Somebody That I Used to Know Ch. 02

I pushed her down onto the bed and kissed her neck working my way back to her lips.

She held my face in her hands, kissing me slowly and sensually.

"Are you sure you're ready?" I smiled, her concern was new, no one ever asked if I was ready, usually just taking what they wanted.

"Yes."

She rolled me over and pulled me higher up on the bed.

"Good."

Her hands traveled up my body and pushing both my arms over my head, interlocking our fingers and working her body over mine. Our skin touching was an experience on its own. A soft sexy body on top of me, her weight holding me down on the bed, her body heat turning me on.

She worked her way down my body, kissing every piece of flesh in sight. All I really wanted was her mouth on my nipples sucking and biting. It had been a long time since anyone knew how to treat my body and I hoped she would be a lot better than the last. Finally working her way to my chest she sat up and straddled my legs. Taking both my breasts in her hands she squeezed and massaged around my nipples, making me moan and groan with a desperate need for release.

Finally bringing her mouth over my left nipple, she teased me by blowing warm air and never stoping her hands from playing with me. My hips were moving up and down to try and apply some pressure but she would just smile and bite my nipple which wasn't such a bad thing.

"I need you."

"What do you need Miranda?"

She was looking up at me with my nipple still in her mouth. What did I need? To cum, to have her mouth on my pussy, to have her eat me out like no one had done before her, for her to fill my pussy with her fingers and make me cum until I couldn't move. But how do you articulate that.

"I need your mouth on my pussy and your tongue on my clit. Is that clear enough?"

"Aren't you the dirty talker."

She went down and for the first time in a long time I was able to feel true pleasure and not from my own hand. She was licking up and down my lips and damn did it feel good. My hips instantly rose off the bed and couldn't help but stay there for just a second longer than necessary. I dropped back to the bed and never did she stop what she was doing just adjusted herself to my movements.

I couldn't help but work my hips to meet her lips it felt so good. She wanted to be there and she was showing me that she was enjoying what she was doing. I couldn't remember the last time I had felt this wet. Slowly she started inching her way further into me. Until finally I felt her lick my clit again making me jump off the bed.

"Oh God don't stop."

She moaned into my pussy and wrapped her lips around my clit as she started sucking. Why did I ever stop seeing women? It didn't take long for the longing to start building up inside of me. I needed to feel alive again to feel someone looking to bring me pleasure. As she was sucking on my clit she started flicking her tongue and that sent me over the edge screaming and moaning in ecstasy.

I was feeling the after effects as small tremors shook my body. She worked her way up my body and hugged me from behind as I lay on the bed spent.

"You are one gorgeous woman when you cum."

"Oh Valerie you're amazing."

"Thank you."

I left that morning with a huge smile on my face. I was headed to Autumn's and we were going to have lunch together, I had a lot to tell her about.

At breakfast I told her about my night with Valerie with most of the details not all of course. We both agreed that I should take it slow, no commitment because a broken heart needs time to heal, not a band aid.

She was right, although I tried to avoid thinking of the divorce it was always present in that big home of mine. I had been loyal to Steven and he had taken it for granted, what's to say everyone else won't be the same. I had been neglected and taken advantage of when it came to me being nice. I took a lot in hopes of making my marriage work and maybe that was part of the problem; I made too many sacrifices and he made none.

I also talked to her about the incident with Toni in the classroom, the office and the concert she had invited me to, which I didn't know the date for and this she did not think was a good idea.

"Look all I'm saying is be careful, it's a slippery slope with her and your career. She's way more than you can handle."

"What's that supposed to mean?" I asked while drinking my tea.

"Honey, she's good with her words and has more skills than just a good tongue and I'm sure she's just as good with her hands. But I don't want you guys to get so fascinated by each other and the fact that you can't have each other that it consumes you. Not to mention that she's exactly your type?"

"What do you mean my type?"

"Have you forgotten Giselle?"

I had forgotten about Giselle. Giselle was someone I had known a very long time ago and she too had broken my heart. She was someone whom I had tried to forget and not think about. I have thought of her over the years and how things used to be between us when things were good. I had been happy with her and she made me feel alive. Now she was just somebody that I used to know. There's nothing important about her just someone else who broke my heart. Just another jerk in my life who has screwed me over when all I tried to do was love them. I should have seen it how she was stuck on the one girl who had left her, the one girl she had always loved, the one who got away.

"That was such a long time ago I had forgotten. At least she was good in bed, do you think Toni's that good?"

"MIRANDA?!?!" She looked at me with the biggest eyes, had I said something wrong.

"What?"

"I told you to be careful with her. She broke your heart and now all you think about is Toni, when you just slept with Valerie." So much for a good morning, she was right she had tried to warn me about Giselle. It was different with her though she was just like Steven, I made so many sacrifices and I still wasn't worth it.

"Reason I married Steven."

"Honey I just don't want you to rush into anything with anyone. I mean I know they just look similar and they may be completely different, but I don't want you to let her beauty distract you from who she truly may be or is."

"When she broke up with me to go back with her ex, I thought all women were just like men, so why go through the trouble of dealing with societies stigmas." I had heard her but I was still thinking bout Giselle. Giselle and I had been together before I started dating my ex-husband. She was definitely a heart breaker. She always knew the right things to say at the right time and she was smooth.

"When I met Steven he made sense you're right I didn't love him but he fit the bill."

"Why did you stay for so long?"

"We led two separate lives and we were happy that way. I'm loyal to a fault so even though we led separate lives I never thought about seeking sexual pleasure somewhere else."

"Will you be seeing men as well?"

"Nope been there done that, not my cup of tea, anymore. I mean my family already thinks I'm ridiculous for getting a divorce and leaving my affluent husband for his 'indiscretion'. Therefore, why not just let them take it all in one blow."

As you get older you realize how you allow others to dictate your behaviors because of societal standards. We live our lives by the standards set by someone else instead of just living for our own happiness and wellbeing. Ten years went by and I lived for someone else, now it's time I lived for myself.

There's no sense in allowing more time to go by when I had lost so much already. I had been unhappy in my marriage but stayed because it was the right thing for my family. I had stayed in a loveless marriage because nothing else made sense. I had no other options for my life when I was married. I was working and building a career, the carnal pleasures weren't at the forefront of my thoughts. Over the years I had learned to repress my feelings for the sake of not feeling unfulfilled.

Ten years have gone by and now I wonder how much time I have wasted being unhappy.

"Hey Toni, hang on please." I was standing in front of my desk as class had just ended. She came in a lot closer than I expected.

"Yes professor?" Damn that voice so deep and low, sexy. Speak Miranda speak. I waited for all the students to leave. She had been one of the last ones.

"I never asked when the concert would be?"

"July 13th."

"Oh.... so we have about 2 months and you will have graduated by then correct?" Hmmm, is this you're way of keeping in touch.

"Um, yea, I guess so."

"You don't think you'll find anyone more interesting by then." She took a step closer.

"What makes you think you're not interesting?" Oh she smells good.

"I just know that I'm a lot older than what you're used to." She laughed and put her head down and finally looked back up with those big brown eyes. She had me under her spell.

"I'm sorry again for the age comment I really didn't mean anything by it. I'm sure you're not much older than I, and age is nothing but a number maturity, wisdom and life are what matters to me."

"In what sense?" I could barely speak it was no more than a whisper.

"For the company I keep."

"I'm company?"

"Yes but maybe we can be friends?" Our lips were a few inches away from each other and her eyes had captivated me to where I would never look away unless she let me.

"How do you suggest we keep in contact until then?"

"Miranda if you want my number you could just ask." She put both of her hands on the desk on either side of me, making her get closer because I was already up against it. Take control Miranda take control. How does she decide when to call me Miranda, I don't know but I know I need to get back in this if I expect to survive. I adjusted her shirt collar and caressed her neck as I spoke.

"Honey if I wanted your number I would tell you not ask you, but I have no need for it." She shivered just enough to where I felt it.

"I want you." She closed the space between us and kissed me, just a small peck that left me wanting more, I wrapped my arms around her neck.

"I'm not just some girl you can sleep with remember." She kissed me again.

"I know but I want you." Another kiss and she wrapped her arms around my waist.

"Why?" It was more of a moan than me speaking.

"Because you're beautiful and I'm attracted to you." Kiss.

"So what do you want from this?" Kiss and she pulled me in closer and I parted my lips as she kissed me, sucking in her bottom lip. She moaned right into my mouth.

"I (kiss) have (kiss) no (kiss) clue." Damn I figured you didn't honey and I can't take this chance. Fuck we're in the classroom. I pulled away, stepped to the side and grabbed my briefcase.

I cupped her face with my right hand.

"Well when you do know, you know how to find me." I gave her one last kiss, just long enough to leave her wanting more as I walked away. She actually fell back on the desk and cue the sway of the hips.

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Toni

"So you gonna tell me what's bothering you or should I guess?"

"Nothings bugging me."

"Do I have to remind you that I've known you since we were 4, what's up do you want me to pick your brain?" She tapped my head and I swatted her hand away as I did a fake to the left, went right and took a shot, miss.

It had been a while since I had seen Jada. To be exact the last time was at the club when he was dancing with Miranda. Oh Miranda, I may have an angel on my shoulder but I have a devil in my head telling me to play with fire.

Jada and I play basketball at least once a week and today was my day off work, why not go play in the middle of the day when the courts are empty. We play at echo park, a place near my dad's house and Jada's parents house, where she lives.

"Jada can we please just play." She took the rebound and held the ball.

"No, not until you tell me what's up. You've missed every shot since we got here. What's up?"

"YOU and Miranda." Keep your cool this isn't even about her and you know it Toni relax.

"Me what did I do?"

"Nothing I'm over it. Let's play." I took the ball from her.

"Toni, you know I didn't know she was the same Miranda from the car incident and I didn't think you would mind considering you put her on the can't sleep with list and once I did know I backed off."

"It's nothing can we keep playing."

"Dude at some point we've slept with the same girl and you've never cared and now I dance with "the professor" and you're acting like a weenie."

"Okay fine, I know all this Jada, I really do but for some ridiculous reason I watched you dance with her and I thought of how I should have been the one dancing with her. How I wanted to be the one to hold her and yet I'm the one who never wants that with anyone for the past 6 years I have never been jealous or wanted anything like that with anyone." I walked over and sat on the bench as Jada just stared at me in what seemed like disbelief on the basketball court.

"Was that so hard to admit?" She was smiling.

"Yea." It was barely over a whisper. She came over and sat next to me. I rested my head on her shoulder she was the closest thing to a sister and her mom was the closest thing to a mom I knew.

"Babe, you're getting older and wiser and maybe now you can see that one night stands won't keep you satisfied forever. "

"I know." I had been contemplating this since the second time I slept with Ashley.

"What's up with Ashley, I mean two nights and at your place. But most importantly what's up with the professor, huh?"

"Mind reader. I don't know it actually felt good to be familiar with her body you know. It wasn't so bad dropping her off at home and when she wasn't there in the morning I realized we were both on the same page, it was fine. The professor I know I want her but its different with her. I don't know what I want but I know its not like all the other girls I've met. For the first time I admitted to her that I want her and I kind of went for it. I kissed her because I couldn't help myself. Me I never put myself out there."

"Maybe you should try a relationship before you go dismissing the idea of it."

"I had Sylvia."

"That wasn't a relationship and how did Sylvia even come up? You guys weren't exclusive nor committed."

"Oh well I guess I forget to mention that I saw her and her girlfriend, remember Nicky V?" She nodded. "Well they're together now and we had a threesome that well didn't exactly end well." I explained everything and the conversation we had before I left. Jada looked disappointed. She punched me on the arm.

"I hoped she would never resurface so that you could put her behind you."

"I think I want a girlfriend Jada, you know someone I can call my own, that's what I had always wanted with Sylvia. Then when I couldn't have it I became set in my ways. If I just keep sleeping around I'll never find anyone and I don't want to end up alone. I love my dad but he never tried after my mother left, he's alone now and even though he says he's fine I know he's not."

"What do you ultimately want?"

"A wife, a family, kids to call my own. Miranda" Shit that's the first time I said that out loud to anyone.

"I'm proud of you babe, you're growing up. Now that you've admitted that to yourself think about how you should live your life if that's what you want. And do me a favor and forget Sylvia even if she ever came back around. You're to good for her if she couldn't see what you were worth. As for Miranda I think you finally met a woman that won't take your bullshit. Come on let's go, I'm hungry."

"You don't seem surprised."

"I know you too well to be surprised."

"What do you think mom made?"

"You're favorite because I told her, her precious Toni was coming over, Steak, potatoes and cheesy bread."

"I love your mom."

"I know she makes a point to remind me how good her other daughter is, punk, you make me look bad."

I was left with a lot of questions after our talk, why was I being rude to Jada when she was right about Miranda. She was just doing what any of us would have done, asked her to dance. But I was so jealous even after so long, yet I could've slept with her a long time ago. I mean it's not as if we haven't been clear about wanting each other, so what's different. What do I want from her?

I respect her, that's the problem. She's not just some girl I met and who I want to sleep with and move on to the next girl. She's beautiful but it's more than that, she's smart and can carry a conversation, good conversations. She's witty and won't stand down when I push her. She has a gorgeous body that I would love to worship, not just touch but appreciate, caress and touch feeling every muscle every curve learn of any scars and any birthmarks.

Man did it bother me when I saw her with that other girl, I mean I knew I could get Jada to back off but now she's seeing this other girl and I can't do anything about that. Yet here I am thinking of Miranda and I can just as easily call Ashley, but that won't satisfy my want for Miranda, my need. What do I need, her body, no. Her mind, yes part is her body but more than that I want her soul. Fuck I think I fell for her. The one person I can't have I fell for.

Damn it Miranda from the moment I saw you the day I picked you up I knew you would be trouble, I just didn't understand then how much.

I went to class the next day and was way too early so I stopped at the campus Starbucks for some coffee and guess who I ran into.

I stepped behind her in line and automatically her smell made me smile. No one was around that early and anyone who was, was unable to see me so I pushed the boundary a littler further.

I slid my hand around her waist and pulled her body in close to me, leaving my mouth right next to her ear.

"Good Morning Beautiful."

"Good Morning Gorgeous, getting a little comfortable are we?" She leaned her body into me and her head was resting on my chest.

"Do you mind?"

"I should....."

"But you don't. Are you ok with all your students holding you this close, or did you know it was me?" Please say you knew.

"Of course not, you should now that you're the exception to my rules. I could smell you as soon as you stood behind me." I finally let go as we we're closer to the front and being seen. I had to sigh because having her in my arms felt so right.

As she ordered the girl working the espresso machine smiled.

"Your usual Toni?"

"Please." Miranda just shook her head as she paid for her drink and when she stepped to the side I saw her smiling.

"How's it going Toni?" The girl was standing next to the guy at the register as I handed him my card.

"Good, same thing different day."

"Ain't that the truth. Haven't seen you around the dorms lately what happened?"

"Jada moved out, she was the only reason I was ever there."

"I see." She handed me my latte.

"Thanks, I'll see you around." When I turned Miranda was walking to the door so I walked to catch up to her.

"You know we are going to the same class." I opened the door for her and she walked ahead of me.

"Thank you. How is it that one moment you're holding me like I belong to you and the next you're flirting with some other girl?" Well where did this come from?

I grabbed her hand and turned her to face me. If I didn't know any better I would say she was jealous just as I was jealous when she was with that other girl. I looked at her and I realized I still didn't know what I wanted. If I allowed myself the time to think about it the answer was simple. I wanted a girlfriend to call my own, but was Miranda the person I wanted to have that with.

"I'll answer you if you answer one question for me."

"What?"

"Are you jealous?" She laughed and blushed I got my answer.