Can't Dismantle

AUTHOR'S NOTE: You will find my writing ability extends beyond anything erotic.
I wrote this because this needed to be said. At the very least, to be written down for the sake of my own sanity..

And this is dedicated to anyone who's ever been in an abusive relationship.
Someone out here needs to know they are not alone today... May you find a message in my words that is just for you.

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CAN'T DISMANTLE ME

BLIND ME....

Your scars tattooed upon my heart.
Dripping me poison from the start.
Your kisses leaving a mark,
And blinding me to your dark.
You became my favorite sickness.
Red lips become black as night,
All your evils within my sight.

And you seek to isolate,
Because you seek to violate.

And your whispers haunted me in my head.
Long after I left you behind in bed.

So build me up, idealize.
Just to tear me down, criticize.
All my wailing tears watered your bitter soil,
All my sweat and my futile toil.

My heart will not be the grave of your regrets,
I will not bear your burdens.
Angels tempting smile with wicked devil wings,
This wicked song your sickness sings.
Your soft flesh and all the pain in brings.

Your scorpion tongue could leave a man black and blue,
To pierce a heart all the way through.

That infectious venom that eats away at my soul.
To consume free will into utter control.
You lied to me, I do have a choice.
You can't kill me, you won't silence my voice.

I don't wanna tango with all the skeletons in your closet.
And you beat the drums of torment with their bones.
And walking on eggshells just to get to your sex.

You tied me up, but tried to bind my soul.
And I am not yours to control.
Clawing at my sanity,
Just to feed your vanity.

ENSNARE ME.....

Breaking me down into confusion,
All for the sake of your delusion.

Nothing you say makes any sense.
You cannot curse and bless me in the same sentence.

Bars of your lies formed into my cage.
You inflamed my hurt into anger, twisted by this toxic rage.
You enmeshed my heart with poison, captured by clouded haze.

Your lips bringing pleasing violation.
Mesmerize me until you become my obsession.
Fetishize me until I become your affliction
Punch-drunk on this obsession.
Like a poisoned addiction.

Call it what you want, I'll never call it true love.
You crushed my heart like a murdered dove.

Your cruel words beat me ten times too many .
Like laying siege to my mind.
Hearts are beautiful, but fragile like glass.
And you don't get a free pass,
you can't make these corpses last.
Like fading ghosts of what could have been.

And my life keeps on turning,
Like a heart in fires burning.
I had to burn it down.
All lays in ash with glowing ember,
our love lost I cannot remember.
All gone into immolation.
Lost into desecration.

LIBERATION.....

I am dead, but only to you. I will not drown in your artificial shame.
I am not your pawn, I will not die in your sacrificial game.
Your curses I'm breaking and outlasting ,
Not yours for the taking, I'm surpassing.
I'll hold a funeral for this pain.

You're my false idol falling from my grace,
You're so distant now in time and space.
Your beauty dismantled, now you show your age.
I'll bravely tell my story, like the words on this page.
I am flying free, I don't need your cage.

You call me selfish, but it's my own preservation.
You words caused invisible devastation.
And I cannot bear my own hesitation.

You would leave me with empty tears,
and a shattered life with wasted years.
My heat still loves, even though it screams,
and you creep into my darkest dreams.

Don't hunt me down to make 'amends.'
By now, we know how this ends.
You're so unstable, so I'm no longer able.

Life is too short to dwell in your regret,
I have healed but I won't forget.
How quickly these flashbacks do beset.

You loved me a little, but hated me much more.
You will not settle the final score.

Leaving you was like smashing down the gates of hell.

It's not for sale, so you can't buy my soul.
I'd rather die than give you back control.
My beauty is something you'll never see,
'cause all good things are wild and free.

I'll never regret being who I'm meant to be..
So I shine In a way you'll never see.

I am a truth that cannot be handled,
I am something you cannot dismantle.