Donny's viral photos of wild horses

I tagged Barbara
because she is obsessed with
protecting wild herds
not sure why I included the intro
"prom date" on my post

but Donny replied
"You are the best Jenn
You always have been"

storm of interpretations commence:
maybe he regrets
maybe he wished
maybe he still

memory interjects:
whispers, grandpop's lap
shy twirling of hair
"maybe I really am the most beautiful girl"

interpretation shifts:
Donny becomes patronizing-
like the orderly flirting
with a client whose shirt says
90 is the new 50
she brushed her blue hair
hoping he would be the one
to wheel her to dinner

you are the best
you always were

I search
I wonder
I thought there was a wife?

Barbara’s first husband died young
Barbara’s second husband died wealthy
I don’t imagine a third for Barbara
but what do I know

what I want to reply:
"The best? You never even fucked me!"

skipping into future tripping:
he winds up in my bed
knees pulled toward his chest
and legs wide
our search words mention
rimming and edging and Jesus
so close what the fuck
and perhaps begging
but don't you dare come
not yet Donny, not yet

Barbara says Donny has good taste
but god now I just want to watch
his eyes roll back in his head when
he can’t hold back any more