That Night

That Night

Walk past the shops, past the street light
That serves as a lamp to make your bedroom bright,
Round the corner and wait by your door,
Each night colder than the one before
As frozen fog and creeping cold air
Wrap icy tendrils around my hair.

I smell the food before I see
You and a take away, Ive brought tea
In a flask to warm us up,
Drunk again you want to make love,
The only fire we'll light tonight
Is beneath three quilts wrapped up tight
In an embrace that warms our skin.
You do your trick with the broken door
And then I follow you in.

I feel my way up the stairs no lights
Just the night and the candles that I light
In your cold bedroom
To lift the gloom,
Shadows crawl the walls and dance
But I know this is my chance
To keep our love a part of you forever mine
That will last for all of time,
When you have slipped away
When life has made you sick and made you pay
For all your mad and wicked ways.

Why should I be left behind?
You're in my heart and in my mind,
But we can never be together
No matter that I love you-
You don't need forever.
Would you be with me if I wasn't stuck with him?
Probably not, I know you. But in this I will win,
For the one at home who doesn't treat me like a lady,
Is also the one who can't make babies.
How dare you tear apart my heart?
Pain killed me when you wanted us to part.
I know you wont last forever,
So I'll steal this gift while we are together.

My house is warm I miss the heat.
I miss the dogs curled at my feet,
The electric lights and all the things
A real home brings.
But a real home can't give me you
A love so true
Nor can it give me a child, that part of you
That I long for that I need
To keep so my heart can at last know peace.

That night when I lay with you
I prayed for that dream to come true.
Well it stayed cold, then the snow fell down
And suddenly I wasn't around:
I stayed at home, in the heat,
With the dogs curled at my feet.
And a white strip in my hand
It bore two red lines and I don't care if you don't understand.
You slipped through my hands and tore my at heart
You tore my hopes and dreams apart.
But it does'nt matter, I still have your love so true,
This precious child inside me,
Is a cherished part of you.