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Click here"My distance from my emotions was a big part of why my marriage failed. I loved my wife, but when it came to showing it, to saying it, I couldn't come through. I lost myself in my career, and while my emotional distance was a benefit a lot of the time, what made me a good cop made me a terrible husband.
"I thought I'd come a long way since then, but as my brother so eloquently pointed out, I've learned nothing. That's part of why he said I was an idiot, not just for being with a woman thirty years younger than me, but for being with that woman and not telling her how I felt."
I stared at him, trying to process what he was saying. He was showing me a side of himself I'd never dreamed existed, and I could see it was uncomfortable for him.
"But I didn't want you to feel trapped or obligated in any way. I didn't want to seem like a desperate old man either."
I opened my mouth to protest, but he shook his head and continued.
"To be honest, I assumed you'd meet someone else and this would all stop. I didn't want to get in the way of that happening. I still don't."
"Do you want me to meet someone else?" I asked, the tiniest pang of fear rising up inside me.
He shook his head, smiling again. "God no, I don't want it, but I've expected it. I've seen guys checking you out, Holly—guys your age. I figured it was only a matter of time before one of them caught your eye."
"But I don't want someone else," I said. It was the truth; I'd been asked out a few times by guys in my classes, but I'd never been even a little bit tempted or curious. "I want you. You make me happy, Patrick. You make me feel good."
He laughed softly. "I'm glad I do." He reached for me and I let him pull me into his arms. He kissed my cheek and held me close for a minute.
"I do love you, Holly," he said after a few minutes of silence. "I don't know what that means, really, if it defines anything more than my feelings, but I'm glad I told you how I feel. I might well be an idiot, but at least I'm an honest idiot now."
I shifted until our mouths met and we kissed for a few minutes, slowly and carefully. When I drew back I studied the expression on his face. It was a complicated mix of uncertainty and affection. My heart surged as a ripple of excitement moved through me, the slightest ache of arousal beginning inside me. I snuggled against his warm body, feeling safe and satisfied, and laid my head on his chest.
"Patrick?" I said after a few minutes of content silence.
"Hmm?"
I pushed myself up on an elbow and looked down into his face, feeling just a little bit shy all of the sudden, self-conscious like way back when we first started seeing each other and I'd realized I was attracted to him. For a second I thought about those nervous dinners with him, how thrilling they'd been, how happy I'd felt just being with him. It seemed like a long time ago, but it also seemed like we were there again, flirting and testing, a little uncertain.
I looked at him waiting for me to speak, and felt another surge of excitement. I felt almost dizzy. When I spoke I could only manage a whisper.
"I love you too," I said.
I love your writing and this story just became one of my favorites. I look forward to reading the rest of your stories.
I lost count how many time sI've read this story. I love it, I wish I could write like you do,
Keep posting, please.
After years of reading erotic literature, I seldom read one author exclusively
from one piece to the next...from beginning to end. I could name the award winning people whose writing years ago had the same effect. "angel_grant" is one of the truly talented writers I have read and marveled over now as well.
This specific story I loved because it said what it said and held open the mysteries of what it did not say masterfully. So when it ended in professions of love, I was hooked for good.
"angel_grant" I want to thank you sincerely for writing such lovely stories
that have had me captivated for a whole week. It was such a sweet ride.
I am in your debt.
Definitely your best developed characters to date. I find it very interesting that up to this point all of your stories, in time sequence, have been written from the woman's perspective. Will I find that "Stars" is the first from a mans? I can hardly wait to find out ... :-)
I loved this chapter as well. It was so natural with the characters and you gave such good details. This story really got me excited. You write well.
I don't know how many times I've read this. I love the characters..
The end is so perfect, but it also gives me a longing feeling for more...
You are an amazing writer!
this was out of this world! i loved loved LOVED it! ahh what a talent you've got, dear. awesome job!
I loved it! You drew me in, made the characters engage me, and had me rooting for them from day one. Thank you so much for posting this up. If you write anymore about Patrick and Holly, I'd love to read it.
Angel, I've read a lot of stories on here, but yours truly sums up what most of us women really want and need. A desirable man, but also a loving and tender man. Thanks so much; I hope more stories are on the way!
This series was sweet and sexy. Iliked the hard fucking and the tenderness too. I hope youll write more!
The way you continued the story was just "wow." I hope you can continue this series! Keep them coming angel_grant!