbled bodies happily
jounced by bad roads.
We'd loved the new band we'd been to see
--Roxy Music, their first tour--
and the thrill of that unexpected sound
fizzed in us like champagne:
it must have gone to my head to remove
my timidity so, make me crawl
awkwardly across that crowded space,
the cast on my wrist spectral in streetlight.
That drunken post-pub football match
on floodlit New Brighton prom;
that outrageous tackle; sailing
slow-motion through the night sky;
my hand meeting summer-dry earth;
a clean snap and a denial
--I'm OK! I'll go in goal!
Why did I go in goal?
Parrying shot after shot with a
rictus of pain and a swelling which,
after the long walk home,
even I couldn't deny.
I dreaded you saying something,
I felt so gauche and full of disability but your
smile was as open as your arms:
"O Finn, you found me!"
The kiss we shared was troubled
neither by my cast nor my evident erection,
nor by your unbeautiful beauty,
nor by our pitiful youth.
The trouble was I wanted you too much and you
didn't want to be wanted so
--not then, anyway: maybe later
when you'd lived a bit more.
But you didn't live and I
didn't learn.
(If you liked this poem, you may care to read "O What a blow that phantom gave me", to which this is a sort of prequel: but then again, you may not)
I REALLY like this. I had to read it three times, but in the third try I finally had an aha! I didn't get the shift to the broken arm at first, and then---duh--it hit me. It is so cool how you twisted it to the arm. What a bittersweet memory though. You are good at this contradicting poetry, and it gives me a kind of melancholy.
I liked the sentimental undertones and the pithy references - very english. Smiles Sweet O.