Joining the Circle Ch. 01

You did a very good job answering our questions. I know we came on a little strong, but we don't want to start spending a lot of time getting to know someone, only to find out that their expectations are different from ours.

It is important for you to talk about what you will need as we get to know you. Your needs are important too. Both Bob and I intend to take our time getting to know you, and letting you get to know us. We will exchange emails for a while and then talk over instant messenger. If things are going well, we will talk on the phone after that. And then perhaps we will meet in a neutral place for some safe conversations. All this will progress at a mutually agreed upon pace. We would not engage in any sexual contact, or BDSM play, until we are all sure that we are ready for that level of intimacy.

I see from your response to Bob that you want more than an online relationship, that you want and crave being with your Master. I assure you that, while we will take it gradually, we want this as much as you.

Both Bob and I are curious to learn more about you. How do you deal with frustrations? What are your strengths and weaknesses? What really pisses you off? Do you have any hobbies?

Bob and I are both retired. We live on a nice, big piece of land and have a lovely home, looking over a lake. We raise Golden Retrievers and travel a few months a year. We do not have any children. Sadly, that was not something I could give my Bob. (I understand and respect your commitment to be there for your children if they need you.) We enjoy being in the outdoors; kayaking, fishing, and hiking. Bob enjoys gardening, carpentry, and stock market investing. I am interested in reading, writing, computers, and politics.

If things work out, and we decide to ask you to be our submissive, we would expect you to not have a job outside our home. We would provide medical insurance and, if you choose, Bob could advise you in investments for a retirement income for you.

We would officially employ you as a housekeeper/house sitter. I suspect you would find that your disposable monthly income would be comparable to what you make now. You would be able to keep your car and I would encourage that. Having a job title would make it easier to explain to your family why you are living with us.

Junie dear, as you get to know us, you will learn we are loving and loyal people. We would not "throw you out" without good reason. The only things I could think of that would result in us asking you to leave, without a chance to fix things, would be dangerous or illegal activities. (drugs, assault, arson, theft, etc.) Hopefully we will have had a chance to get to know you well enough that these would not be an issue.

If you have any questions about us, please feel free to ask. We would be glad to tell you anything that would not compromise our privacy at this point. Bob and Donna are our real first names. I really hope Junie is yours. I like it a lot.

I would like to be able to talk with you via instant messenger. I am going to add you to my IM friends list.

Mistress Donna

Junie wrote back:

Dear Master Bob,

I am happy you liked my picture.

Re. my relationship with Sir J.:

I have been talking with Sir J. for almost a year. We met in a chat room. He is only able to play with me via web cam and telephone about once a week, but we are in daily email contact, telephone, and instant messaging.

I have told him everything that has happened so far. In fact, at his request, I have forwarded a copy of your emails (without your names or address) and sent him a copy of my responses.

When we web cam, he has me masturbate with a vibrator while he talks to me on the phone. Sometimes he makes me put clothes pins on my nipples and labia. Other times he has me hit my body with a belt or a small wooden paddle. He has punished me by having me tie my hands together and spend all day naked, in my apartment, kneeling in a corner.

Sir J. gives me assignments like to go to public places and do exhibitionist things. This is most difficult for me. I just can't do this. I am so shy, I freeze up and panic. I am halfway home before I realize that I have failed.

He also wants me to post nude pictures of myself on the internet. I have been afraid to do this so far, but I can tell he is getting impatient with me.

I have sent an email to him about you wanting to talk to him. I gave him your address. He said he would contact you.

My sexual history:

I was a shy child and teenager and did not date or have any boyfriends until I was out of high school. I dated some boys in junior college, and did some necking and petting, but I did not have intercourse. I was a virgin when I met my husband. We dated for several months before I let him have sex with me. We used condoms and for a few months that worked fine, but eventually one broke. I got pregnant. I was 19. He was 22. We got married.

My husband was the only man I had sex with until I was 35. He was having an affair with a woman at his work and we had separated. I had gotten a temp job as a secretary for a bookkeeper during tax season. My boss was pretty aggressive. I was very inexperienced and emotionally vulnerable. He did not take no for an answer and I was not very good at saying no anyway. It did not last very long. He was married. He did not call me once I started working somewhere else.

My husband and I tried to work things out for a few years but he continued to have affairs and our divorce was final when I turned 40.

Our sexual relationship was pretty normal. We mostly had oral and vaginal sex. It was pretty predictable. I never had any trouble having orgasms, but it all seemed kind of boring. We did have anal a couple of times, but he hurt me a lot and I started to say no. We never did anything 'kinky'. I asked him once if he would spank me and he acted like I had lost my mind. I was too shy to ask again.

In the last four years I have had online cyber sex with a lot of different people in chat rooms. I read a lot about BDSM and started to frequent chat rooms for people in the "lifestyle". I met Sir J. He is the only person I have web-cammed with.

Fantasies:

No one has asked me to write down my fantasies before. I have had fantasies about being enslaved and tortured all my life. Even when I was a little girl, before I even knew about sex, I would pretend I was captured by "bad" men. They would chain me up and beat me. I was maybe 14 when I realized the excited feelings I had, when I thought these thoughts, were sexual.

There is one fantasy that I think about most often. I am kidnapped and held prisoner. I am tied up and forced to have sex with dozens of men. At first I resist, fight back, but they whip me, torture me, starve me, and use other mind washing techniques.

Eventually I break and start to cooperate. They rape me orally, vaginally, and anally for hours on end. Sometimes they make me rape other women they have kidnapped, either orally or with a strap-on. I am in agony and terror but soon, to their vast amusement, I cannot help but have endless orgasms.

Soon I am a slave to them and my appetites. I become an insatiable slut, begging for more and more violent and depraved sex and humiliation. I beg them to whip me and force me to fuck myself with objects or put on shows with other captive women.

Sir, after reading over this, I feel kind of embarrassed, but you said I have to be honest for this to work.

Red faced and obedient,

Junie

Junie wrote to Donna:

Dear Mistress Donna,

My name is June, but all my life people have called me Junie.

I got your invitation to add me to your instant messaging. I accepted.

Frustrations? Generally I don't get too frustrated. If there is something or someone I don't like, I usually just avoid them. I try not to think about it too much. Sometimes, I think I blame myself too much for when things don't go right around me, rather than get frustrated with other people.

Strengths: I am smart and patient. I have a good sense of humor. I am clean and very organized and work well without supervision. I am a bit of a perfectionist. (that can be both a strength and a weakness :)) I like physical contact and am a very cuddly person. (I very much miss having someone to sleep with. I would hope that I could sleep with you and Master Bob sometimes.) I like sex and am very responsive and generous sexually.

Weaknesses: I struggle with shyness. I hate going to new places or meeting new people. I think that is how I ended up in chat rooms. I sometimes panic and run away from new situations. I tend to giggle when I am nervous. I tend to eat when I am lonely and sad and it seems like I have been lonely and sad a lot lately. It shows in the fact that I have gained a lot of weight in the last few years. I sometimes fantasize that a strict Mistress or Master would put me on a diet and exercise program.

What really pisses me off? I know I hate it when people lie to me, or are unfair or selfish. I hate people who mistreat children or animals. I don't like it when people are sloppy or messy with things I am responsible for. I don't like to be around people who complain all the time. I don't confront people though, I just try to ignore it or fix it later.

Hobbies: I like textile hobbies. I sew clothing and make quilts. I knit and crochet. I like cooking and gardening. I enjoy the outdoors, but have not spent a great deal of time camping or hiking. I like watching movies and cruising the internet.

Questions for you: When you travel, will I stay home or travel with you? Would I have a room of my own? How much room would I have for my personal belongings? I would like to have room for a sewing table. Would you let me sleep with you sometimes? For sex will we use condoms or would we get an aids test? Do you live near a town or city?

I am a little curious about you and Bob's relationship. You say he is dominant to you. Is he your Master? Would you be my sister-sub or my Mistress? I do not think I could ever top anyone and would be happy to be the lowest girl on the totem pole. I guess I need to be more patient and you will teach me my role.

Obediently,

Junie

Junie's online Dom was surprisingly quick to email Bob and Donna. Bob had not expected him to be very cooperative in losing his relationship with Junie. He read the brief email.

BOB,

JUNIE TOLD ME YOU WANTED TO TALK WITH ME. WHAT IS IT YOU WISH TO SPEAK WITH ME ABOUT?

JAMES

Bob looked at the email. "Jesus, this guy is an ass. What's up with the all caps?"

Donna looked over his shoulder, "He just wants to make sure people are listening. I bet he has one of those voices that sound like he is yelling all the time."

Bob wrote back:

James,

I am pleased you agreed to talk with me about Junie. She tells us you are the one who told her about our ad, that you suggested she contact us. I am curious why you did that?

Junie says you have been training her. What kinds of things have you been teaching her?

Is there anything you think I should know about Junie?

Bob

Bob grimaced at the wall of capitals. What kind of a jerk would write all in capitals?

BOB,

I TOLD JUNIE TO ANSWER YOUR AD. SHE COMPLAINS ABOUT NEEDING TO BE HELD AND TOUCHED. AN ONLINE/WEB CAM RELATIONSHIP HAS MADE HER FEEL WORSE INSTEAD OF BETTER. I WOULD CAM SESSION WITH HER AND SHE WOULD BEG ME NOT TO LEAVE HER ALONE AT THE END.

TRAINING JUNIE HAS BEEN A MIXTURE OF JOY AND COMPLETE FRUSTRATION. MOST TIMES SHE IS WILLING, EVEN ENTHUSIASTIC. SHE HAS DONE EVERYTHING I HAVE TOLD HER TO DO ON WEB CAM. SHE HAS ANALLY TRAINED HERSELF TO TAKE A LARGE VIBRATOR. SHE HAS BECOME QUITE ADEPT AT DEEP THROATING A DILDO. SHE IS GETTING BETTER AT DELAYING HER ORGASM AND THEN COMING ON COMMAND.

HOWEVER, WHEN I TELL HER TO PERFORM IN PUBLIC, SHE FAILS EVERY TIME. I HAVE TOLD HER TO GO TO A STORE WITH A SHORT SKIRT ON AND NO UNDERWEAR. MY GOAL WAS TO HAVE HER FLASH SOMEONE. SHE HAS NEVER MADE IT INTO THE STORE. SHE IS PATHOLOGICALLY SHY AND WITHOUT SOMEONE THERE TO FORCE HER, SHE SEEMS INCAPABLE OF DOING THIS. IT IS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE TO EFFECTIVELY PUNISH A SUB IN A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP.

THE MAIN THING YOU SHOULD KNOW ABOUT JUNIE IS THAT SHE IS A GREAT GAL. I REGRET I CANNOT BE THE ONE FOR HER. I HAD SUCH HOPES AND PLANS FOR HER. IT IS UNFORTUNATE THAT I HAVE PRIOR COMMITMENTS THAT MAKE THAT IMPOSSIBLE.

SHE WOULD MAKE A GREAT SUB. SHE CRAVES TO BE DOMINATED. WITH A FIRM MASTER, SHE COULD BE FORCED TO DO ANYTHING. SHE IS DESPERATE TO PLEASE, INNOCENT AND MALLEABLE, AND AS EAGER AS A PUPPY.

SHE MIGHT BE VERY NERVOUS WHEN YOU FIRST MEET. SHE MIGHT GIGGLE A LOT OR EVEN TRY TO LEAVE. DOMINATE HER, ORDER HER TO SIT AND CALM DOWN. SHE WILL RESPOND VERY WELL TO HAVING YOU TAKE CHARGE.

I UNDERSTAND IF JUNIE BECOMES YOUR SUB, YOU WILL HAVE TO GIVE HER PERMISSION TO CONTINUE WITH OUR ONLINE RELATIONSHIP. IF NOT, PERHAPS YOU AND I WILL BECOME FRIENDS. I WOULD BE INTERESTED TO HEAR HOW JUNIE'S TRAINING CONTINUES IN YOUR HANDS.

JAMES

Donna wrote back to Junie:

Dear Junie,

What a wonderful pair of letters. You did a great job answering both my and Bob's letters. I will answer both of them here.

Bob has been in communication with Sir James. It is okay if you want to tell him how things are going with your getting to know us. I am impressed that you were careful to not share our names or addresses. It shows a level of respect and discretion that is encouraging. If things progress to the point that we want this to change, we will talk to you about this. At this point our friendship is too new for us to presume to tell you what and what not to do.

Only two lovers? It is sweet that you are such an innocent. Do you ever wonder what you may have missed?

Your fantasies are not unusual and yet very sexy. I like the fact you fantasize about being forced to have sex with women. I like the idea of seeing you in a strap-on.

When we travel, we would take you with us some of the time, and some of the time you would stay home and take care of the house. Perhaps you could use that time to visit with your children or even take a vacation of your own.

You would have a room of your own, with an attached area that would have plenty of room for a desk and a work table. You would not need to bring any furniture but if you have some special pieces that have emotional meaning, we could discuss that.

Sweet, sweet little Junie, if I care enough to make love with someone, I certainly would want to hold them, caress them, soothe them, and sleep with them. Bob feels the same way.

Safe sex? Personally I would prefer to not have to worry about barriers. I like to taste and feel the juices of my lovers; it is an important part of love making for me. I want to taste you, drink your wonderful nectar. I want to eat Bob's come out of you. Both Bob and I are very careful. We would require you to take an Aids test. We would take a test at the same time so you could feel safe as well.

We live about an hour from the Seattle metro area. We do not often go clear into the city, preferring to support our local community. But it is close enough if we need to have the big city experience.

Bob and I? We met when we were young. We have been together for almost twenty-five years. It has been in the last fifteen or so years that we have gotten more interested in the BDSM lifestyle. I very much crave pain and humiliation, and seem to need it to fully enjoy my sexuality. Bob is very good at meeting those needs and it turns him on very much to beat me until I come. He is very good at ropes and likes to tie me up. I can't wait to see you in bondage. Your big breasts all tied up, the ropes cutting into your soft skin. I am getting myself all turned on thinking about you.

Bob is not my Master in the purest sense of the word. He is dominant. I treat him with respect. But he respects my opinions and allows me equal say when it comes to running our household and marriage. He does have the final word if there is a difference of opinion. I call him Bob, unless we are playing and then I call him Sir. You would be required to call him Sir or Master at all times. You would be required to call me Ma'am at all times.

I have always been bisexual and Bob has been very supportive of my need to have sexual relationships with women. He loves to fuck with two women at the same time. I fantasize a great deal about being a Dominatrix to a woman. You would be my dream come true. I would love to be strict with you. Diets, exercise would only be the beginning, but I would not want to make you skinny. I love your big breasts and butt.

Yes, you would be on the bottom, but also in the middle and sometimes on the top. My imagination is running riot with me, so many possibilities, and so many positions. Oh sweet Junie, I do so hope that things work out with us, I am already starting to fall in love with you, or at least the idea of having my way with you.

I will see if you are on tonight and maybe we can talk over IM.

Mistress Donna

Donna felt a rush of excitement when she saw that Junie had logged on to instant messaging. She laughed at herself when she realized her heart was beating fast and her face felt hot. She shook her head. It would be stupid to get too worked up now. This was a long way from being a sure thing.

Donna: Sweet Junie, are you there?

Junie: Ma'am, yes I am. How are you?

Donna: Happy to be able to speak with you.

Junie: You make me blush, Ma'am. I just hope I will be what you want.

Donna: Oh sweet Junie, I want you already, but we must take our time. Rushing into things can be a mistake, and I so want this to work.

Junie: I want that too, Ma'am.

Donna: You have never made love to a woman?

Junie: No, Ma'am. I often think about it. I touch myself and taste my fingers. I think about what it would be like to make love to another woman's beautiful flower with my mouth. I very much want to try. Sometimes I have dreams where I have a penis and I am making love to a woman. They are some of the most erotic dreams I have.

Donna: You are making me feel very hot. Do you think about what it would be like to have a woman go down on you, lick you, suck your clit into her mouth, fuck you with her fingers or a toy?

Junie: I think about it, but it's always been hard for me to accept pleasure from someone orally. I sort of froze up when my husband would go down on me. I wonder if I could relax and enjoy accepting oral pleasure from anyone. I would like to try. It excites me to read your words, Ma'am.

Donna: Are you touching yourself now?

Junie: No, Ma'am. Am I supposed to be?

Donna: No, not now, but later after we are done, if you want to... would you think about me lying between your legs worshiping at your beautiful cunt?

Junie: I could do that, Ma'am.

Donna: I would like that. When you touch yourself, whisper to me, tell me how good it feels, tell me where to lick and how hard. Right before you come, beg me for it and make yourself wait just a little while, and then after you come, thank me. Think about me coming up and kissing you with your sweet juices all over my face, and then wrapping my arms around you and holding you, sleeping with you all night.

Junie: Oh god, Ma'am. I feel like I am going to cry. I need to be held so badly. It's been so long.

Donna: I know, sweet baby. I would be there now if I could. I hate the idea of you being lonely and sad. I promise that you will never feel that way again once you come to live with me and Bob.

Junie: I would do anything to have that, Ma'am.

Donna: We all would. Tell me about your day.

Junie: My day, Ma'am? I went to work. I work four days a week, filing in a big records room and converting hard copies to a computerized data system for the school records. I work by myself most of the time. It is not very challenging. The worst thing is that the files they send me are terribly disorganized and difficult to work with, one of those frustrations you asked me about.