i wish

i wish i knew what you think of me
Maybe you're not sure what you should  think
what you should want to see
I'm like an addict on the brink

 
scaling  the walls
Trying not to let it show
They all think I'm keeping it together
I'm so glad  they will never know

 
The nights of lonlyness, the days of rain
That fill my life
In search of that something
To fill the hole and show me the way

 
i can not be found I am lost
Everyone hears the words I say
One touch, a second with you
Now I'll never be the same

 
I've got to let  myself out
Before I'm fit and tied
God knows I've tried  
I've tried and I've tried

 
I have this sinking feeling
I'm doing things I didn't think i could  do
I'm tired of trying  tired of believing
well that just isn't true

 
You see, I've been marked i am ownded
you Mark  on my skin  
I feel it still, but now
protected loved owned