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Cried on a plane today
Reaching for the hand that was no longer there
Remembering the times you held it
And kept me calm and sure

Then you let go
Without a warning
No that's not true
I let go

But for all your vision
You never saw
I had to let go
But I didn't want you to let go

Trapped in a web of my own design
You knew it
You accepted it
But I was no longer the spider but the fly

So when you asked me
Questions with no comfort
I sighed and lied
Let you misunderstand

Best that way
For me
For you
You couldn't sense my tears
Maybe you knew too

Not wanting to hurt one
I could only hurt two
So when you wanted to hear what you wanted
I let you
You couldn't hear my tears

Nothing lasts forever
Except in my memory

That was what I was keeping
Until that day you chose to break all
Co-conspirator with one you knew
That hurt the most

Yours to chose
I know
But so sudden and complete
Can you know that pain
I think not

Mistaken messages only made worse
Until you threw salt
So condescending
I cried again through you would not know

So I bit my lip and let go
I never let go

And now I think of you
When the plane flies sure
I don't need your hand
But I miss it

Don't write back
I'll just tangle you in blue

Be happy
I want you happy
You made me happy
And I want you to know that's what I recall

I do miss you
I hope you feel my hand in yours the next time you fly

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