My Restless Heart

I hate it now you felt so good
that you make me laugh and smile and cry and feel so deeply
I hate how I touched somewhere inside your soul
that we danced a dance far too short for this longing heart of mine
now all that's left is to smile and say it sure was sweet
I hate how I feel emptied and tired
and my desire once again suppressed beneath the heartache
I hate it that I love you enough
in all the right ways
to wish for you the things I myself did find in you
and once again I go on searching for
I hate that you know me better then it seems I know myself
I thought it simple to walk away
and in my desperation find meaning in what my yesterdays once held
I thought I could surrender to my flesh that screams in agony to be touched
but I can't
for as much as my body screams in lonely torment
my soul screams even louder
and no touch of body can satisfy the deepest longings of my restless heart