Mistress's Reality

REALITY

Last night I lay in your arms
Your heart beating under my ear
Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.
Stealing time
Sharing kisses
Whispering thoughts desires observations
Intoxicated by your taste and scent
Your touch
The sound of your voice
The rhythm of your breathing
Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.
The sound of your heart beating

We lay exhausted
From making Love
In so many ways
For so many hours
For so many reasons
I was drawn to look
One more "last" time
At your face
Memorized it before you must leave me at dawn
Alone in the rented sanctuary
With its coffee maker and
King size bed

Restful sleep would not come
I slipped into brief dreams and awoke
Moaning
Whimpering
Tossing
Turning
I ached to hold you closely and
Hear the sound of your heart beating
Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.
Knowing soon I'd watch your
Back
As you walked out the door

When may I walk beside you
In the sunshine
Hold your hand
In the daylight
Know the reason your day has caused your
Head to bow
Learn of your disappointments
Share the joys of your accomplishments
Hear the sound of your heart beating
Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.

Tonight I lie solitary in my bed
After having voiced so many times
I love you
You sleep in your bed
With a lovely woman
You don't want to hurt
You go about your routine
I know I'm somewhere in your heart but
I don't get to feel you close
I can't lie beside you and hear
Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.
The sound of your heart beating

Such joy in your arms
Now loneliness confusion self protection
Intrude into my hours
This is not the way
Love is supposed to feel
I didn't heed my own warning
Didn't walk away while
I was still unscathed
I struggle and hold back the flood of tears
Wishing you were beside me to
Taste the only droplets I haven't
Offered of myself

You don't want to hurt her
I don't want to hurt myself
So I disconnect our means of contact
For a brief moment
Halt my efforts to gain proximity
I can't share you now
I could have if we'd stuck to the script
But we've wandered
So far outside the marks
You tell me your body is all mine
Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.
While you sleep beside her

The story old as time
Unfolds as my present
The pangs of exile run though me
Will she be so blind as not to see
The bounce in your step
The smile in your eyes
The softness around your mouth
I dare not trust you wish her to
Relinquish your heart beneath her ear
Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.   Thaa rump.